11-28-2017, 12:03 AM
Pixie Dust wrote:
You've always been someone I enjoy being around voluntarily. I'm just super touchy having people close to me right now. This is good for now and let's just see how this goes.
To be honest, I'm barely keeping my head above water. I've seen better days. There's been a lot of pressure. It's not been easy watching over everyone. It took a lot out of me, emotionally and spiritually. I can't risk losing more of myself because there's just not much left of me. I'm not quite a person you want to be close to right now because I'm not ok. I can't explain what I mean by that, but it's safe to assume there's quite a bit I haven't shared that's affecting me. I want you close because you're familiar. Just not too close because there's still a lot of turmoil.
I'm trying to figure out how to be ok. Business is great though. To be perfectly honest, I think I have PTSD. I can function, but I get triggered by certain things and can't function. It's been a struggle and so I've been keeping away everyone but those who are actively helping me recover.
It really is me, not you. Know that I enjoy the simple exchanges we have here. It gives me a break from more complex concerns. It's also nice to laugh at someone else for a change. So carry on with your speculations. It's nice to have muggle company for a change.
So obviously the simplest thing would be to ignore you now and invest my energy in other projects, but out of respect for any part of this that might be true, I would like to at least give the story a happy ending.
You've always been someone I enjoy being around voluntarily. I'm just super touchy having people close to me right now. This is good for now and let's just see how this goes.
To be honest, I'm barely keeping my head above water. I've seen better days. There's been a lot of pressure. It's not been easy watching over everyone. It took a lot out of me, emotionally and spiritually. I can't risk losing more of myself because there's just not much left of me. I'm not quite a person you want to be close to right now because I'm not ok. I can't explain what I mean by that, but it's safe to assume there's quite a bit I haven't shared that's affecting me. I want you close because you're familiar. Just not too close because there's still a lot of turmoil.
I'm trying to figure out how to be ok. Business is great though. To be perfectly honest, I think I have PTSD. I can function, but I get triggered by certain things and can't function. It's been a struggle and so I've been keeping away everyone but those who are actively helping me recover.
It really is me, not you. Know that I enjoy the simple exchanges we have here. It gives me a break from more complex concerns. It's also nice to laugh at someone else for a change. So carry on with your speculations. It's nice to have muggle company for a change.
So obviously the simplest thing would be to ignore you now and invest my energy in other projects, but out of respect for any part of this that might be true, I would like to at least give the story a happy ending.