01-09-2018, 12:00 AM
So reading your two posts explaining some about how you approach bends. Yes, it makes total sense to me. I too kept certain bends due to them protecting people that I love. but I curbed them a bit and utilize them in a much more aware manner and am still seeking for ways to get to the same goal and stop bending myself to get there. And I have been succesfful too... it is a work in progress...
And what you describe as linking to your OCD ... I have the same thing, though no OCD
. I start working, am super detail oriented, dont drink or eat the whole day even sometimes, dont sleep sometimes even etc. I consider it a good skill to have. I have not done away with it. but yea the sleep is not too great maybe - I do not know... but I'd say I read some yogis or whatnot can focus so much they dont sleep either. I think it is about strength of purpose
or at least the ability fo focus and concentrate. I know people who would not be able to pull an all nighter, and people who get angry if they eat 15 minutes later than they are used to. I find that weird as I can not eat a whole day without noticing if my attension is occupied
.
I did suffer when I did not drink... my bladder complained. So I devised strategies to get myself to drink more regulraly and such. I need to be more aware of some things so my body does not suffer. I can do that. It is part of what I do now and I keep my purpose and everything. So yea listening to the body is important. If you have no bad side effects then there is no reason to consider it an unhealthy thing.
So, if you are like me, I'd say it is not an OCD thing (but probs it contributes?). I think it links to the strength of your attention and concentration
. Should we curb the power of our focus? Hell no!
We should just apply it more wisely and to the degree that is best
. For me.. this year I had periods of no-time-to-sleep and that is what I had to do for myself and my learning. My body did not suffer any illness so in that sense I did not feel like I was hurting it. Though I did age a bit during the time - which was unusual but guess it makes some sense given the regenerative effects of sleep that I skipped on. I guess I am not superwoman after all
.
If I over do it then it is not good, if I keep it to a certain limit then it is a great superpower
.
But there are things that can be called bends in a better way, which are not really that helpful. Like someone having road rage - how is that in any way good?
I guess when I say bend I mean things that obstruct natural flow. And sometimes it is the most natural thing to forget the time and explore to one's own pleasurable and useful purpose
. As long as one keeps an eye out that one does not starve or die of thirst or some organ failure
.
But say something like not being able to voice a protest when someone is badgering you or being mean. That is obviously something that would have a bad impact if a person is not capable to defend themselves.
Or if one is too shy, this also has a certain bend and it inhibits experiencing and freedom of expression.
Or if one is too cynical omg, that flavor can go quote toxic...
Or judgmental... that is not helpful or good for one's relationships. But if one is incapable of judgment it might be a detrimental thing too... hence I guess it all depends on the person and the way the bend manifests. It is what even shows whether it is a bend.
So your described thing... I see that it could obstruct... but you can work on it a little and make it into a healthy superpower - so it is not really that bent in effect. Just potentially if you go to excess - which you care not to (as you say you utilize the strategy of another keeping an eye on you
. If you didn't have this you could find another strategy believe me.)
And what you describe as linking to your OCD ... I have the same thing, though no OCD
. I start working, am super detail oriented, dont drink or eat the whole day even sometimes, dont sleep sometimes even etc. I consider it a good skill to have. I have not done away with it. but yea the sleep is not too great maybe - I do not know... but I'd say I read some yogis or whatnot can focus so much they dont sleep either. I think it is about strength of purpose
or at least the ability fo focus and concentrate. I know people who would not be able to pull an all nighter, and people who get angry if they eat 15 minutes later than they are used to. I find that weird as I can not eat a whole day without noticing if my attension is occupied
. I did suffer when I did not drink... my bladder complained. So I devised strategies to get myself to drink more regulraly and such. I need to be more aware of some things so my body does not suffer. I can do that. It is part of what I do now and I keep my purpose and everything. So yea listening to the body is important. If you have no bad side effects then there is no reason to consider it an unhealthy thing.
So, if you are like me, I'd say it is not an OCD thing (but probs it contributes?). I think it links to the strength of your attention and concentration
. Should we curb the power of our focus? Hell no!
We should just apply it more wisely and to the degree that is best
. For me.. this year I had periods of no-time-to-sleep and that is what I had to do for myself and my learning. My body did not suffer any illness so in that sense I did not feel like I was hurting it. Though I did age a bit during the time - which was unusual but guess it makes some sense given the regenerative effects of sleep that I skipped on. I guess I am not superwoman after all
.If I over do it then it is not good, if I keep it to a certain limit then it is a great superpower
. But there are things that can be called bends in a better way, which are not really that helpful. Like someone having road rage - how is that in any way good?
I guess when I say bend I mean things that obstruct natural flow. And sometimes it is the most natural thing to forget the time and explore to one's own pleasurable and useful purpose
. As long as one keeps an eye out that one does not starve or die of thirst or some organ failure
.But say something like not being able to voice a protest when someone is badgering you or being mean. That is obviously something that would have a bad impact if a person is not capable to defend themselves.
Or if one is too shy, this also has a certain bend and it inhibits experiencing and freedom of expression.
Or if one is too cynical omg, that flavor can go quote toxic...
Or judgmental... that is not helpful or good for one's relationships. But if one is incapable of judgment it might be a detrimental thing too... hence I guess it all depends on the person and the way the bend manifests. It is what even shows whether it is a bend.
So your described thing... I see that it could obstruct... but you can work on it a little and make it into a healthy superpower - so it is not really that bent in effect. Just potentially if you go to excess - which you care not to (as you say you utilize the strategy of another keeping an eye on you
. If you didn't have this you could find another strategy believe me.)

