03-23-2011, 12:01 AM
Jessicar wrote:
Jumping in here on the stalking discussion....for me, stalking means the clarity with which I am able to place my attention, assuming that where I place my attention expands my energy and doesn't deplete it. So when I'm able to give my full attention to an act, a person, a thought, an object, a feeling, an event etc. and determine whether or not that attention is going to build upon my energy base (or power) then I want to continue placing my attention in that location. If my attention becomes muddied and causes me to lose a sense of energy expansion (power) then I want to take action to move away from that experience and how I do that is (my definition of) stalking.
For example, last night I awoke in the early, early morning and I was wide awake, couldn't get back to sleep. Wide awake. I began to "stalk" wide awake. I hadn't drank any coffee that day. I am feeling good about an upcoming move that involves getting rid of lots of household goods. I am clear that the move is a beneficial one for my family. Work is easy and hasn't caused undue stress recently. All of this I "stalk". Then what's the reason I'm wide awake? Nothing comes to me, I'm still wide awake two hours later. And then I remember---I ate a handful of chocolate before going to bed and the caffeine is doing its thing---I forgot I'd eaten that damn chocolate which tasted good in the moment but now had me wired. Simple, simple stalking.
Seems as though this is obvious. But for a short while it wasn't obvious because I'd forgotten I'd eaten the chocolate (I had my attention placed on any number of variables that weren't the culprit for being wide awake). And this is oftentimes when the purpose for stalking becomes relevant for me. When I have a sense that my actions are unclouded with "messiness", drama, old "tapes", ego, etc. then stalking isn't necessary or expedient. Take the above example. Was I really okay with my upcoming move? Did saying "No" to a recent job offer affect my current contract? Was my family going to accept this upcoming move? All of those subtle influences that can so easily cloud an experience. If a hunter was standing clearly in front of his target, the deer, unclouded by shrubbery or hillside or action by the animal to get away from the hunter, then all the hunter would have to do is pull the trigger---bam, easy. But stalking becomes necessary when things aren't clear, when things become cloudy with any number of variables influencing the experience.
That is a great example, thanks. I wonder though, maybe you were awake because you were happy and at peace about the move, like a natural high? When you use the word "stalking" it seems to me that the real word would be investigating.
Jumping in here on the stalking discussion....for me, stalking means the clarity with which I am able to place my attention, assuming that where I place my attention expands my energy and doesn't deplete it. So when I'm able to give my full attention to an act, a person, a thought, an object, a feeling, an event etc. and determine whether or not that attention is going to build upon my energy base (or power) then I want to continue placing my attention in that location. If my attention becomes muddied and causes me to lose a sense of energy expansion (power) then I want to take action to move away from that experience and how I do that is (my definition of) stalking.
For example, last night I awoke in the early, early morning and I was wide awake, couldn't get back to sleep. Wide awake. I began to "stalk" wide awake. I hadn't drank any coffee that day. I am feeling good about an upcoming move that involves getting rid of lots of household goods. I am clear that the move is a beneficial one for my family. Work is easy and hasn't caused undue stress recently. All of this I "stalk". Then what's the reason I'm wide awake? Nothing comes to me, I'm still wide awake two hours later. And then I remember---I ate a handful of chocolate before going to bed and the caffeine is doing its thing---I forgot I'd eaten that damn chocolate which tasted good in the moment but now had me wired. Simple, simple stalking.
Seems as though this is obvious. But for a short while it wasn't obvious because I'd forgotten I'd eaten the chocolate (I had my attention placed on any number of variables that weren't the culprit for being wide awake). And this is oftentimes when the purpose for stalking becomes relevant for me. When I have a sense that my actions are unclouded with "messiness", drama, old "tapes", ego, etc. then stalking isn't necessary or expedient. Take the above example. Was I really okay with my upcoming move? Did saying "No" to a recent job offer affect my current contract? Was my family going to accept this upcoming move? All of those subtle influences that can so easily cloud an experience. If a hunter was standing clearly in front of his target, the deer, unclouded by shrubbery or hillside or action by the animal to get away from the hunter, then all the hunter would have to do is pull the trigger---bam, easy. But stalking becomes necessary when things aren't clear, when things become cloudy with any number of variables influencing the experience.
That is a great example, thanks. I wonder though, maybe you were awake because you were happy and at peace about the move, like a natural high? When you use the word "stalking" it seems to me that the real word would be investigating.