12-08-2014, 12:00 AM
=mediumHi, I joined this forum because I have no one to ask about what happened to me. Some random things happened and I got contact with this man living on another continent. quite fast we developed a special relationship. One day our astral bodies contacted me. This has never happened before to me. Took us to a travel to the yellow world which I new nothing about from before. After that I have been pulled into this force where I have got teachings. Every day is like a new lesson for me. Trust me, I am not into shamanism, I have never read a book about this, I have no clue.Everything has just come to me. My problem, this guy, he is probably my nagual, which I don't know really what is.In human life I cannot be together with him. His human form is full of self pity and he can be very nasty. He lacks so much grace and stability on his path.I understood quite early that I have more a direct link that he has. I am the strongest one on my mission.From what I have learned I am following my path. The teachings I got about being a warrior has made me so strong. He is not like that, he is freaking out.I guess he has been freaking out about me also who has taken things in without reading or talking to anyone about it. I tried to explain that I am visual and I take in vibration easier than reading books. Ive always been a sensitive person that can see a lot what is going on. In my life I don't talk much about this, I hide my powers. I haven't even told him about everything. My question is, do we only have one nagual traveller?I wish I could kind of let him go on all levels. I have cut contact in our human form, but still he needs so much mirroring from me.A new part of me was born a week a go, I was going through maybe one of the hardest moments in my life, a part of me died, and she came to me, a part of me that was born, I am not sure what this is. But she is so strong, so in touch with her path. This part of me is like helping him all the time, I would rather spend this power on other things, exploring more.He was the one that was into this nagual, shamanism thing. So I got the opening through him. I am forever thankful for that. I don't want to hurt him in any way. I was hoping he could stop being so needy. He also seems jelous of me the way I get the teachings, things he has been reading about and studied for so many years. Is he scared of me? This is something that usually happens when I tell people what i see. In the beginning he was fascinated w this, then he seemed to get paranoid. Me and him are probably soul mates(a concept i didn't believe in before). But since it is impossible for us being physical together it has been tough for us both. After this new part of me was born, I feel strong enough to follow my path and not let my emotions go in the way. This is me. I trust my path as long as I have strong heart connection. Listening in the silence. When it comes to dreams, I have been lucid dreaming and got through stages in this naturally since I was a child. It has always been there. I started to understand I was dreaming very young and I have travelled many places and learned a lot.I never studied anything of this. I never done any exercises or read any books about this. This sounds maybe far out for you. I never share things like this w people.I am a normal person living a good life. My journey in life have been extraordinary with a lot of movement. I am a mother as well. I am not crazy or had mental problems.In the beginning when this force was pulling me i got a bit overwhelmed, it wasn't always i wanted to go on these "tours" or what you call it. But I understood it was a lot for me to learn and my teacher was a bit in a hurry.Now I am not getting owerwhelmed anymore and it is quite easy to live like this.I am an artist so this pulling force is also like a well of free creativity for me. Does any of this make sense? What I have written is just a small part of everything that has happened. What I am wondering about is the nagual, soulmate thing. What is this?I was looking at the internet yesterday. Some places says we have one, the opposite gender. Another place says we have more than a dozen.If we only have one, and for me it is him, is it possible for me to go on own my own alone, and when he is ready to do some proper work he will contribute more. I know he will do that, maybe not in this life. Its like he is trying to pull me down. Thank you so much for reading all this!!! Love S