08-17-2006, 12:00 AM
hi!
me not...
a year ago i started with making a list of people..but i left it being started-..
i think im not strong enough yet.
i have to learn to focus my intent first..
but i surely shoud start soon..
for example i thought about when when i visited my parents a few weeks ago, my father played a video with christmas stuff when i was 14-18 and i couldnt stand it, it was horrable to see me talk...my stomach twisted and i had to stop watching after a few moments...
i thought that i am not not in ....clean(?)..with my self...
me not...
a year ago i started with making a list of people..but i left it being started-..
i think im not strong enough yet.
i have to learn to focus my intent first..
but i surely shoud start soon..
for example i thought about when when i visited my parents a few weeks ago, my father played a video with christmas stuff when i was 14-18 and i couldnt stand it, it was horrable to see me talk...my stomach twisted and i had to stop watching after a few moments...
i thought that i am not not in ....clean(?)..with my self...