05-20-2010, 12:00 AM
Okie doke well then, autolysis with others. There has been a niggling at
my brain lately...I have written about it before, identifying what is
being sought. I have been accused of being too intellectual about the
whole business, and too rigid. There are reasons for both. It occurs
to me that if you are not aware of exactly what you believe you can
never explore it, and never do complete autolysis on it because you
don't know what is lurking...sloppy. If something is never defined then
one cannot take responsibility for it, explore it or integrate it. For
example: "I am working to lose my ego." Thats a pretty common one.
First, what is I? Where does it live? What does it need? What is
wrong with I that needs to be changed? What does work mean? (I know
this all sounds pretty picky) What is the work? Why work? Lose...what
does that mean? Transform? (that's a better word imo) Why transform?
Transform to what? How is this transformation better than what is
presently the case? Then there is the ever popular ego. I do not see
ego as a bad thing which has gotten me some really interesting debates.
Ego is the way we see the world. A dysfunctional ego tells us a story
that does not quite jive with this reality. What I mean by that is the
"Im not good enough" "I cant do what makes me happy because I have to
_______ (take care of my family, not good enough, waiting for
someone/thing to save me, pick one.). Conversely a dysfunctional ego
will tell us things that are not true on the other end of the spectrum.
I am the greatest! I am a guru. I am better than ____. I don't have
to listen to any wisdom, I am already ______ . Both are destructive in
their own way. It seems that people don't like to hear what you can do
proficiently, they just want to hear how miserable and lacking we are so
we can then come in and save them (ramble ramble...just trying to work
this out) It appears that there is an issue with definition...looking
at something with ruthless objectivity, with no right or wrong answer,
just pure exploration.
Ok so I have rambled rambled rambled. Here
are some of my questions with out a filter or without judgment as empty
cupped as I can be:
What is mind? Why do I seek? What am I seeking?
What is seeking, and am I really seeking understanding or something
else? If there is something else what is it? Is my mind a part of my
body or something different?
Is God different than me? Am I
different than God? Can I manipulate my environment for the betterment
of myself and my family? What happens during dreaming? Why can I dream
with some but not with others? What is the mechanism of dreaming with
others? How do I affect each others with my energy? What is that
energy? where does it come from? How do I manipulate it?
Ok thats
enough for now, Im giving myself a headache...
my brain lately...I have written about it before, identifying what is
being sought. I have been accused of being too intellectual about the
whole business, and too rigid. There are reasons for both. It occurs
to me that if you are not aware of exactly what you believe you can
never explore it, and never do complete autolysis on it because you
don't know what is lurking...sloppy. If something is never defined then
one cannot take responsibility for it, explore it or integrate it. For
example: "I am working to lose my ego." Thats a pretty common one.
First, what is I? Where does it live? What does it need? What is
wrong with I that needs to be changed? What does work mean? (I know
this all sounds pretty picky) What is the work? Why work? Lose...what
does that mean? Transform? (that's a better word imo) Why transform?
Transform to what? How is this transformation better than what is
presently the case? Then there is the ever popular ego. I do not see
ego as a bad thing which has gotten me some really interesting debates.
Ego is the way we see the world. A dysfunctional ego tells us a story
that does not quite jive with this reality. What I mean by that is the
"Im not good enough" "I cant do what makes me happy because I have to
_______ (take care of my family, not good enough, waiting for
someone/thing to save me, pick one.). Conversely a dysfunctional ego
will tell us things that are not true on the other end of the spectrum.
I am the greatest! I am a guru. I am better than ____. I don't have
to listen to any wisdom, I am already ______ . Both are destructive in
their own way. It seems that people don't like to hear what you can do
proficiently, they just want to hear how miserable and lacking we are so
we can then come in and save them (ramble ramble...just trying to work
this out) It appears that there is an issue with definition...looking
at something with ruthless objectivity, with no right or wrong answer,
just pure exploration.
Ok so I have rambled rambled rambled. Here
are some of my questions with out a filter or without judgment as empty
cupped as I can be:
What is mind? Why do I seek? What am I seeking?
What is seeking, and am I really seeking understanding or something
else? If there is something else what is it? Is my mind a part of my
body or something different?
Is God different than me? Am I
different than God? Can I manipulate my environment for the betterment
of myself and my family? What happens during dreaming? Why can I dream
with some but not with others? What is the mechanism of dreaming with
others? How do I affect each others with my energy? What is that
energy? where does it come from? How do I manipulate it?
Ok thats
enough for now, Im giving myself a headache...