10-07-2001, 12:00 AM
i've got quite a few names that i'd add to a list of doctors i *wish* would disappear. it makes the ppl who care for me angry (at me!) but i won't follow doctors' advice. i go to get checked out when i have a problem, but i have been misdiagnosed or treated with guesswork so many times that i don't trust them. ever notice how many are quick to put you on heavy regimens of sometimes dangerous drugs when they aren't sure what's wrong or if the drug will help? and won't tell you they are unsure what to diagnose? or, my personal favorite, your intense pain is all in your head- this is especially popular for use with female patients.
head doctors are the worst. mine tried to put me on all sorts of mood altering scripts. i was in the "mood" i was in due to really bad things going down. (
i am not mentally unstable.) silly me, i figured that to get better i needed to *deal* with the situation, which was why i was there in the first place. doc figured i had a "possible" chemical imbalance in my brain. i told her that if she had actually run any kind of test and could show me i was greatly lacking in some vital brain chemical, i might consider her advice. she had little to say but didn't give up on the idea of "fixing" me thru pharmacy. i wonder how many ppl just take the pills...
its my opinion that we don't know enough about intricate and delicate interconnected systems like brain/endocrine etc to be fiddling with them without some cold hard objective evidence. i was a mess, sure, i was a whole ball of messy, normal human emotion- but i had been traumatized. i'd think a doctor would be more upset if i had *no* reaction to the brutality of my fellow man.
these medicines are made to alter your brain chemistry, the mix of chemicals and reactions that essentially make us who we are and govern our behavior. no way was i going to allow my basic personality traits to be tinkered with, the me of who i am to be wiped away so i could feel better quickly. i'm angry! that's who i am! deal with it!
therapy was just one more in a long line of events designed to show me that nobody has all the answers and that ppl in authority will often "help" you beyond all reason and many times to your detriment. and good luck to you if you should go in armed with questions or information on your own condition. you aren't supposed to know more than the guy in the white smock. it upsets him. maybe he needs some prozac to help him get thru the day. i know a doctor...
learn to heal yourself whenever you can. and don't believe anyone who tries to tell you they know your body better than you do.
slightly off the point as usual! but i mean well
-alice
head doctors are the worst. mine tried to put me on all sorts of mood altering scripts. i was in the "mood" i was in due to really bad things going down. (
i am not mentally unstable.) silly me, i figured that to get better i needed to *deal* with the situation, which was why i was there in the first place. doc figured i had a "possible" chemical imbalance in my brain. i told her that if she had actually run any kind of test and could show me i was greatly lacking in some vital brain chemical, i might consider her advice. she had little to say but didn't give up on the idea of "fixing" me thru pharmacy. i wonder how many ppl just take the pills...its my opinion that we don't know enough about intricate and delicate interconnected systems like brain/endocrine etc to be fiddling with them without some cold hard objective evidence. i was a mess, sure, i was a whole ball of messy, normal human emotion- but i had been traumatized. i'd think a doctor would be more upset if i had *no* reaction to the brutality of my fellow man.
these medicines are made to alter your brain chemistry, the mix of chemicals and reactions that essentially make us who we are and govern our behavior. no way was i going to allow my basic personality traits to be tinkered with, the me of who i am to be wiped away so i could feel better quickly. i'm angry! that's who i am! deal with it!
therapy was just one more in a long line of events designed to show me that nobody has all the answers and that ppl in authority will often "help" you beyond all reason and many times to your detriment. and good luck to you if you should go in armed with questions or information on your own condition. you aren't supposed to know more than the guy in the white smock. it upsets him. maybe he needs some prozac to help him get thru the day. i know a doctor...
learn to heal yourself whenever you can. and don't believe anyone who tries to tell you they know your body better than you do.
slightly off the point as usual! but i mean well
-alice