01-08-2018, 12:00 AM
Could you give me an examples of how the bends impact your life in good ways? 
I thought my bends did good in the world, but then in the end the older I am the more I am seeing that even though it looked to be very good it was not as good on the deeper layers as I previously thought
- kinda like what we say about sometimes it is best to drop politeness and unleash some chaos cause it can be better and good on the underlayers even if it seems to not be good on the surface.
so, I'd like to see and am curious if your bends are of a different nature.
Personally, I in myself try to smooth out my bends. I have seen it betters my health and well being, connects me better with the world too, all of which links to happiness and fulfillment.
Your way of being OK with your bends seems strange to me (to a degree, I too am ofc ok with some of my current bends and am ok with myself even if I strive to change for the better)... because when I was OK with my bends (or did not recognize them as bends even) I was a lot more ill. It shows how different people and their bodies are. As well as spirits and whatnot. Sometimes I change because it is the right thing to do and not because I want to specifically. I am sure ofc that there are many bends in me still that I need to identify and smooth out and such, just saying that my general policy of dealing with identified bends is different than yours. And that to me it is mindblowing that anyone would accept a bend when they can smooth it out and allow the energy to flow more freely.
But I hear you that it is a strange pressure to come from outside. That others push on you to get rid of your bends. Such decisions should come from you. And even if not from really your inside then at least not from another person pushing you into it. Cause in my case... did the pressure really come from me in my case? I would say I was kinda forced into it (by aspects of myself acting out sure, but not by a normal ooh what shall i do today, lets start working on this thing) and then stuff got so much better I am trying to be wiser now... I think everyone naturally does not want to change stuff, change themselves, their bad sides. We get a familiarity with ourselves that it seems our bad and good sides are what makes us us.
Imo it is not so. I am not my bends nor my straightness. I am something beyond all this (fluidity ftw).
I would assume, Pixie, that one thing that makes it easy to morph is to know who you are or else to not have an identity in a way that most people do. One or the other works really well. But I guess in the first case one still needs to learn to let go, in the other the letting go might be quite easy.
It was hard to let go of something that was unhealthy but a familiar part of me. even if I knew it was not helping me it was still me. That was just an illusion though - it was not me. I am not less because I kicked it to the curb. And same goes for stuff people might consider good things in me - like being considerate and polite. Ofc some things come from places of one's spirit, others come from bad habits. The first is more linked to who we are ofc.
And, you know, I had to smile at the fact that there is one bend youd like to smooth out - that is where it might all start - beware! You might smoothe it out and then shift. And from this shift you might start to see another bend that would be just a bit better if it was smoothed out a bit, and then from there....
That is kinda how it went for me.... down down the rabbit hole
. Damn the thing!
Yes, I get it that one becomes functional even with the bents. And mind you I have seen how greatly functional you can be when you set your mind to something. But ofc it is not the bends that makes us functional... we'd learn to be that even once they are smoothed out - after a period of inconvenience while we are figuring it out.
I dare say, it is not just about your bends when people are disturbed. Often enough it is their own bends that do it.
" I'm saying what I do is right and correct for me. "
everyone should do what is right and correct for them. The problem is if there are too many bends they might lead to misrepresenting facts/ not seeing as clearly as one might otherwise. So one might think one is fighting for what is best and correct ... but it is not so - I speak here from my own experience. Once the bends are smoothed out the vision changes and then it is time to facepalm a bit. So much energy spent for something that didnt do that much good at all.
Be more tolerant of incompetence? hehe yeah I hear ya
I can be in intolerant states myself. Not good states for me I can tell ya.
Sometimes I think my being just cannot take certain harsher murkier settings just... like literally cannot process them properly and I get ill.
Other people might be of a cruder material, by which I'd not say worse but more sturdy and in that sense healthier. Like say some dog breeds that have all sorts of parentage are more healthy than some pure bloods. I'm like a pure blood, have some perks that go with it and some disadvantages. Like say if one has some angel blood that just made the whole body quiver when there were impure thoughts (rofl yea not those kinds of impure thoughts but a quiver might be present there too). And then these pollute and the whole body gets into a bad state and well... there we are... advantage or disadvantage? both I'd say. Someone with some demon blood might have the same adverse reaction to having some good thoughts. And then there is the person who is a mix of this and that who can think and do what they want when they want for xyz decades until their body shows any signs of adverse reactions.
