Death as an Advisor

[serloco]

I have always held close to the death defiers. Always seeking a way past death to create soemthing that can live forever. Death has always been my adviser since i first started on my sorcery journey but in a different way. I have always believed that we can create with our awareness alternatives or solutions. Using my sorcery I have managed to rid myself of terminal emphysema, using a mind over matter technique that merges my awareness with my body. Since everything is awareness you can alter that awareness to alter reality. Naturally. I have battled the ageing process as well, and created a form of magic to reverse age, and accelerate age. I have always countered every thought of death with a thought of life, or a solution to the problem. But as time has gone by the notion that i am going to die is getting heavier on me to the point where i almost accept it as inevitable. This frightens me in way because of my success in countermanding death. During the miraculous adventure that has been sorcery I have learned many things, performed many feats that average man has not even the hope to perform. I have always secretly felt that men were dumb sheep all being herded into death by negative beings who have tricked the populace. When one has successfully shapeshifted into animal forms as I have it seems death is not so definite. In fact it is the only teaching from don Juan that I have never fully embraced. We are men and as such we are going to die. I prefer we are beings of awareness and will and as such can perform impossible feats. Anything is possible is my inkling. Why must we die? What if by accepting this fact we submit our will to death, and in the process will it into being? I have seen positions of awareness where everything in life is a choice we make. So here I am pondering my death. Do I continue to practice my death defying awareness or do i let it all go (for it is energy consuming) and accept that i am going to die?