06-26-2014, 12:00 AM
I think this is a sign that Im ready to drop my self-importance, there isnt anything im more afraid of then knowing that the creation of humanity had no real specific purpose. of course I havent really experienced it. I have only read about it lilke I do about everything, second hand knoldge. but it does help me act in ways im not accustom to before I was just a thinker instead of a doer.
For three days I was in despair, but it not the same any more, I cant be effected by sorrow and despair like I used to be where I could go for weeks without doing anything about my inner process. It took three days for me to come out of this one and even while I was going though it I kept thinking that I just need to decide what to do with the life that was given to me.
Im a seeker of truth, I stalk truth until I find it, uncover it, accept it and transmute it into strength that allows me integrate parts of my past into a whole picture where my goal is balance between the dark and the light parts of myself, made whole and help those who need it.
For three days I was in despair, but it not the same any more, I cant be effected by sorrow and despair like I used to be where I could go for weeks without doing anything about my inner process. It took three days for me to come out of this one and even while I was going though it I kept thinking that I just need to decide what to do with the life that was given to me.
Im a seeker of truth, I stalk truth until I find it, uncover it, accept it and transmute it into strength that allows me integrate parts of my past into a whole picture where my goal is balance between the dark and the light parts of myself, made whole and help those who need it.