01-27-2008, 12:00 AM
"I am reminded of a time in my life when I tried exercising silence and eliminating my judgement.I tried not to use other people as my point of referance."
That is good policy. Paul said you who compare yourselves among yourselves are not wise.
"Ironically after a few months I realized something backfired on me and I became more judgemental and my self importance increased."
As in any occult knowledge, we as human beings, tend to count ourselves special when we are given "secret knowledge", so to speak. But if given by the Spirit what sense does Ego make concerning this knowledge or experience? We are just fortunate, not better.
As awareness increases so does our awareness of human behavior. The stupidity or strangeness and selfishness of mankind is more apparent. We secumb to the temptation to see others very clearly but fear looking at ourselves with such a critical eye.
The truth is it is human beings. We are a motley bunch.
"I really felt then as if I were in a true battle with an actual entity."
You probably were.
"It was not long after that I became homeless.I posted this story in "TALES OF POWER"
I read your story. Interesting Cinderella type things going on. Everyone should have to be poor at least once in their lives just to experience it first hand.
I myself have been in less than ideal financial situation most of my adult life. In the last 5-7 years I have not been able to stay employed for very long at a stretch though I am not being fired or quiting jobs.
I think people equate money and financial success with spiritual growth way too much these days. I blame all of the churches that preach this type of drivel.
The two are not connected. The only connection I see there is that people who tend to stay focused on spiritual things get that kind of result. And people who stay focused on money and fame, etc. tend to reap those things.
If I could keep more of an interest in money I would probably have more. (And I like having it so that I can pursue projects I am involved with.)
But I just can't seem to give it much of my mental resouces for very long at a time. Oh well!
As far as battling a being goes, sometimes we are left alone until we start making some progress because they "have us anyway", so to speak. Whether inside of us or outside of us a little progress on our part can sometimes cause a reaction in the beings that wish to keep us ignorant of their existence. Beginning to see others for what they are is just a step away from beginning to see yourself for what you are. That is dangerous ground for Ego.
As far as human relations go, since we are all in the same boat battling the same battles at whatever level we know how to, try cutting others some slack. You will find your social life improving a bit. But from my experience, when you get into these subjects, you will have less people you can really speak your heart to.
I have few friends but they are close.
The rest are just aquaintances. It is the nature of most human beings to avoid some of these subjects we are discussing here. They do not wish to look too deeply at life. It scares them.
And that is perfectly o.k. It is their life and their choice. It just tends to make conversation with such people limited. And it is an art that takes years to develop as to what you can say to whom and what not to say.
Just that in itself can destroy some relationships.
Both speaking of these things and refraining from speaking of them can alienate both friends and family.
Bob
That is good policy. Paul said you who compare yourselves among yourselves are not wise.
"Ironically after a few months I realized something backfired on me and I became more judgemental and my self importance increased."
As in any occult knowledge, we as human beings, tend to count ourselves special when we are given "secret knowledge", so to speak. But if given by the Spirit what sense does Ego make concerning this knowledge or experience? We are just fortunate, not better.
As awareness increases so does our awareness of human behavior. The stupidity or strangeness and selfishness of mankind is more apparent. We secumb to the temptation to see others very clearly but fear looking at ourselves with such a critical eye.
The truth is it is human beings. We are a motley bunch.
"I really felt then as if I were in a true battle with an actual entity."
You probably were.
"It was not long after that I became homeless.I posted this story in "TALES OF POWER"
I read your story. Interesting Cinderella type things going on. Everyone should have to be poor at least once in their lives just to experience it first hand.
I myself have been in less than ideal financial situation most of my adult life. In the last 5-7 years I have not been able to stay employed for very long at a stretch though I am not being fired or quiting jobs.
I think people equate money and financial success with spiritual growth way too much these days. I blame all of the churches that preach this type of drivel.
The two are not connected. The only connection I see there is that people who tend to stay focused on spiritual things get that kind of result. And people who stay focused on money and fame, etc. tend to reap those things.
If I could keep more of an interest in money I would probably have more. (And I like having it so that I can pursue projects I am involved with.)
But I just can't seem to give it much of my mental resouces for very long at a time. Oh well!
As far as battling a being goes, sometimes we are left alone until we start making some progress because they "have us anyway", so to speak. Whether inside of us or outside of us a little progress on our part can sometimes cause a reaction in the beings that wish to keep us ignorant of their existence. Beginning to see others for what they are is just a step away from beginning to see yourself for what you are. That is dangerous ground for Ego.
As far as human relations go, since we are all in the same boat battling the same battles at whatever level we know how to, try cutting others some slack. You will find your social life improving a bit. But from my experience, when you get into these subjects, you will have less people you can really speak your heart to.
I have few friends but they are close.
The rest are just aquaintances. It is the nature of most human beings to avoid some of these subjects we are discussing here. They do not wish to look too deeply at life. It scares them.
And that is perfectly o.k. It is their life and their choice. It just tends to make conversation with such people limited. And it is an art that takes years to develop as to what you can say to whom and what not to say.
Just that in itself can destroy some relationships.
Both speaking of these things and refraining from speaking of them can alienate both friends and family.
Bob