06-25-2017, 12:00 AM
"If you remember, i am a great believer in the physical template at birth and death as being "free energetic points" in incarnation. I believe the known and the clusterfuck to be those parts of the world which drag us off our individual template/vibration into this earths corporeal, causing age, death, i believe the death defier operates on a skin of awareness which demarcates the cure for the known and its maladay.( this skin and its potential itself being a form of leap to infinity, as its knowledge increases the potential of life evolving) appearing as a virgin teenager as delicate as a soap bubble, that a person who is not ruled by their known may see the bubble.. and a person with no forebearance will accidently destroy the bubble and only see a purple hooded, semi rotted horses head or other reflected violation"
Yeah, I saw the rotting face years ago and, upon emerging from the state within which it emerged, had the impression that it was the DD (I was far less forebearant then, than I am now, obviously....so that fits). It was talking about stalking the self....and I responded with my understand of it, but upon doing so, it became visibly saddened. Funny....I thought the visual representation reflected his/her/its problem and not mine, in terms of reflecting my state of awareness. Chalk it up to ignorance. (going back to "known, unknown, and unknowable"...interesting the capacity to see the DD as either a rotting undead corpse or a innocent young girl. Those two representations illustrate, at least in my understanding, the 2nd attention metaphorical (based on a 1st attention inventory) manifestation of a 3rd attention fact...which is indescribable or baseless in terms of 1st attention inventory. But, anyways...back to what's relevant)
"appearing as if it has a gap.. like an x-ray makes a gap of skin. I also aliken the spear of destiny to a tree,, the fore being the crown section,, the aft being the root section.. UNLESS the tree is joined the tree is dead. and on this basis when seeing the spear joined.. it is VITAL to make room for the growth rings. The growth rings are exact mirrors either side of the cut, and we must stand "many years away from the core of the tree" in order to respect where its life channelling BARK is. I really do not try to stand between the two halves.. but instead witness the two matching halfs connected.. and know they are connected by the thwack of the BARK and the emanation of the rings of growth as they match up to each other"
Ok, I'm starting to apprehend something the whole of it a little bit, I think in terms of the metaphor (the tree metaphor works better for me than the spear of destiny). Continuity of awareness. A continuum which gathers the whole of what's actually here...the whole of what's here an now of my totality of which escapes my awareness in its fractured state. Recovery. Union. Merging and then extending awareness through the whole of it.
I guess my way of trying not to stand between the two halves...at least theoretically...is to realize there is no me at all. It's a distortion which creates the illusion of bits and pieces....of a thing that was born, will live and die. The distortion is emphasized in the dialog and its preoccupation with the fractured/separate self. There is no two halves, in reality. DJ said "forget the self....and everything will fall into place" Inner silence that's doesn't reflect upon the "self" (forebearance) and...well, what's left except for awareness but to expand and fill the space opened up? It will simply, naturally flesh out the reality of the tree as a whole.....a tree whose branches/leaves and rootlets extend to infinity. Reality/infinity is what's apprehended when the illusion is let go of.
Thing is, there's a compulsion to cling to the illusion/sense of self, thus when awareness shifts after a certain degree of enhancement, then the second attention opens up and a whole wild playground emerges within which the "self" can become aggrandized again. Hanzel and Gretel wandering off to the candy cottage.
"pre- discovering the two halves of the spear of destiny.. there was a certain amount of coding between root and crown section as i tried to match up the rings, tried to match up jewels., but once they are set i am out of the way of that living thing.. my awarness was only a thorn (or unwinding chainsaw) in its side anyway. better to wake up finding myself banging my face against the tree than to remain lodged in its death and pre-birth."
"once they are set i am out of the way of that living thing" I wonder if they can be set by simply getting out of the way in the first place? Otherwise, one takes the metaphor piecemeal and tries to figure out its component parts and "match up" those parts to ones direct experience. I don't know....maybe I'm just being lazy.
"The jewel of omen.. The jewel of omen is a recapitulative tool. i am aware that social conditioning rules my perception and with this in mind i connect my intent to the success of the sear of destiny (collective) and allow the light it casts to illuminate dark parts of my recapitulation.. I intend NO specific translation for the present. meaning very irrational translations can appear as offshoots of hidden social conditioning. As it stands normal hidden social conditioning translates itself through the portion of the growth rings termed (jewel of illusion) and all we see is geared toward keeping us asleep to our energetic root.By using the jewel of omen. (basicly the jewel of illusion bound and exposed the collective destiny and dragged until it spins and shines) we can empower "false memory" in order to trigger insight. Its the dangerous mad **** though.. but will be very effective in triggering remorse."
I think I see. Jewel of omen can only be interpreted in the context of progression/expansion to embrace the totality of oneself. Otherwise, it just becomes "what's in it for me" when "me" is really beside the point...the fractured gap...the chainsaw.
