10-01-2013, 12:00 AM
7/31-8/1-12
Atlantis Gate.
After the heart thing yesterday, it seemed important to me to stay in that clarified state, so I was careful who I talked to, what I read, what I thought. Kept it simple. I passed the time listening only to music, engaging in games, but nothing to far outside the feeling. Seemed important. I did drink a mug of the dream tea, as well, since i had resolved to do so more as a symbol of intent then any effect, ive never noticed a specific change by doing so. So I did that, I never got tired per say. I set my intent. When I lay in bed, I was struck by the notion to wear the cedar and copper amulet, covered in gold leaf with small uncut gems arranged around it that my friend made for me, with those symbols, based on a dream version I found years ago. Seems Atlantis with the crystals and symbols. I wear it very infrequently, I just keep it in my “dream bowl” next to my alarm clock. It tingles sometimes, or sends waves of heat or cold or sensations. When its not good to wear it I can feel it take it off. It was right this night to wear it. I put it on after prayers and before intent. I always thank all those who have been friends, whether i saw it or not, and offer my friendship in return, in time. Then to connect here, and people by name. On this part, I was drawn to hold the pendant in my hands, and feel it, I felt, how I saw people, felt, was quite electric and nice. As soon as I was done, in that feeling, I very rapidly fell into sleep.
The dreaming wasn’t very long, it wasn’t very plot or dialogue packed either. It was dense and fast and rich in seeing and sensations. Powerful, incredible those breathless words might apply. By my recognizing of such things, and I do have high thresholds I suppose. So... That said. It started right away like a group circle, or gathering. Others described this part, in posts before mine, as both flags/kites and maybe a bar. I saw both of those aspects as well. Flags, like the flag pole excersise, moving awareness. This also was similar to dreams of past week ive had, the flashcards, the paintings, it was more or less the same exercise, just different levels of it. I was also like...well, sharing drinks. Like I saw in another dream from single items...carrot juice etc. Then mixed a bit and shared. It was like all of that and a circle. The physical space, and there wasn’t much of it I could see, was like a platform very high...or maybe its all that existed. I didn’t see the gate in the ground per say, more like in the “circle” of awareness, maybe it brought it. But it did look like a rippling pool of water.
Who was going to enter...who COULD enter? It was scary. To touch it, it wasn’t quite to travel like a waterslide. So to touch it was to be ANHILIATED on one side, and reformed in energy, awareness, on the “OTHER” But one was annihilated first. Beyond dead. So much worry. What if the process was corrupted? What can go wrong. Trust. It was like the eagle eating one. Other side was hard to know, we thought we knew but...scary. There were so many things around this its hard to explain. Unless someone were “Correct” in some way, they wouldn’t be reformed, just dispersed. Gone. Doubt, lots of things to do this. And there was no guarantee for anyone. So. Im not sure Id brave it. ( ) wanted too. Needed too. And i had promised, support, even over the falls. So, that was that. I went in, energy, information. I saw her coming too. Did others? Im not sure. ( ) might have. I don’t know though.
In between. Just awareness strands. Like how it feels to be just awareness, no ship, no body, between stars. Maybe same. But no, this was not a travel, this was destroyed...quantum pairing? Like space time don’t matter. Destroy one information pulls to the second...quantum teleporting? I don’t like to misuse science where it doesn’t really belong., but like that perhaps. It was instant because there was no time. But it was so much. Such a sensation. Not to exist. To be information, like all the universe is information. Thats it. Awareness is a grouping of self guiding information? I wasn’t that, I was being moved so I still was grouped, which is similar. But without that. Just the background of the cosmos. There was a point of maximum dispersal, then I pulled back together. And hung. This was timeless, so an instant, but it was timeless, so it was also an eternity in the same moment.
I exist again. I see...a void. Stars. Small and large. Also two planets...are the stars too, same thing? Its like another dream I couldn’t tell star from planet, solid from fire, it was the same different levels. Blue. A connection between them. Thats all I saw. Im not sure I was in a place. It was a intermediary space.
