04-10-2011, 12:00 AM
ninth octave wrote:Nu Lang wrote:
Enchantra wrote:
So a part of you that is not you gets defeated, then once its defeated, it's not defeated anymore?
I think it happens in stages. First we begin to access the true mind gradually. Then the final blow to the false mind comes only on the day we shed the human form completely. This is called dying a symbolic death, and Lone Wolf has added its also burning from within as he experienced it. Then the FI can access us no longer, unless we allow it in again.
My petty tyrant comes in the form of people who overly indulge in idle talk and constantly feel the need to express their opinion. I used to think it was an unfeminine trait not to be able to engage in this style of expression. I would find myself in these situations not feeling inadequate for such expression. I was dubbed the listener as others talked my ear off with their opinions and small talk. I began to have selective hearing from these one-way conversations. The others were there to hear themselves talk and to have a sounding board such as myself.
I now removed myself mentally from all forms of petty conversation. If I am sitting in on these kinds of conversation I am mentally a bored *** but you could never guess it because I actually act like I am interested in this conversation not to be ignorant. I have transcended the tendency of thinking that talking is the way to express oneself in the now.There are plenty of other ways to exprees oneelf that don't need talk. Small talk is wasted energy. I try to immerse myself in varied forms of conversations such as group lectures where there is one common theme being expressed with different views allotted.
NinthI understand what you are saying. Small talk about tonal concerns feels like a waste of time to me too. Here where I live now I don't have to even encounter it, so I have been years of not having to be subjected to it. When I return to the states, it will be different. I am interested to see how I will respond to it. I feel its not that the talk is idle for the one talking, its that, if the talk is not about the things we talk about here (sorcery nagualism), then I really am not interested, usually. But I know in some cases its important to the one talking, and if I close myself off to that understanding power witnesses my actions, becasue power is always witnessing us as warriors. One of the humbling things is knowing that spirit can actually work through those we think we dislike. Like a petty tyrant for example. We think spirit is on our side because we are warriors, and its not that it isn't, its that spirit is also the petty tyrant testing us, and I feel its aim is to make us fluid. So flexible we are nothing with no concerns about the way things are. This is how we transcend.
Enchantra wrote:
So a part of you that is not you gets defeated, then once its defeated, it's not defeated anymore?
I think it happens in stages. First we begin to access the true mind gradually. Then the final blow to the false mind comes only on the day we shed the human form completely. This is called dying a symbolic death, and Lone Wolf has added its also burning from within as he experienced it. Then the FI can access us no longer, unless we allow it in again.
My petty tyrant comes in the form of people who overly indulge in idle talk and constantly feel the need to express their opinion. I used to think it was an unfeminine trait not to be able to engage in this style of expression. I would find myself in these situations not feeling inadequate for such expression. I was dubbed the listener as others talked my ear off with their opinions and small talk. I began to have selective hearing from these one-way conversations. The others were there to hear themselves talk and to have a sounding board such as myself.
I now removed myself mentally from all forms of petty conversation. If I am sitting in on these kinds of conversation I am mentally a bored *** but you could never guess it because I actually act like I am interested in this conversation not to be ignorant. I have transcended the tendency of thinking that talking is the way to express oneself in the now.There are plenty of other ways to exprees oneelf that don't need talk. Small talk is wasted energy. I try to immerse myself in varied forms of conversations such as group lectures where there is one common theme being expressed with different views allotted.
NinthI understand what you are saying. Small talk about tonal concerns feels like a waste of time to me too. Here where I live now I don't have to even encounter it, so I have been years of not having to be subjected to it. When I return to the states, it will be different. I am interested to see how I will respond to it. I feel its not that the talk is idle for the one talking, its that, if the talk is not about the things we talk about here (sorcery nagualism), then I really am not interested, usually. But I know in some cases its important to the one talking, and if I close myself off to that understanding power witnesses my actions, becasue power is always witnessing us as warriors. One of the humbling things is knowing that spirit can actually work through those we think we dislike. Like a petty tyrant for example. We think spirit is on our side because we are warriors, and its not that it isn't, its that spirit is also the petty tyrant testing us, and I feel its aim is to make us fluid. So flexible we are nothing with no concerns about the way things are. This is how we transcend.