06-20-2013, 12:00 AM
Hey, I was heading over to my regular spot on the interweb, when I ran into this place. I only have limited time at the moment, but wanted to introduce myself to yall. I live in the pacific northwest and am on a journey that includes the things in my title.
A large part of my adult life is marked by chronic drug abuse, in the form of heroin addiction. Its a wonder Im alive, to be honest. In my youth I got very into psychedelics, more in a hedonistic manner, but its kinda impossible to not have some type of meaningful experience on them. Castaneda was a large part of my high school education, more so than what was in the class probably. Like I said somewhere along the line, I drifted into the sea of pain that is addiction, and I fell hard.
Anyway, Im making a very long story short, hopefully we will get to know one another here soon, but a couple years ago I was reintroduced to psychs in the form of 5 meo DMT, if you are familar. I had been and do, study kabala and a powerful magical axiom within translates out of the Hebrew as I am the Power, and I am the Glory, Through the ages, AMEN. In that equasion of duality, it is observed frqently that 5meo is the 'Power" and NN DMT, which is a minor neurotransmitter along the metabolic pathway of serotonin in all mammals-NOT a drug! as the "Glory".
It killed me. I had thought I has experienced ego death before, but this was full crossing of the Abyss, into the space of Pure Potential, it was beautiful, and with a word, "breathe." I was sent back into my body, where I eased out the black animal form within, and purged my karma in the form of a gigantic jet black python, which writhed out of my gut and dissolved into nothing as soon as it left my body. I was put back into a new body with a new mind and I almost went insane. My kundalini was awakened, I was taught advanced pranayama and mudras asanas and chackra intonations. Birthmarks dissapeared. I was shown how to create out of body experiences through concious manipulation of hormaones and neurotransmitters ( not that Im good at it )If it werent for the DMT Nexus, where I post as Null24,I would have. (my journey thus far is chronicled there, under that name. Its been tough, but its more and more beautiful every day.)
Anyway, its taken two years for that experience to be integrated. I was no longer able to be codependent, and it resulted in me going to live on the streets of Portland OR. But Ive learned who I am and have found my voice and passion, which is the route to healing I took.
It doesnt have to be so hard. If I had face to face human support and guidance in what I was doing instead of blindly feeling about in the darkness of the underworld trying to find my way out, my entire life may not have had to have been destroyed, along with my illusion. But eventually, now, it has led to a great place. Im in school, returning to college after decades to pursue an undergrad degree in cognitive science, with aims to studying and legitimatizing the healing route I and so many others find as being a life saver,literally.
Last term I wrote several essays for my creative non fiction writing teacher, who is an amazing woman, and was able to interest her enough in the subject to have her offer her help in putting together a book on the subject.
Its been a long road, but I could not have made it without using what I call modern shamanism. My route includes as I said Kabala as well as the whole of the Corpus Esoterica, but with the added benefit of the hidden plant teachers (which I do feel are hidden throughout the torah-acacia and rue?), the higher realms are acessable, and the sheer Power within , if just barely touched, can sustain one and heal them for untold time, perhaps until the very end of time.
I am interested in studying the roles of neurotransmitters and hormones, like DMT ,Serotonin, oxytocin, and cortisol for thier role in the trance state, and the spritual realms that can be accessed through thier proper manipulation. I feel this is the state we reach when in Samadhi, or piercing the Veil, or in Hyperspace or in the Shaman's trance, or in out of body and bear death experiences. Understanding of these states and being able to effectively access them for both patient and therapist I feel will enable us to effectively deal with trauma based emotional issues that plague individuals and society and is a crucial step in the healing of the human race as whole.
I would love to post an essay or two that inspired the book Im working on, if anyones interested.
A large part of my adult life is marked by chronic drug abuse, in the form of heroin addiction. Its a wonder Im alive, to be honest. In my youth I got very into psychedelics, more in a hedonistic manner, but its kinda impossible to not have some type of meaningful experience on them. Castaneda was a large part of my high school education, more so than what was in the class probably. Like I said somewhere along the line, I drifted into the sea of pain that is addiction, and I fell hard.
Anyway, Im making a very long story short, hopefully we will get to know one another here soon, but a couple years ago I was reintroduced to psychs in the form of 5 meo DMT, if you are familar. I had been and do, study kabala and a powerful magical axiom within translates out of the Hebrew as I am the Power, and I am the Glory, Through the ages, AMEN. In that equasion of duality, it is observed frqently that 5meo is the 'Power" and NN DMT, which is a minor neurotransmitter along the metabolic pathway of serotonin in all mammals-NOT a drug! as the "Glory".
It killed me. I had thought I has experienced ego death before, but this was full crossing of the Abyss, into the space of Pure Potential, it was beautiful, and with a word, "breathe." I was sent back into my body, where I eased out the black animal form within, and purged my karma in the form of a gigantic jet black python, which writhed out of my gut and dissolved into nothing as soon as it left my body. I was put back into a new body with a new mind and I almost went insane. My kundalini was awakened, I was taught advanced pranayama and mudras asanas and chackra intonations. Birthmarks dissapeared. I was shown how to create out of body experiences through concious manipulation of hormaones and neurotransmitters ( not that Im good at it )If it werent for the DMT Nexus, where I post as Null24,I would have. (my journey thus far is chronicled there, under that name. Its been tough, but its more and more beautiful every day.)
Anyway, its taken two years for that experience to be integrated. I was no longer able to be codependent, and it resulted in me going to live on the streets of Portland OR. But Ive learned who I am and have found my voice and passion, which is the route to healing I took.
It doesnt have to be so hard. If I had face to face human support and guidance in what I was doing instead of blindly feeling about in the darkness of the underworld trying to find my way out, my entire life may not have had to have been destroyed, along with my illusion. But eventually, now, it has led to a great place. Im in school, returning to college after decades to pursue an undergrad degree in cognitive science, with aims to studying and legitimatizing the healing route I and so many others find as being a life saver,literally.
Last term I wrote several essays for my creative non fiction writing teacher, who is an amazing woman, and was able to interest her enough in the subject to have her offer her help in putting together a book on the subject.
Its been a long road, but I could not have made it without using what I call modern shamanism. My route includes as I said Kabala as well as the whole of the Corpus Esoterica, but with the added benefit of the hidden plant teachers (which I do feel are hidden throughout the torah-acacia and rue?), the higher realms are acessable, and the sheer Power within , if just barely touched, can sustain one and heal them for untold time, perhaps until the very end of time.
I am interested in studying the roles of neurotransmitters and hormones, like DMT ,Serotonin, oxytocin, and cortisol for thier role in the trance state, and the spritual realms that can be accessed through thier proper manipulation. I feel this is the state we reach when in Samadhi, or piercing the Veil, or in Hyperspace or in the Shaman's trance, or in out of body and bear death experiences. Understanding of these states and being able to effectively access them for both patient and therapist I feel will enable us to effectively deal with trauma based emotional issues that plague individuals and society and is a crucial step in the healing of the human race as whole.
I would love to post an essay or two that inspired the book Im working on, if anyones interested.