Then I move again, moving, not annihilated, still almost instant. Now it has physical dimensions. Minds bodies are mixed. Fragmented. In the before part, awareness, awareness of others, other awareness’s. All of them. Seeing. Separated out, imperfectly. Chimeras. Do not look human, strange. Characteristics, animal, mineral, forms. But recognizable as such. From the three? That entered gate. Everyone theve ever seen, touched, imagined, separated. But not perfectly. Another acceleration coming. Energy screen. Like fine mesh, like filter, not. Speed...faster then light, accelerated through the screen. Light is refracting through me, and others, making these chimeras. Not fine enough. Next part whole mass pushed through screen. Speed, color. Through screen, fine particles. Said it best in raw notes “Mixed awareness re seeded. Rendered into component bits. Rebuild. Before-Between-End”.
I’m through again. On star/planet. Water. Maybe it was flame, but I saw oceans across. Now I see land. How I see it. I’m sitting in a limo. Most of what im perceiving isn’t coming from any narrative, or voice, its just known, perceived, im still not all corporeal even dream corporeal. From raw notes: “Colony. Colonize. Sees, pool” I sit in the dream limo, the container. There is a woman in there too, and some others. I think ( ) went in, not just the aspect of her I hold in my awareness. Frank. Frank, like she said before, wasn’t a bad guy. People I don’t know. But I know that also doesn’t matter. There was a reason for the specific awareness escersises before. Every little piece, perception. It links back to the one its linked too. Like tendrils. But these, ones i don’t know, I can tell they are from a primary link not secondary, IE, the link between my concept of someone, then what that concept can link to in the original being. Its complicated
My voice is wrong. It emerges in bubbles, like gas, from me, sounds too high. I’m not the same physical, not physical like im used too. But I perceive physical. Lady in the limo. Not ( ). She snot here, or ( ) if he came. No this one looks like ( ) energy but is not primary. Looks nothing like her. We speak, I mention that. She says “Of course I look like her. I am “female” “human” Sot therefor i look like her. I say no, no infinite variation, even in one being in time. Confuses her. What is variation?
What is time? My exact quote, from notes “I’m woman of course! She said. I said “no humans never look exact like (ideal or generic) matters not.”.
Inner perceptions. Worse thing: FEAR. Fear in me is “People missing from mind”. Gone, all gone. Memories of the man, Mr song, the ancient man from Vietnam, used to share coffee with me, watch ducks, he died when I was 5. Gone. No, not gone, separated and incarnated, from my awareness, linked to the original, growing, flux.
More. Not just as close to memory in energy. Variants. Mixes, infinite. Beings. Physical, forms. Alive. But this is still time before time, world isn’t made yet. I speak to “Very close to ( )” as I call it, as close as my perception can be, growing from quantum link back to real. Something. I say no, no, not just one man one woman form like book. Look, look out there. I see. A Head on a living pole, and two arms, crossed in the center of the pole. I say that is the look of “you” and hands. I see another head and hands on another pole, and another, a billion, looked like a forest, was faces and arms/torsos. I see mine, say see, that’s me. This is not formed. In middle. Survive. Survive. Over and over. A drum beat.
Still no time. Soon another acceleration, the third, screen again. Light speed, shoved through. Cant explain. In limo still. Alone, no people are there now. Variable. Everyone from here, formed, looks right. Even me.
I have my memories back, myself. Dream. Double, all here. “Reintegration” “Fragments, memory, awareness, copied, seeds, growing, colony”. Only a few went through, maybe 2-3, all of this, a world. People. Even people from here, close, as close as any dream energy. Again I just knew stuff. About what just happened in this instant eternity. Now any whose energy was linked, seeded, even if just seen in a flash in time, linked back to them. We could go back. We could come back, no need for gate. Just dream gates are fine now. Linked. Quantum double. Tendrils, awareness, time. I mean its a relief I don’t have to go through that gate again, can just “wake up” . Huge relief. I guess that’s the “payment”. Everyone who was “Carried” can now link to here, and every the information from awareness and awareness of their specific awareness. I was back together, but more then I was, I had the in between experiences for starters.
