06-25-2017, 12:00 AM
RECAPITULATION.
Part of the process of a soul through the living corporeal is bound to intelligently co-operate with life as it moves.
I don't mean to entrap anyone with this statement, more to illustrate a moving template.
For instance- earlier the death defier as soap bubble virgin female was once again bought up.
for myself as a 41 year old man its a simple understanding for me to hold back from and forebear my sexual energy from
that portion of the sorcerers world that virgins inhabit.
easy for me to withhold my current day intent from touching that soap bubble..
but not so in totality.. for 35 years back in my recapitulation..
i am 6 years old looking at a biology textbook..
showing the stages of maturity of boys and girls..
and looking at 12 year old boys with envy of their dawning puberty
and 8 year old girls as mature in comparison to myself..
my sexual exitement that day in no way held back from the soap bubble
but as i had no expereince of the depths of the female.
i had no thorn to pop it even if i had tried.
the FACT that the only vagina my penis had been in was my mothers
on the day of my birth
was itself a confusing bit of reference for me as i looked at the images ofÂ
little , bigger than me, illustrated girls.
RECAPITULATION as such contains different stages of our own growth
not just the once i was a boy and all else were adults..
but also.. before i became an uncle..
before i learned to grieve.
before i was someone elses sisters boyfriend
or someone else competition for a girl.
before i was the second sexual partner
filling the wound left by rape
like a reluctant jello in a mold.
Part of the process of a soul through the living corporeal is bound to intelligently co-operate with life as it moves.
I don't mean to entrap anyone with this statement, more to illustrate a moving template.
For instance- earlier the death defier as soap bubble virgin female was once again bought up.
for myself as a 41 year old man its a simple understanding for me to hold back from and forebear my sexual energy from
that portion of the sorcerers world that virgins inhabit.
easy for me to withhold my current day intent from touching that soap bubble..
but not so in totality.. for 35 years back in my recapitulation..
i am 6 years old looking at a biology textbook..
showing the stages of maturity of boys and girls..
and looking at 12 year old boys with envy of their dawning puberty
and 8 year old girls as mature in comparison to myself..
my sexual exitement that day in no way held back from the soap bubble
but as i had no expereince of the depths of the female.
i had no thorn to pop it even if i had tried.
the FACT that the only vagina my penis had been in was my mothers
on the day of my birth
was itself a confusing bit of reference for me as i looked at the images ofÂ
little , bigger than me, illustrated girls.
RECAPITULATION as such contains different stages of our own growth
not just the once i was a boy and all else were adults..
but also.. before i became an uncle..
before i learned to grieve.
before i was someone elses sisters boyfriend
or someone else competition for a girl.
before i was the second sexual partner
filling the wound left by rape
like a reluctant jello in a mold.