10-27-2010, 12:00 AM
Perhaps I did not make it clear that I do not berate myself whasoever when I discover such unconscious aspects of behaviour at play in my makeup, and nor do I when I discover them in others.
Its quite an unemotional, even detached process, and does not effect what I feel about myself. We are rooting out the FI, the Flyer, the ego, fear or however you like to define it...This is just par for the course on this Path of ours, of becoming more conscious, and delving in to leave no stone unturned. There is no point in setting out on this course and reacting with horror when we find the monsters that hide yes it can shake one up a little....but there's a larger context to it that helps.
I have found that at the bottom of these behaviours is always something pure and good, even if that is perversely expressed. Its all a request for love.It shows me that if I need to put another down to feel elevated, I need to 'up' my internal love-bank that's all.
Being critiqued at an art class is a different thing entirely, and perfectly suitable for the situation. You could say that my friend who called me on it was criticising, and that was also fine. Its the motive that counts.
Its quite an unemotional, even detached process, and does not effect what I feel about myself. We are rooting out the FI, the Flyer, the ego, fear or however you like to define it...This is just par for the course on this Path of ours, of becoming more conscious, and delving in to leave no stone unturned. There is no point in setting out on this course and reacting with horror when we find the monsters that hide yes it can shake one up a little....but there's a larger context to it that helps.
I have found that at the bottom of these behaviours is always something pure and good, even if that is perversely expressed. Its all a request for love.It shows me that if I need to put another down to feel elevated, I need to 'up' my internal love-bank that's all.
Being critiqued at an art class is a different thing entirely, and perfectly suitable for the situation. You could say that my friend who called me on it was criticising, and that was also fine. Its the motive that counts.