"(basicly the jewel of illusion bound and exposed the collective destiny and dragged until it spins and shines) we can empower "false memory" in order to trigger insight. Its the dangerous mad **** though.. but will be very effective in triggering remorse." I don't understand this part at all.
"I do like maple syrup"
Yeah, I saw the rotting face years ago and, upon emerging from the state within which it emerged, had the impression that it was the DD (I was far less forebearant then, than I am now, obviously....so that fits). It was talking about stalking the self....and I responded with my understand of it, but upon doing so, it became visibly saddened. Funny....I thought the visual representation reflected his/her/its problem and not mine, in terms of reflecting my state of awareness. Chalk it up to ignorance. (going back to "known, unknown, and unknowable"...interesting the capacity to see the DD as either a rotting undead corpse or a innocent young girl. Those two representations illustrate, at least in my understanding, the 2nd attention metaphorical (based on a 1st attention inventory) manifestation of a 3rd attention fact...which is indescribable or baseless in terms of 1st attention inventory. But, anyways...back to what's relevant)
"appearing as if it has a gap.. like an x-ray makes a gap of skin. I also aliken the spear of destiny to a tree,, the fore being the crown section,, the aft being the root section.. UNLESS the tree is joined the tree is dead. and on this basis when seeing the spear joined.. it is VITAL to make room for the growth rings. The growth rings are exact mirrors either side of the cut, and we must stand "many years away from the core of the tree" in order to respect where its life channelling BARK is. I really do not try to stand between the two halves.. but instead witness the two matching halfs connected.. and know they are connected by the thwack of the BARK and the emanation of the rings of growth as they match up to each other"
Ok, I'm starting to apprehend something the whole of it a little bit, I think in terms of the metaphor (the tree metaphor works better for me than the spear of destiny). Continuity of awareness. A continuum which gathers the whole of what's actually here...the whole of what's here an now of my totality of which escapes my awareness in its fractured state. Recovery. Union. Merging and then extending awareness through the whole of it.
I guess my way of trying not to stand between the two halves...at least theoretically...is to realize there is no me at all. It's a distortion which creates the illusion of bits and pieces....of a thing that was born, will live and die. The distortion is emphasized in the dialog and its preoccupation with the fractured/separate self. There is no two halves, in reality. DJ said "forget the self....and everything will fall into place" Inner silence that's doesn't reflect upon the "self" (forebearance) and...well, what's left except for awareness but to expand and fill the space opened up? It will simply, naturally flesh out the reality of the tree as a whole.....a tree whose branches/leaves and rootlets extend to infinity. Reality/infinity is what's apprehended when the illusion is let go of.
Thing is, there's a compulsion to cling to the illusion/sense of self, thus when awareness shifts after a certain degree of enhancement, then the second attention opens up and a whole wild playground emerges within which the "self" can become aggrandized again. Hanzel and Gretel wandering off to the candy cottage.
"pre- discovering the two halves of the spear of destiny.. there was a certain amount of coding between root and crown section as i tried to match up the rings, tried to match up jewels., but once they are set i am out of the way of that living thing.. my awarness was only a thorn (or unwinding chainsaw) in its side anyway. better to wake up finding myself banging my face against the tree than to remain lodged in its death and pre-birth."
"once they are set i am out of the way of that living thing" I wonder if they can be set by simply getting out of the way in the first place? Otherwise, one takes the metaphor piecemeal and tries to figure out its component parts and "match up" those parts to ones direct experience. I don't know....maybe I'm just being lazy.
"The jewel of omen.. The jewel of omen is a recapitulative tool. i am aware that social conditioning rules my perception and with this in mind i connect my intent to the success of the sear of destiny (collective) and allow the light it casts to illuminate dark parts of my recapitulation.. I intend NO specific translation for the present. meaning very irrational translations can appear as offshoots of hidden social conditioning. As it stands normal hidden social conditioning translates itself through the portion of the growth rings termed (jewel of illusion) and all we see is geared toward keeping us asleep to our energetic root.By using the jewel of omen. (basicly the jewel of illusion bound and exposed the collective destiny and dragged until it spins and shines) we can empower "false memory" in order to trigger insight. Its the dangerous mad **** though.. but will be very effective in triggering remorse."
I think I see. Jewel of omen can only be interpreted in the context of progression/expansion to embrace the totality of oneself. Otherwise, it just becomes "what's in it for me" when "me" is really beside the point...the fractured gap...the chainsaw.
"(basicly the jewel of illusion bound and exposed the collective destiny and dragged until it spins and shines) we can empower "false memory" in order to trigger insight. Its the dangerous mad **** though.. but will be very effective in triggering remorse." I don't understand this part at all.
"I do like maple syrup"