06-03-2017, 12:00 AM
I remember taking a class for a roommate in college, because he couldn't pass and needed it to complete his degree. I thought I was being helpful...and adventurous. Looking back, maybe was a foolish thing to do in terms of interfering. Anyways, in the class I deliberately put on the mask of stupidity, with a goofy southern accent whenever asking questions and participating in the class. It was good practice, but there was this sense of control, however, that made the lesson perhaps less effective.
In comparison, I get to play the fool frequently at the hands of the spirit...during moments when there is no preamble to the experience. Spirit sets it up and springs it on me and thus, I'm caught in a spotlight suddenly, looking foolish. That's the better lesson, I feel. The message there, from infinity, is to become intensely aware during those moments of inadvertently looking foolish...being embarrassed. To maintain coherence without reacting to the best of my ability. To avoid the compulsion to the cover up (this compulsion is almost insatiable, I've found), to spare face. To sit in it, awake and aware.
To me, being willing to play the fool mean giving spirit permission to bring this lessons home, perhaps when totally unprepared...until I am prepared...perennially aware.
In comparison, I get to play the fool frequently at the hands of the spirit...during moments when there is no preamble to the experience. Spirit sets it up and springs it on me and thus, I'm caught in a spotlight suddenly, looking foolish. That's the better lesson, I feel. The message there, from infinity, is to become intensely aware during those moments of inadvertently looking foolish...being embarrassed. To maintain coherence without reacting to the best of my ability. To avoid the compulsion to the cover up (this compulsion is almost insatiable, I've found), to spare face. To sit in it, awake and aware.
To me, being willing to play the fool mean giving spirit permission to bring this lessons home, perhaps when totally unprepared...until I am prepared...perennially aware.