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Hi, Everyone!
I am new here, but I know several others, through the "Yet Another Way" site. I have been a follower of CC for about 20 years, but lack dicipline and have made only minimal progress in gazing and dreaming. I look forward to meeting You all! Jumpingmouse
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Welcome Brother. Hope you find others here who share the path!
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Hello. I have not yet managed to be an active member of a forum for any length of time due to infrequent internet access but I think I have that settled now. A few of you, LoneWolf in particular may have seen a few posts under the name Windrose in the past few years. I have been engaged in Toltec pursuits since I was 13 and I am now 45. I feel that although I have made considerable progress I still have many gray areas where my knowledge is unclear. I am going to be honest about my experiences and the type of person I feel myself to be. I am doing so because I believe in being open hearted even though I sometimes think I have no emotions especially since I went through a period of madness that lasted about 5 years. quite literally I am asking for guidance in my attempt to understand the teachings. I am very bright(borderline genius) where reason is concerned but I feel that this makes me doubt my intuition. I have had myriad experiences in lucid dreaming and beginning last year I believe I have begun to have oobe's. In 2005 I began to feel an emptiness within but now this emptiness brings a strange peace. I feel sometimes that all I need is to wait for the answers I am seeking but I think that It would be foolish to never ask because of pride. I experimented heavily with LSD between the ages of 21 to 25 and about the only thing I do now is take narcotics for back pain due to scoliosis. my first major question, and I feel stupid for asking it, is that I need to know what direction I belong to. The second is can anyone explain to me how to use the jewels of awareness in daily practice. if these are inappropriate or inane questions please feel free to put me in my place. Thank you and Good Day.
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Welcome John, good to see you here...
As to that direction you seek, if you could look at your predispositions..for example stalker/dreamer and manner at this time you express that, it may point to an affinity of a direction...however it may be that you see similarities in several of the directions, in which case..imo it suggests further practice of all, in order to draw forth your strengths. if you find you cannot do all of one direction for example..it maybe that some of those 'opposites' haven't found a unified place in you yet....be not impatient, your being with your intent on finding it, will get you there..x
as for the jewels of awareness, im not sure which ones you mean for you...if you could expand a little bit more on your definitions of these, it would help my terminology and give everyone here, a better comprehension as to what you are trying to achieve....then we would be better able to try to support you in your quest, and maybe spark our own learning.
trusting we continue this dialogue and the exchange sparks exchange and connection..
welcome once again...x
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Hey John, and welcome.
I too have had bouts with madness. it seems that many alternate positions of reality are mad in comparison to the daily world we were brought up in. Not to mention the conditioning that people undergo regarding 'what is crazy'. It seems many of my alternate world experiences are not for everyone to hear.
Regarding your answers that you seek I wouldn't be to worried about how to ask. See you are intending the answers already with your energy body, and 'reality' is aware of your intent already. It does help some people to vocalize their intent but in my opinion it is not needed.
Yeah if you need any help with any of the teachings feel free to ask us. Just be more specific as to which area you are seeking as there is a lot of knowledge to cover within CC's books.
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I tend to be introverted and I have no great desire to be around others and yet when I find myself in their midst I am able to assert myself in a professional manner. I suppose I tend to be an easterly dreamer which would be a predilection for jewels 14 or 17. As far as personality is concerned though I have this issue with needing to be the hero of the story. I cannot stand to encounter something I fear and not confront it. it would eat me alive to turn tail and run unless I actually saw the tactical advantage in doing so. The first lucid dream I recall ever having found me waking from the couch because of a presence that I sensed. It felt like a dark all pervading telepathic pressure that caused actual horror in me. It spoke and said " sorcerer, face me now". I had to put forth tremendous effort to turn around toward it and screaming from exertion and fear but I nonetheless began to turn through the high gravity,high viscosity molasses that seemed to envelope me. I woke up of course before I could turn. From that day on whenever I would be dreaming a demonic black cat with red eyes and a razor sharp Cheshire cat smile would appear in my dreams. This always cued me in but it also filled me with a dark electric thrill or current.After these meetings it became super easy to exersize any power I could imagine in my dreams. Were these things inorganics? I have never consciously followed one to their realm but I am concerned that I may have and do not recall. I guess after this post I need to begin finding the correct category to post my questions in and I will do so. I would like to thank you for taking time to interact with me. I really appreciate it.
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it is nice to see you here John, welcome. I appreciate your openness and honesty, I personally feel this is key to any growth within spirit. I am not much into labels to describe us. I think it is important to know who you are and what you need to grow. In that sense it would be good to know if you are a stalker or a dreamer. I am not familiar with the jewels you speak of, what system are you referring to. You sparked my interest with your causal use of the numbers of jewels that you are, as if it is something I should already know..lol.
welcome to the forums, there is a lot of information here and places to ask questions.
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I'm also interested in (your) jewels. Learning more about what they are, how they function, how you acquire them, how you might use them, basically just your understanding of the concept.
Nice name for it too, 'jewels'. Heh.
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Well-coming ))))
"The second is can anyone explain to me how to use the jewels of awareness in daily practice. if these are inappropriate or inane questions please feel free to put me in my place. "
Intenting and practicing Inner-silence when doing simple tasks cleaning, walking, cooking, practical work in general
You seem indeed to be a dreamer )))
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John, we now have the chapter from Theun Mares Book, which describes the jewels, for you and others to read and discuss, on the site.
its in 3 parts, but here is the link to Part 1. Look forward to more exploration and dialogue on the subject, leading to experiences of daily application.
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http://sorcery.yuku.com/topic/5302/The- ... vIOhPl_uqg
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