07-01-2017, 12:00 AM
Yes I agree. Its funny how life is, how what you need comes right perfectly at the right time. You can be in the midst of hell ad yet heaven ca still find you. Yu can be so high and mighty and yet in walks wisdom to bring you down on the ladder and teach you a lwsson you need to know. I think we never stop learning. I been seeking wisdom and teacher and was somewhat stuck. I wasnt letting the teacher in. Then low and behold, and with a lil prayer in comes the exact words you need to fill your empty heart with the love you need to find. It really is true how a lil support goes such a long way. I am humble again. It feels nice. It even brought me to a position that let my own power yield and bring my people a lil higher then myself. I been controlling and empowering myself over everyone and I forgot just how capable people are and can be. I needed to let them choose and make the decisions for themselves. I needed to let go and give up my battle. I needed to not care anymore if i won or lost and thus giving up has made for me victory. See I was holding on to my failure and sustaining it. I held my people in a command that HAD TO BE. I made my command so strong over people that they had no choice. It was wrong of me. I did it because I thought i was better. Your thread brought to me wisdom of allowing people to be who they are and choose for themselves and so I relented the power of my "have to" commands and now yield to let people be themselves as God intended. Infinity surely perpetuates itself and in that process diversity is created perfectly. People have choice for a reason. So everyone doesnt walk the same path. Who am I to take that away for my own idea of what is right for them? Let people make their own mistakes and find their own truth. I am done forcing my truth on everyone else. After all today I found myself small again. I see that the intent to listen and learn brings people higher then yourself and aligns something more to the equation then merely what you know. It aligns the unknown. Now finally again I have something to listen for in my people. WIsdom and teachings beyond myself, and if I have something to offer them then surely I will be there for them but that will be their choice. I ponder now if it is wrong to force a blessing onto someone? I think it is not but I must contemplate this before doing so. I do accept you for who you are Kaomea and I am thankful that your art also served me and not you alone. This generosity of the spirit that serves everyone has also opened me up to see that what I do, even when i dont know it, is serving others as well and in hidden ways too. Its nice finally to change again and learn again from creation, reality, the moment. I have this way of listening and watching, observing reality, that brings synchronicity into the picture. It seems it doesnt matter what it is either I am observing. If I am thinking of allies then reality starts talking about allies and advising you on what to do. If I think of somthing bad or wrong or small or in error then it picks me up right then and there and advises me. If I am wondering about God and seeking God's advise and love, His wisdom, then sure enough its like the world opens and the dark skies vanish away and I am in peace with a friendly reality and I am safe again with my friend. I hope that one day my actions in this world will not only be remembered but be celebrated. I hope I can make a difference and continue to shine and make the world a better place. Its not that I want glory and recognition either. I dont care if someone even steals it all for themselves. I want to actually make a difference in people's lives. I want my hardship and my pain and my sacrifice to mean something. I would be happy if only God knew all I have done for this world and the worlds I have touched thus far. I want more then anything to make my maker happy with me. To make Him proud and be there solely for His will and His purpose. I am but a pawn. A mighty pawn I think but a pawn non the less. Now that I dont know what next to do I think I will ensure that my people know how to touch the world and make a difference as I have. I want to let my people see how to bless and how to enhance life for the better. I will empower and I will allow.