I wonder if it is still considered to be a vitrue if not doing it would be detrimental and lead to one's doom.
I hear you when you say your bends have brought you here. I think to my past illness sometimes and how I should be grateful for having it because it brought me to shamanism and whatnot. But why carry it with me past that point? Why not let go of the bends that made me ill? What is the point of dragging them with me just cause it might be scary to change?
But, given your bends do not affect you in ways that make you ill and such... it might be different for you.
Then there is still the question of are bends bad even if some people are mix bloods and do not notice that they actually affect them... at least not yet... usually people notice in their later years of adulthood things that had a bad effect over the years on their health. Maybe they liked to induldge too much in tabbaco and now have trouble with their lungs or they never tried to cool their temper and got stomach problems now etc. If they had stomach problems already when they had those patterns of behavior at 20, they might have had a quite different life and utilized different and healthier strategies for dealing with problems etc. Is it better that their bodies/spirits were sturdy and could take it until later age? Or would it have been better if they had known right away?
Ofc best would be for us to notice these things without our body or spirit suffering... but sadly most of us are dense.
The problem would be if definition of 'bad bend' would depend on stuff like whether one has angel or demon blood - that would get a lot more complicated. But, if my observation are correct, it seems to me it is not so for us humans. We seem to be pretty consistent in what has adverse reactions to us. Though ofc our limits differ. I would not say this is the case with everything, but with enough. Like we need oxygen to breather - but sherpas are able to live in higher altitudes where others would suffer etc.
Funny when you say you are so critical of people. I see you conversing with and trying out things from all sorts of people and often you are more attracted to the troublemaker kind (like here at the site I mean where I can see you). But, well, let's face it those people are often more fun... for a while at least...
Oh yes, I do believe it is important what place your actions come from. I do wish that good intentions made more of a difference and not pave the way to hell, as they say. So, for me it is the goal to come from a place of good that is not soo greatly linked to those good intentions that lead to hell. There is a place of still good intentions but one that is like more impersonal. Still... 'tis a work in progress. Hope no one ends in hell. Fingers crossed
I thought my bends did good in the world, but then in the end the older I am the more I am seeing that even though it looked to be very good it was not as good on the deeper layers as I previously thought
- kinda like what we say about sometimes it is best to drop politeness and unleash some chaos cause it can be better and good on the underlayers even if it seems to not be good on the surface.so, I'd like to see and am curious if your bends are of a different nature
. Personally, I in myself try to smooth out my bends. I have seen it betters my health and well being, connects me better with the world too, all of which links to happiness and fulfillment.
Your way of being OK with your bends seems strange to me (to a degree, I too am ofc ok with some of my current bends and am ok with myself even if I strive to change for the better)... because when I was OK with my bends (or did not recognize them as bends even) I was a lot more ill. It shows how different people and their bodies are. As well as spirits and whatnot. Sometimes I change because it is the right thing to do and not because I want to specifically. I am sure ofc that there are many bends in me still that I need to identify and smooth out and such, just saying that my general policy of dealing with identified bends is different than yours. And that to me it is mindblowing that anyone would accept a bend when they can smooth it out and allow the energy to flow more freely.
But I hear you that it is a strange pressure to come from outside. That others push on you to get rid of your bends. Such decisions should come from you. And even if not from really your inside then at least not from another person pushing you into it. Cause in my case... did the pressure really come from me in my case? I would say I was kinda forced into it (by aspects of myself acting out sure, but not by a normal ooh what shall i do today, lets start working on this thing) and then stuff got so much better I am trying to be wiser now... I think everyone naturally does not want to change stuff, change themselves, their bad sides. We get a familiarity with ourselves that it seems our bad and good sides are what makes us us.
Imo it is not so. I am not my bends nor my straightness
. I am something beyond all this (fluidity ftw). I would assume, Pixie, that one thing that makes it easy to morph is to know who you are or else to not have an identity in a way that most people do. One or the other works really well. But I guess in the first case one still needs to learn to let go, in the other the letting go might be quite easy.
