12-21-2016, 12:00 AM
well i perceive different positions for humans and allies. I learned long ago how to shift average people into positions of allies, and vice versa. I rarely do that these days though. I would say that you are Kaomea, someone I would like as a friend. I think and see that you have volition of your own that did not come from me. I came to this forum to meet humans on the path of sorcery. Like minded people. My world is often in the second attention. I have a few different positions of what humans are. Lately my awareness has been in a "human form". Many of my old positions are left behind. My awareness of allies and humans has been ''mixed'' for years. Intermingled. I often can not tell the difference between them. However since I shut down many old positions I have been seeing people as normal people again. Its a lovely position often taken for granted. Humans, plain and simple.
I will not force my will onto people anymore. I used to tell everything. My new position doesnt know and doesnt force. It wants to see what is naturally, before i interfere and claim it as my own. The unknown is more enticing to me. It frees me of my yesterdays. Oh my yesterdays are still following me trying to snag me back but they are growing weaker and inactive.
You have dark side to you Kaomea. I understand it well. I spent many years in the darkness. I was almost a goner. It owned me. One day after years of being lost to it I decided to break free of it. The darkness serves itself. Its selfish. Evil is, after all, evil right? I found that the way into the heavens is not to be a slave to evil thinking and evil actions. I found that by empowering certain awareness' I would never find my way into the heavens. I would fall every time. I am ashamed to say that much of my path was forged with selfish intent. What is the result but the actions taken to create it. It was a reflection. I was dirty in much of my ways. Corrupt. Oh I had some good awareness too and crafted great things but in the end it was corrupt because i was corrupt. I want to make something pure, and something clean. I want my actions to be free of the darkness, free of evil intent. I want righteousness and honor, dignity and grace. I want to create something, to be part of something, that is beautiful and right. Good.
I will not force my will onto people anymore. I used to tell everything. My new position doesnt know and doesnt force. It wants to see what is naturally, before i interfere and claim it as my own. The unknown is more enticing to me. It frees me of my yesterdays. Oh my yesterdays are still following me trying to snag me back but they are growing weaker and inactive.
You have dark side to you Kaomea. I understand it well. I spent many years in the darkness. I was almost a goner. It owned me. One day after years of being lost to it I decided to break free of it. The darkness serves itself. Its selfish. Evil is, after all, evil right? I found that the way into the heavens is not to be a slave to evil thinking and evil actions. I found that by empowering certain awareness' I would never find my way into the heavens. I would fall every time. I am ashamed to say that much of my path was forged with selfish intent. What is the result but the actions taken to create it. It was a reflection. I was dirty in much of my ways. Corrupt. Oh I had some good awareness too and crafted great things but in the end it was corrupt because i was corrupt. I want to make something pure, and something clean. I want my actions to be free of the darkness, free of evil intent. I want righteousness and honor, dignity and grace. I want to create something, to be part of something, that is beautiful and right. Good.