A tall being, like a hill, but with bark, a tree. A hand covered with a gauntlet of bark, picks us all up. Its me? No. Something of me translated though ( )? Awareness, not my own. I am not afraid. He is nice, “jolly brown giant” even. Hes nice. He calls me brave little one and winks when he laughs its like distant ocean not loud. He puts us on his shoulders an says “look, look, the sun rises, first sun, first day in time (here)” Wake (to me) I do write notes.
After that I just zzzzzzzz'd. One part I remember. Was teaching, like a camp for children. And skyscrapers. I was telling someone, who was looking at “city” with me, that when “the world shakes” I don’t like being in penthouses, they sway, I might get knocked away into sky. Then the children. Event. Gather cakes, food. Watch movies. One was the movie of, or a variation, of this dream. Of course it was made more like “the lion witch and the wardrobe” from true story. To be fun. Another group came. Wanted space. Made me upset, but i was kind to children. Time to go, packing snack bags. I was still somewhat “rarefied” state. Fin.
EXACT notes: (taking them is all I need I don’t actually need them, just to write them. Each word is many words)
Sleep. Gates. Small planet/Large (double) stars. Ice/fire.
Felt like Zoo
Sleep gate Minds/bodies mixed. Maybe 3 go through. Tnecke? “screen”. Limo, mixed awareness, re seeded. Rendered into bits. Rebuild. Before-Between-end. Colony, colonize. Seas, pool. Cary man tall, nice. Women not who seemed. ( ). Survive. “I’m woman of course, she said. I said No, humans never look exact like idea. Matters not”
Briefly saw head, torso, arms on stake. Then accelerated again, mixed, rendered. Awareness mostly whole again, but re seeded variants so like 3-4 went through, thousands came out. + original me/others. All in different times + ones made from pieces. Hand like arrow, Gauntlet. Big guy...me. Nice, laugh. Dawn.
My fear. (Come..child of friend coming. Worse thing...Fear. People missing from mind. No one knew why. Had some clue. Cubes. Water.
Fin.
Atlantis Gate.
After the heart thing yesterday, it seemed important to me to stay in that clarified state, so I was careful who I talked to, what I read, what I thought. Kept it simple. I passed the time listening only to music, engaging in games, but nothing to far outside the feeling. Seemed important. I did drink a mug of the dream tea, as well, since i had resolved to do so more as a symbol of intent then any effect, ive never noticed a specific change by doing so. So I did that, I never got tired per say. I set my intent. When I lay in bed, I was struck by the notion to wear the cedar and copper amulet, covered in gold leaf with small uncut gems arranged around it that my friend made for me, with those symbols, based on a dream version I found years ago. Seems Atlantis with the crystals and symbols. I wear it very infrequently, I just keep it in my “dream bowl” next to my alarm clock. It tingles sometimes, or sends waves of heat or cold or sensations. When its not good to wear it I can feel it take it off. It was right this night to wear it. I put it on after prayers and before intent. I always thank all those who have been friends, whether i saw it or not, and offer my friendship in return, in time. Then to connect here, and people by name. On this part, I was drawn to hold the pendant in my hands, and feel it, I felt, how I saw people, felt, was quite electric and nice. As soon as I was done, in that feeling, I very rapidly fell into sleep.
The dreaming wasn’t very long, it wasn’t very plot or dialogue packed either. It was dense and fast and rich in seeing and sensations. Powerful, incredible those breathless words might apply. By my recognizing of such things, and I do have high thresholds I suppose. So... That said. It started right away like a group circle, or gathering. Others described this part, in posts before mine, as both flags/kites and maybe a bar. I saw both of those aspects as well. Flags, like the flag pole excersise, moving awareness. This also was similar to dreams of past week ive had, the flashcards, the paintings, it was more or less the same exercise, just different levels of it. I was also like...well, sharing drinks. Like I saw in another dream from single items...carrot juice etc. Then mixed a bit and shared. It was like all of that and a circle. The physical space, and there wasn’t much of it I could see, was like a platform very high...or maybe its all that existed. I didn’t see the gate in the ground per say, more like in the “circle” of awareness, maybe it brought it. But it did look like a rippling pool of water.
