what is this strange feeling?

[rosygyro]

I forgot to add... had i at anypoint chosen to declare myself not an apprentice nagal... I would have been severed from the agreement... and been free to
leave... I would have then spent the rest of my life wondering what it would have been like if i hadnt been a coward!.... which is worse than any fear! the
real realisation that your life has hit a certain boundary.. and that the unknown has been made by your failure to fight!........ we all want to die.... the
only reason people are afraid is they cant work out how!... warrior of ATL'.