11-26-2010, 12:00 AM
Yeah, posting again to my own thread cuz I'm cool like that. Lol. Since it's already made, why not.
It's sort of sad seeing the finish line up ahead and then realizing I was side-swiped mid-run. One thing I do have to comment on is the improvement being made each time I jump head first into love. I get closer and closer to that damn finish line. It makes me wonder if I should change my tactics at all. I mean, maybe it's me whose doing something wrong in all of this. But then I think, must I close my heart because it gets trampled over? Must I be more cautious of those I choose to love? .... I don't want to do that. It makes me happy to love openly, there's something inside that just flourishs when I feel loved and am able to love freely. Hindering that would make me sad.
Guess that means I'm not changing my tactics. I will continue to love as I always have. There is no such thing as feeling hurt and needing to shut down my heart because my trust was taken advantage of. It's so much more fun to go diving into unknown waters, at some point I will find the buried treasure and in it will await the most beautiful slinky I have ever seen.
If the slinky does not exist yet, I will manifest one to meet my desires! That's right, screw heavenly intent, if he does not appear within six months, I am creating a spell and bringing him into existence! Lmao, yes I am that stubborn. Is that like buying a blow-up doll? Damn, I didn't think I'd ever go that route. Oh well. If the universe doesn't provide what I need, I'll do it myself. I'm not afraid to get my hands dirty ... I like it dirty. Hahahaha.
It's sort of sad seeing the finish line up ahead and then realizing I was side-swiped mid-run. One thing I do have to comment on is the improvement being made each time I jump head first into love. I get closer and closer to that damn finish line. It makes me wonder if I should change my tactics at all. I mean, maybe it's me whose doing something wrong in all of this. But then I think, must I close my heart because it gets trampled over? Must I be more cautious of those I choose to love? .... I don't want to do that. It makes me happy to love openly, there's something inside that just flourishs when I feel loved and am able to love freely. Hindering that would make me sad.
Guess that means I'm not changing my tactics. I will continue to love as I always have. There is no such thing as feeling hurt and needing to shut down my heart because my trust was taken advantage of. It's so much more fun to go diving into unknown waters, at some point I will find the buried treasure and in it will await the most beautiful slinky I have ever seen.
If the slinky does not exist yet, I will manifest one to meet my desires! That's right, screw heavenly intent, if he does not appear within six months, I am creating a spell and bringing him into existence! Lmao, yes I am that stubborn. Is that like buying a blow-up doll? Damn, I didn't think I'd ever go that route. Oh well. If the universe doesn't provide what I need, I'll do it myself. I'm not afraid to get my hands dirty ... I like it dirty. Hahahaha.