08-18-2003, 12:00 AM
hehe...Lof(laugh of frustration)...
this only gets more and more confusing...its like chasing damn shadows.
The quiet in my mind...I'm not sure if that actually drives me crazy...
its more like finding out how a person is suppose to act, think, communicate, play, feel, experience, with a quiet mind, in a world that isnt, that can drive one crazy LOL!
Somewhere I read that you have to keep observing what your mind says to always watch...that can keep your mind silent..and when thoughts come in your head...dont judge what it says, for you'll only fight yourself -and dont flyers like that?- for then its found its way thru the back door...just watch and observe...and eventually you'll find your answer in the silence.
That is very hard to do, at times, and i'mm getting better but hard...especially when you need something done...when you really need to find an answer, for automatically its like all these thoughts come in when I ask a question... thats why I say first "whats missing?"...(silence)
Ok what if you completely banish all your flyers and manage to keep them out...and your nothing but silence...what do you become to the world? what does the average world become to you...noise? Now that can drive a man crazy, no wonder why we're a lonely people....
so what are we doing? when u find out almost everything is poisoned by a flyer? Fight it, as in spreading the word, or just ignore it, and thats the answer if we fight it in that fashion? Why doesnt everyone know about this?
To the average man we are dead... and to us they are ghosts..that doesnt seem right... theres no harmony in that... no balanced difference for equality...for ultimately to each other we're nothing...the gap between us is alive with indifference...what will happen to the world in this gap?
I have a question about how to act without flyer influence...acting not for yourself but for others for the whole is that flyer influenced? They say sharing is love... its always better to give than to recieve.. can acting like this help diminish flyers...cuz dont flyers blind us with hate.. greed..envy all those things we so much despise, so what happens to them if you act in the total opposite?
The world needs solutions, not problems for this problem has been going on thru the ages...and I'm not worried about myself but ulitmately for the earth, cuz right now this is the now..this is where im at..I didnt keep coming back only to disappear after I learn great truths that can help us...I dont know why I say this but earth is running out of time, b4 something will happen and what I dont know...and I dont even know how long that really is...sigh...
Flyers have robbed the world blind with poison & from it man gains as to be content, even thru pain and suffering.
My heart and soul cries.. thats where my anger comes from not from someone else, thats where my compassion comes from, thats where my *** the world comes from thats where my ambition comes from... sigh...I read good men usually begins the path to wrong thru righteous anger...that is how I keep myself in check, and I'll die cuz of it. So I'll compramize myself for the world thru it, if I have to...I'll compramize my own freedom for every1 elses, for its nothing to me if only the few have it...how can this world truly evolve without the each other...without harmony...the world is like a body and we are the cells...what happens when a persons cells have conflict & disharmony....? They say knowledge is power right? what is power without its knowledge? Blind?...destruction...basic..good,bad...but I suppose its how the the individual is, but since flyers infest almost everyones energy people have little power, but theres enuff people in the world together to combine it to do harm to the world which has been happening ever so slowly...imagine the healing we can do to the world and each others spirit if we are in harmony without flyers...imagine that kind of purifying healing power with full potential to do good...but I guess thats all just a dream...a dream I have faith in... I'm glad that this Castnedna has somewhat breached the gap... opened our eyes...
Does my writing seem to be flyer influenced?
I did some healing to the earth last night in my meditation...I just kept pushing down and down and down, not thinking of myself, just kept thinking of healing and healing and strengthening the center of the earth ...that after a bit it was like I wasnt moving down but moving up and up , like I was getting taller...the experience I cant explain...at the end, I saw blue lights silver liquid dots in the air, and kept seeing flashes like a light outside was blinking... I smiled and to each other we said thank you & ur welcome, I felt energized yet slept easily...that thank u, in itself is a feeling to remember...
RE:"the edge" nice fitting name for all this also...heh
Bye...from the ambitious idealistic...the romantic hopeless.
THNX
this only gets more and more confusing...its like chasing damn shadows.
The quiet in my mind...I'm not sure if that actually drives me crazy...
its more like finding out how a person is suppose to act, think, communicate, play, feel, experience, with a quiet mind, in a world that isnt, that can drive one crazy LOL!
Somewhere I read that you have to keep observing what your mind says to always watch...that can keep your mind silent..and when thoughts come in your head...dont judge what it says, for you'll only fight yourself -and dont flyers like that?- for then its found its way thru the back door...just watch and observe...and eventually you'll find your answer in the silence.
That is very hard to do, at times, and i'mm getting better but hard...especially when you need something done...when you really need to find an answer, for automatically its like all these thoughts come in when I ask a question... thats why I say first "whats missing?"...(silence)
Ok what if you completely banish all your flyers and manage to keep them out...and your nothing but silence...what do you become to the world? what does the average world become to you...noise? Now that can drive a man crazy, no wonder why we're a lonely people....
so what are we doing? when u find out almost everything is poisoned by a flyer? Fight it, as in spreading the word, or just ignore it, and thats the answer if we fight it in that fashion? Why doesnt everyone know about this?
To the average man we are dead... and to us they are ghosts..that doesnt seem right... theres no harmony in that... no balanced difference for equality...for ultimately to each other we're nothing...the gap between us is alive with indifference...what will happen to the world in this gap?
I have a question about how to act without flyer influence...acting not for yourself but for others for the whole is that flyer influenced? They say sharing is love... its always better to give than to recieve.. can acting like this help diminish flyers...cuz dont flyers blind us with hate.. greed..envy all those things we so much despise, so what happens to them if you act in the total opposite?
The world needs solutions, not problems for this problem has been going on thru the ages...and I'm not worried about myself but ulitmately for the earth, cuz right now this is the now..this is where im at..I didnt keep coming back only to disappear after I learn great truths that can help us...I dont know why I say this but earth is running out of time, b4 something will happen and what I dont know...and I dont even know how long that really is...sigh...
Flyers have robbed the world blind with poison & from it man gains as to be content, even thru pain and suffering.
My heart and soul cries.. thats where my anger comes from not from someone else, thats where my compassion comes from, thats where my *** the world comes from thats where my ambition comes from... sigh...I read good men usually begins the path to wrong thru righteous anger...that is how I keep myself in check, and I'll die cuz of it. So I'll compramize myself for the world thru it, if I have to...I'll compramize my own freedom for every1 elses, for its nothing to me if only the few have it...how can this world truly evolve without the each other...without harmony...the world is like a body and we are the cells...what happens when a persons cells have conflict & disharmony....? They say knowledge is power right? what is power without its knowledge? Blind?...destruction...basic..good,bad...but I suppose its how the the individual is, but since flyers infest almost everyones energy people have little power, but theres enuff people in the world together to combine it to do harm to the world which has been happening ever so slowly...imagine the healing we can do to the world and each others spirit if we are in harmony without flyers...imagine that kind of purifying healing power with full potential to do good...but I guess thats all just a dream...a dream I have faith in... I'm glad that this Castnedna has somewhat breached the gap... opened our eyes...
Does my writing seem to be flyer influenced?
I did some healing to the earth last night in my meditation...I just kept pushing down and down and down, not thinking of myself, just kept thinking of healing and healing and strengthening the center of the earth ...that after a bit it was like I wasnt moving down but moving up and up , like I was getting taller...the experience I cant explain...at the end, I saw blue lights silver liquid dots in the air, and kept seeing flashes like a light outside was blinking... I smiled and to each other we said thank you & ur welcome, I felt energized yet slept easily...that thank u, in itself is a feeling to remember...
RE:"the edge" nice fitting name for all this also...heh
Bye...from the ambitious idealistic...the romantic hopeless.
THNX