03-24-2009, 12:00 AM
i used to visit a nagal... who used to rip my awareness into different dimensions..... so i could sit at the table talking to him, whilst i could hear my own
screams from the otherworld .. it used to make me feel very sick... especially as i could never prove that he wasnt extracting my soul... and taking years off
my life, turning objects against me, destroying my sexual energy, driving me mad... and i thouht he was a devil worshipper....
god it was awful... I used to go back and see him as a warrior everytime i heard the feardrums beating... usually at ...
twice after seeing him i discovered my car had been stolen!... oh those where the days.. the best bit was...
everynow and then i would dream the most heartwarming dreams with his consiousness... but in real life he terrified me beyond belief....
i was never quite certain wether he was hypnotising me to like him in dreams.. so i would still go and visit!...
quite a few times i considered i was under hypnosis... and the screams were real.. whilst i just sat and watched ........
like i would walk into the house... be put to sleep immediatley.. then spend the rest of the night performing sick tricks for his amusement!... such as
repeatedly punching myself in the bollocks on command!.. or being raped by various strangers.. aww! bless!!!. but im assured the nagal has a sense of
humour!...
besides when people are being murdered tortured and abused around the planet... how could a nagal convey this understanding without irrational debilitating
fear as his main surgical tool!.. not to do so would be churlish in the extreme......
im certain had i failed in my fear tests i would be dead now!
yes i hate wannabe shamans who have never been through their fear tests... and just want to be more powerful about shtuff than others.... especially those who
like to use "traps" like from castaneda..., when they really dont have a !"£^$% clue!..
I used to recite the "battle chant of ATL'MAN" from theun mares cry of the eagle, and some tensegrity.. then some more battle chants... before i
even had enough energy to go and see him!..
I came home one night and had visibly aged.. that was worrying...... aww! bless...
real nagals are utter utter utter utter utter utterly lifechanging!... honestly they can rip you to pieces....
anyone who wishes to be known as a warrior can willingly take up some of my fear lessons for personal challenge!.. past challenges that have been completed can
be quite devestating..... I had to drive myself mad to escape the fear!... figured if i could destroy myself more than he was willing to destroy himself.. then
i could hide within his human personalities fear of mortality!.. and thus escape him beore i died... and claim victory (sort of)....
so many fakes an frauds live in this world.. there are millions of men who think they are shamans.. and i expect thousands more who secretely think themselves
to be nagals...
but the truth be known.. all their personal power is not power at all... just space in the unknown.. that allows them to be manipulative over others less nasty
in themselves!.... anyway... the eagle has sounded!! lets have a party!...
i cant wait to see what happens to the fakes.. because i know within my being that sobriety does not make a man strong.... especially those who... apon reading
that fear is the first enemy and sobriety the second, immediatley.. try to be challenged by the second....
those men are weak and have failed fear in the first second!!!....
warrior of atl'
screams from the otherworld .. it used to make me feel very sick... especially as i could never prove that he wasnt extracting my soul... and taking years off
my life, turning objects against me, destroying my sexual energy, driving me mad... and i thouht he was a devil worshipper....
god it was awful... I used to go back and see him as a warrior everytime i heard the feardrums beating... usually at ...
twice after seeing him i discovered my car had been stolen!... oh those where the days.. the best bit was...
everynow and then i would dream the most heartwarming dreams with his consiousness... but in real life he terrified me beyond belief....
i was never quite certain wether he was hypnotising me to like him in dreams.. so i would still go and visit!...
quite a few times i considered i was under hypnosis... and the screams were real.. whilst i just sat and watched ........
like i would walk into the house... be put to sleep immediatley.. then spend the rest of the night performing sick tricks for his amusement!... such as
repeatedly punching myself in the bollocks on command!.. or being raped by various strangers.. aww! bless!!!. but im assured the nagal has a sense of
humour!...
besides when people are being murdered tortured and abused around the planet... how could a nagal convey this understanding without irrational debilitating
fear as his main surgical tool!.. not to do so would be churlish in the extreme......
im certain had i failed in my fear tests i would be dead now!
yes i hate wannabe shamans who have never been through their fear tests... and just want to be more powerful about shtuff than others.... especially those who
like to use "traps" like from castaneda..., when they really dont have a !"£^$% clue!..
I used to recite the "battle chant of ATL'MAN" from theun mares cry of the eagle, and some tensegrity.. then some more battle chants... before i
even had enough energy to go and see him!..
I came home one night and had visibly aged.. that was worrying...... aww! bless...
real nagals are utter utter utter utter utter utterly lifechanging!... honestly they can rip you to pieces....
anyone who wishes to be known as a warrior can willingly take up some of my fear lessons for personal challenge!.. past challenges that have been completed can
be quite devestating..... I had to drive myself mad to escape the fear!... figured if i could destroy myself more than he was willing to destroy himself.. then
i could hide within his human personalities fear of mortality!.. and thus escape him beore i died... and claim victory (sort of)....
so many fakes an frauds live in this world.. there are millions of men who think they are shamans.. and i expect thousands more who secretely think themselves
to be nagals...
but the truth be known.. all their personal power is not power at all... just space in the unknown.. that allows them to be manipulative over others less nasty
in themselves!.... anyway... the eagle has sounded!! lets have a party!...
i cant wait to see what happens to the fakes.. because i know within my being that sobriety does not make a man strong.... especially those who... apon reading
that fear is the first enemy and sobriety the second, immediatley.. try to be challenged by the second....
those men are weak and have failed fear in the first second!!!....
warrior of atl'