Who was going to enter...who COULD enter? It was scary. To touch it, it wasn’t quite to travel like a waterslide. So to touch it was to be ANHILIATED on one side, and reformed in energy, awareness, on the “OTHER” But one was annihilated first. Beyond dead. So much worry. What if the process was corrupted? What can go wrong. Trust. It was like the eagle eating one. Other side was hard to know, we thought we knew but...scary. There were so many things around this its hard to explain. Unless someone were “Correct” in some way, they wouldn’t be reformed, just dispersed. Gone. Doubt, lots of things to do this. And there was no guarantee for anyone. So. Im not sure Id brave it. ( ) wanted too. Needed too. And i had promised, support, even over the falls. So, that was that. I went in, energy, information. I saw her coming too. Did others? Im not sure. ( ) might have. I don’t know though.
In between. Just awareness strands. Like how it feels to be just awareness, no ship, no body, between stars. Maybe same. But no, this was not a travel, this was destroyed...quantum pairing? Like space time don’t matter. Destroy one information pulls to the second...quantum teleporting? I don’t like to misuse science where it doesn’t really belong., but like that perhaps. It was instant because there was no time. But it was so much. Such a sensation. Not to exist. To be information, like all the universe is information. Thats it. Awareness is a grouping of self guiding information? I wasn’t that, I was being moved so I still was grouped, which is similar. But without that. Just the background of the cosmos. There was a point of maximum dispersal, then I pulled back together. And hung. This was timeless, so an instant, but it was timeless, so it was also an eternity in the same moment.
I exist again. I see...a void. Stars. Small and large. Also two planets...are the stars too, same thing? Its like another dream I couldn’t tell star from planet, solid from fire, it was the same different levels. Blue. A connection between them. Thats all I saw. Im not sure I was in a place. It was a intermediary space.
Then I move again, moving, not annihilated, still almost instant. Now it has physical dimensions. Minds bodies are mixed. Fragmented. In the before part, awareness, awareness of others, other awareness’s. All of them. Seeing. Separated out, imperfectly. Chimeras. Do not look human, strange. Characteristics, animal, mineral, forms. But recognizable as such. From the three? That entered gate. Everyone theve ever seen, touched, imagined, separated. But not perfectly. Another acceleration coming. Energy screen. Like fine mesh, like filter, not. Speed...faster then light, accelerated through the screen. Light is refracting through me, and others, making these chimeras. Not fine enough. Next part whole mass pushed through screen. Speed, color. Through screen, fine particles. Said it best in raw notes “Mixed awareness re seeded. Rendered into component bits. Rebuild. Before-Between-End”.
I’m through again. On star/planet. Water. Maybe it was flame, but I saw oceans across. Now I see land. How I see it. I’m sitting in a limo. Most of what im perceiving isn’t coming from any narrative, or voice, its just known, perceived, im still not all corporeal even dream corporeal. From raw notes: “Colony. Colonize. Sees, pool” I sit in the dream limo, the container. There is a woman in there too, and some others. I think ( ) went in, not just the aspect of her I hold in my awareness. Frank. Frank, like she said before, wasn’t a bad guy. People I don’t know. But I know that also doesn’t matter. There was a reason for the specific awareness escersises before. Every little piece, perception. It links back to the one its linked too. Like tendrils. But these, ones i don’t know, I can tell they are from a primary link not secondary, IE, the link between my concept of someone, then what that concept can link to in the original being. Its complicated
My voice is wrong. It emerges in bubbles, like gas, from me, sounds too high. I’m not the same physical, not physical like im used too. But I perceive physical. Lady in the limo. Not ( ). She snot here, or ( ) if he came. No this one looks like ( ) energy but is not primary. Looks nothing like her. We speak, I mention that. She says “Of course I look like her. I am “female” “human” Sot therefor i look like her. I say no, no infinite variation, even in one being in time. Confuses her. What is variation?
