12-21-2014, 12:00 AM
Okay so ...
All I can say is that this seems to be having a rather odd effect. I wish I had gotten into stalking social fears years ago.
Why? Well for the first time in about 4 years I recently got into a state of wierd depression. I wanted to be left alone, and could not quite identify the source. After all - life has been quite fine lately. I'd been meeting new people, staying in excellent physical condition, and building stuff I previously thought that I couldn't.
The sadness is that I have been a scared person most of my life, that is of people. I have passed up so many great opportunities due to being timid. There were so many great relationships I could have had, so many more teachers, and so many more careers. I have looked to so many things that I wanted, but believed they were beyond my reach. So I settle for that which I know I can predict, sort of. So sad...I have no one but myself to blame.
All I can say is that this seems to be having a rather odd effect. I wish I had gotten into stalking social fears years ago.
Why? Well for the first time in about 4 years I recently got into a state of wierd depression. I wanted to be left alone, and could not quite identify the source. After all - life has been quite fine lately. I'd been meeting new people, staying in excellent physical condition, and building stuff I previously thought that I couldn't.
The sadness is that I have been a scared person most of my life, that is of people. I have passed up so many great opportunities due to being timid. There were so many great relationships I could have had, so many more teachers, and so many more careers. I have looked to so many things that I wanted, but believed they were beyond my reach. So I settle for that which I know I can predict, sort of. So sad...I have no one but myself to blame.