It was hard to let go of something that was unhealthy but a familiar part of me. even if I knew it was not helping me it was still me. That was just an illusion though - it was not me. I am not less because I kicked it to the curb. And same goes for stuff people might consider good things in me - like being considerate and polite. Ofc some things come from places of one's spirit, others come from bad habits. The first is more linked to who we are ofc
.And, you know, I had to smile at the fact that there is one bend youd like to smooth out - that is where it might all start - beware! You might smoothe it out and then shift. And from this shift you might start to see another bend that would be just a bit better if it was smoothed out a bit, and then from there....
That is kinda how it went for me.... down down the rabbit hole
. Damn the thing! Yes, I get it that one becomes functional even with the bents. And mind you I have seen how greatly functional you can be when you set your mind to something. But ofc it is not the bends that makes us functional... we'd learn to be that even once they are smoothed out - after a period of inconvenience while we are figuring it out.
I dare say, it is not just about your bends when people are disturbed. Often enough it is their own bends that do it.
" I'm saying what I do is right and correct for me. "
everyone should do what is right and correct for them. The problem is if there are too many bends they might lead to misrepresenting facts/ not seeing as clearly as one might otherwise. So one might think one is fighting for what is best and correct ... but it is not so - I speak here from my own experience. Once the bends are smoothed out the vision changes and then it is time to facepalm a bit
. So much energy spent for something that didnt do that much good at all.Be more tolerant of incompetence? hehe yeah I hear ya
I can be in intolerant states myself. Not good states for me I can tell ya.
Sometimes I think my being just cannot take certain harsher murkier settings just... like literally cannot process them properly and I get ill.
Other people might be of a cruder material, by which I'd not say worse but more sturdy and in that sense healthier. Like say some dog breeds that have all sorts of parentage are more healthy than some pure bloods. I'm like a pure blood, have some perks that go with it and some disadvantages. Like say if one has some angel blood that just made the whole body quiver when there were impure thoughts (rofl yea not those kinds of impure thoughts but a quiver might be present there too). And then these pollute and the whole body gets into a bad state and well... there we are... advantage or disadvantage? both I'd say. Someone with some demon blood might have the same adverse reaction to having some good thoughts. And then there is the person who is a mix of this and that who can think and do what they want when they want for xyz decades until their body shows any signs of adverse reactions.
I wonder if it is still considered to be a vitrue if not doing it would be detrimental and lead to one's doom
.I hear you when you say your bends have brought you here. I think to my past illness sometimes and how I should be grateful for having it because it brought me to shamanism and whatnot. But why carry it with me past that point? Why not let go of the bends that made me ill? What is the point of dragging them with me just cause it might be scary to change?
But, given your bends do not affect you in ways that make you ill and such... it might be different for you.
Then there is still the question of are bends bad even if some people are mix bloods and do not notice that they actually affect them... at least not yet... usually people notice in their later years of adulthood things that had a bad effect over the years on their health. Maybe they liked to induldge too much in tabbaco and now have trouble with their lungs or they never tried to cool their temper and got stomach problems now etc. If they had stomach problems already when they had those patterns of behavior at 20, they might have had a quite different life and utilized different and healthier strategies for dealing with problems etc. Is it better that their bodies/spirits were sturdy and could take it until later age? Or would it have been better if they had known right away?
Ofc best would be for us to notice these things without our body or spirit suffering... but sadly most of us are dense
.The problem would be if definition of 'bad bend' would depend on stuff like whether one has angel or demon blood - that would get a lot more complicated. But, if my observation are correct, it seems to me it is not so for us humans. We seem to be pretty consistent in what has adverse reactions to us. Though ofc our limits differ. I would not say this is the case with everything, but with enough. Like we need oxygen to breather - but sherpas are able to live in higher altitudes where others would suffer etc.
Funny when you say you are so critical of people. I see you conversing with and trying out things from all sorts of people and often you are more attracted to the troublemaker kind (like here at the site I mean where I can see you)
. But, well, let's face it those people are often more fun... for a while at least...Oh yes, I do believe it is important what place your actions come from. I do wish that good intentions made more of a difference and not pave the way to hell, as they say
. So, for me it is the goal to come from a place of good that is not soo greatly linked to those good intentions that lead to hell. There is a place of still good intentions but one that is like more impersonal. Still... 'tis a work in progress. Hope no one ends in hell. Fingers crossed