What is time? My exact quote, from notes “I’m woman of course! She said. I said “no humans never look exact like (ideal or generic) matters not.”.
Inner perceptions. Worse thing: FEAR. Fear in me is “People missing from mind”. Gone, all gone. Memories of the man, Mr song, the ancient man from Vietnam, used to share coffee with me, watch ducks, he died when I was 5. Gone. No, not gone, separated and incarnated, from my awareness, linked to the original, growing, flux.
More. Not just as close to memory in energy. Variants. Mixes, infinite. Beings. Physical, forms. Alive. But this is still time before time, world isn’t made yet. I speak to “Very close to ( )” as I call it, as close as my perception can be, growing from quantum link back to real. Something. I say no, no, not just one man one woman form like book. Look, look out there. I see. A Head on a living pole, and two arms, crossed in the center of the pole. I say that is the look of “you” and hands. I see another head and hands on another pole, and another, a billion, looked like a forest, was faces and arms/torsos. I see mine, say see, that’s me. This is not formed. In middle. Survive. Survive. Over and over. A drum beat.
Still no time. Soon another acceleration, the third, screen again. Light speed, shoved through. Cant explain. In limo still. Alone, no people are there now. Variable. Everyone from here, formed, looks right. Even me.
I have my memories back, myself. Dream. Double, all here. “Reintegration” “Fragments, memory, awareness, copied, seeds, growing, colony”. Only a few went through, maybe 2-3, all of this, a world. People. Even people from here, close, as close as any dream energy. Again I just knew stuff. About what just happened in this instant eternity. Now any whose energy was linked, seeded, even if just seen in a flash in time, linked back to them. We could go back. We could come back, no need for gate. Just dream gates are fine now. Linked. Quantum double. Tendrils, awareness, time. I mean its a relief I don’t have to go through that gate again, can just “wake up” . Huge relief. I guess that’s the “payment”. Everyone who was “Carried” can now link to here, and every the information from awareness and awareness of their specific awareness. I was back together, but more then I was, I had the in between experiences for starters.
A tall being, like a hill, but with bark, a tree. A hand covered with a gauntlet of bark, picks us all up. Its me? No. Something of me translated though ( )? Awareness, not my own. I am not afraid. He is nice, “jolly brown giant” even. Hes nice. He calls me brave little one and winks when he laughs its like distant ocean not loud. He puts us on his shoulders an says “look, look, the sun rises, first sun, first day in time (here)” Wake (to me) I do write notes.
After that I just zzzzzzzz'd. One part I remember. Was teaching, like a camp for children. And skyscrapers. I was telling someone, who was looking at “city” with me, that when “the world shakes” I don’t like being in penthouses, they sway, I might get knocked away into sky. Then the children. Event. Gather cakes, food. Watch movies. One was the movie of, or a variation, of this dream. Of course it was made more like “the lion witch and the wardrobe” from true story. To be fun. Another group came. Wanted space. Made me upset, but i was kind to children. Time to go, packing snack bags. I was still somewhat “rarefied” state. Fin.
EXACT notes: (taking them is all I need I don’t actually need them, just to write them. Each word is many words)
Sleep. Gates. Small planet/Large (double) stars. Ice/fire.
Felt like Zoo
Sleep gate Minds/bodies mixed. Maybe 3 go through. Tnecke? “screen”. Limo, mixed awareness, re seeded. Rendered into bits. Rebuild. Before-Between-end. Colony, colonize. Seas, pool. Cary man tall, nice. Women not who seemed. ( ). Survive. “I’m woman of course, she said. I said No, humans never look exact like idea. Matters not”
Briefly saw head, torso, arms on stake. Then accelerated again, mixed, rendered. Awareness mostly whole again, but re seeded variants so like 3-4 went through, thousands came out. + original me/others. All in different times + ones made from pieces. Hand like arrow, Gauntlet. Big guy...me. Nice, laugh. Dawn.
My fear. (Come..child of friend coming. Worse thing...Fear. People missing from mind. No one knew why. Had some clue. Cubes. Water.
Fin.