03-13-2002, 12:00 AM
Hello porcelaina;
To get rid of the flyers one simply has to resist them, to will them away.
From my own personal experience, it is self-importance that has been the key. I remember a time when I was angry, depressed, was full of self-pity and always had excuses for myself, so mush of that went away when my self-importance started to fade away. (Im still working on that however) I now think back to my old ways and see how stupid I was. Little did I realize that I had the power to end it just like that but I was the one that refused to and kept on wallowing in that state.
You mentioned a while back how you wanted to seek revenge. I remember when I was angry and how I wanted to seek revenge on those that hurt me because I went through hell in this. I saw all those people as having had destroyed me and the innocent child in me. I didnt want to hurt these people physically, I wanted to gain money, power and fame to get back at all of them, I wanted to show that Im better then them and laugh in their faces. To make a long story short, I eventually let go of it, I let go of my past and stopped seeing everything in my life as either a win or a loss. When I lost so much of my self-importance, I stopped being so angry. And the truth is, all that revenge I would seek would be as empty as those who hurt me, its as if they had dragged me down to their level. After all, what would I have really accomplished with that victory? When I let go of my personal past, all the negative things that happened just dont seem to matter and I made the choice to not allow it to affect me any longer, for it cant unless the person allows it to.
But also, all those who hurt others and do evil unto others, will eventually get whats coming to them. Ive seen and watched the world and those who follow that path, it all comes back to them. What your ex-boyfriend did and the way he was and if he keeps going on that path, it will all come back to him one day. But with me however, it doesnt matter really matter anymore about those people that hurt me, I dont seek any negative on them anymore, what they did to me does not matter to me anymore, I actually hope they change or have changed.
Like you, I also have negative energy but what else Ive done is that when I see negative behavior in myself coming on, or if it slips out, I simply stop it and wont allow it. I simply wont allow the flyer to have control or be in control. Its like not taking what theyre offering. Willing them away.
To get rid of the flyers one simply has to resist them, to will them away.
From my own personal experience, it is self-importance that has been the key. I remember a time when I was angry, depressed, was full of self-pity and always had excuses for myself, so mush of that went away when my self-importance started to fade away. (Im still working on that however) I now think back to my old ways and see how stupid I was. Little did I realize that I had the power to end it just like that but I was the one that refused to and kept on wallowing in that state.
You mentioned a while back how you wanted to seek revenge. I remember when I was angry and how I wanted to seek revenge on those that hurt me because I went through hell in this. I saw all those people as having had destroyed me and the innocent child in me. I didnt want to hurt these people physically, I wanted to gain money, power and fame to get back at all of them, I wanted to show that Im better then them and laugh in their faces. To make a long story short, I eventually let go of it, I let go of my past and stopped seeing everything in my life as either a win or a loss. When I lost so much of my self-importance, I stopped being so angry. And the truth is, all that revenge I would seek would be as empty as those who hurt me, its as if they had dragged me down to their level. After all, what would I have really accomplished with that victory? When I let go of my personal past, all the negative things that happened just dont seem to matter and I made the choice to not allow it to affect me any longer, for it cant unless the person allows it to.
But also, all those who hurt others and do evil unto others, will eventually get whats coming to them. Ive seen and watched the world and those who follow that path, it all comes back to them. What your ex-boyfriend did and the way he was and if he keeps going on that path, it will all come back to him one day. But with me however, it doesnt matter really matter anymore about those people that hurt me, I dont seek any negative on them anymore, what they did to me does not matter to me anymore, I actually hope they change or have changed.
Like you, I also have negative energy but what else Ive done is that when I see negative behavior in myself coming on, or if it slips out, I simply stop it and wont allow it. I simply wont allow the flyer to have control or be in control. Its like not taking what theyre offering. Willing them away.