Notes from Life of a Warrior

[Mornings Son]

I have much I want to share, but I have been reculant to do so. Why? Because I thought that it was maybe not interesting for other or because it would be judged as ****... (Seeing here the self censor and self suppressor at work) 
So it comes to this start or rather re-start of posting stuff.  

I hope it will be worthwhile for the readers... 

Here we go

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Today I was at a play ground with my youngest. All ready in the traffic on the way to there, I picked up the sense of other peoples judging and negative projections. 
It happened a few times more at the playground. It is unusual for me to pick up these things so clearly as today. I do believe it a result of a 36 days of cleaning my shadow/nagual side with an obsidian mirror. (Powerful stuff !!) 
Well back to the story. There came a tipping point where I got more aggressive myself, my normal humble and kind way of being gave way for a more viking barbarian feel. 
I started to see leather arm bands on my arms and feel the armor on my body, heh... tough suit I think it is called. I got sort of pissed and checked for people that would be the least in MY way or MY child. It got me centered and alert in the predator way. 
A moment I went down the pipe of what would i say to that person, blablabla... saw quickly how inner dialogue start eating my awareness of the present and stopped there. Rested in the simple reasoning that all those people not matter style, titles and body-posture is just meat sacks in racks and that what ever happened I would stive not to let it feed my self importance.  
From then on I had a fine and sharp time

[serloco]

Very cool MS. It sounds like you are gaining the power to shape-shift your body. Do you see your body as a projection?

[Billy]

Mornings Son...reluctant to {share}. Why? Because I thought that it would be judged as ****... 

Billy responds in bold: hmm. **** is good


Here we go
Here we go

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... {mindset} checked for people that would be the least in MY way... got me centered and alert in the predator way. 

I know this mindset well, except this sort of mindest requires the not-doing (simple awareness) sort of checking


...went down the pipe of what would i say to that person, blablabla... saw quickly how inner dialogue start eating my awareness of the present and stopped there.

your predatory center and alertness was not the problem here at all.  You needed to strongly hold the predatory position without reflective jargon, as power in fluid await.
   Is not such reflection of going down the pipe, at once counterproductive to the predator's stalking?
Do you ALWAYS have to be nice, Mornings Son?  Your reflection was simply a form of rushing ahead instead of being composed and ready for the hunt.  Your prey surely would have presented itself for you to skillfully pounce on.  Of course, stopping the inner dialogue was a positive thing.  Yet, you could have stopped it as a true predator also.


I Rested in the simple reasoning that all those people not matter style, titles and body-posture is just meat sacks in racks and that what ever happened I would stive not to let it feed my self importance.
From then on I had a fine and sharp time

That is a way of looking at it (certainly an option), but you missed an opportunity to develop your predatory repertoire. [And, like your obsidian rock, eating up your victim is Powerful stuff !!] Mornings Son,  you saw value in gaining poise (having rested in your simple reasoning), and rightfully you are proud of that.  There is self import and there is SELF import.  Put ons are put ons, and that is true..  but, if an arrognt one in said environs had noteably projected negatively on you or child, you surely would have regretted coughing up humble pie after choking on your own dominant appetite.

  
For your info, I have intentionally practiced a more exaggerated predatory disposition this last year.  So, for sure I was often clumsy, and was often more of a jerk than a graceful hunter.  Yet, one learns from doing instead of just talking. 

   That is the thing with Billy, he really did cross lots of conventional boundaries all during his life.  I made many 'mistakes' getting back to REASON ---> Detachment ---> Freedom cost a lot to the one who calls himself Billy.  I'm not much really.
(Still, I smile a lot now)

    Now, that MS, (what I wrote) is what I would call ****

[bit shiny]

Your heart is strong
With truth
It will take you a long

Way

[Mornings Son]

Serloco:I don't See it as such in Tonal at least. When entering second attention or deep meditation it is not there or changes to pure energy or a form if so intended. 
Would be cool sorcery to do it in Tonal, but is it worthwhile? There is so much to do in this life ))) 

billy:
Long post you wrote.... got tired...what I want to respond is ...  due to my powerful shadow/nagual side, bad things happen if I as much as think a bad thought about people, so im careful. Stalking with sweetness goes a long way, you know?? Anyway thank you for you response !

bit shiny:
Thank you and may it be so!! 

I send you two flower mind to mind.
What color and kind?

[serloco]

Yes, I understand about bad thoughts manifesting. I stopped that in myself. As soon as some being saw that i could control things, outcomes of reality with my thoughts I had invaders come and try to project thoughts into my way. It brought mind control to a whole new level. I stopped doing it mostly and i choose which thoughts to empower, or who to bless, and who to curse.

[Mornings Son]

Found myself in a world of huge stone alien structures, grey and beautiful and HUGE
After flying though it for awhile looking at this underground realm, there was a small detailed stone. It changed form when I looked at it. 
I did the See-energy trick and it was a yellow being..

Asked it what it wanted, and it suggested a deal Power in change for doing missions.
I rejected. 
it tried to over take me as it invaded my energy. 
I offered it alignment with the command of the Eagle.. and I became that in the Dream. 
It did not want that and left me...

Anybody knows about or better has experiences with yellow IOB/Spirits?

[Mornings Son]

For some time i been aware that mobile phones are not good to talk in for long time, over five min, without a headset. I feel my head heat up, so i usually don't talk long time without a headset.

i believe/assume that the electro magnetic field from the phone, especial if there is G4 or G3 internet connection is unhealthy. So i experiemented the last few days, not walking around with my mobile and if i do, not having dataroaming on.

To my surprise i find a profound and very clear feeling good in my body and energybody. Its not something that i normally is aware of feeling, but making this change gives a distinct difference. Heh it might be that im more aware than i think )))

well the conclusion is that mobil phone is not feeling good to have on me.

[serloco]

Well if you think it is wrong you shouldnt do it. Like the famous Jesus says. However, as the controlled folly expert says, dont judge things negatively.

[Mornings Son]

serloco.. is feeling not the doorway into Seeing?
Its not a judging negatively, rather seeing what is harmful to the physical and energy body.

[bit shiny]

' They' always get hung up on this point

Positive affirmation

And reality

In reality fire bites your hand and you recoil

Or not

And bus runs over you

The sensory being follow threads of awareness

The twisted in base twists illusion to cater to stuckness

Never realising flow

Lesson

The threads pull back to them selves

To gather new illusion to uphold old

Illusion

Seeing is not what's presented

Yet what is experienced entirely as perceiver

[bit shiny]

Question

Awareness becomes aware of itself
And grows upon old position

Or learns new position to keep old awareness hidden ?

[serloco]

You are manifesting a harmful emanation with your energy body. Another alignment would be more beneficial. You are seeing your reality however you can align so that your judgement forms a new configuration of what a cell phone emits. How your body interacts. The energy body should never be hurt. Meaning you should never intend that things can hurt your body. You can intend a better form. It is indeed a negative judgment of the cell phone that has aligned too. There is not only one position of what a cell phone does. Suspending the negative judgment and aligning to a better inventory here would be wise.

[Mornings Son]

Good words Serloco thx

[Mornings Son]

Question Awareness becomes aware of itselfAnd grows upon old position 
Or learns new position to keep old awareness hidden ?When awareness become aware of itself...
It does not grow upon old position. It grows from with in it and it burns it away in the Fire from within

Appreciate the 'dense' poems of insights ))))

[bit shiny]

'It'

Knows what to do

This fire

Even your shadow side

Points to feeling

If you want to burn

See how well you navigate awareness

If you stand upon the absolute truth
Of your essence

Hold it long enough as your being

It will strip you bare

Like holding the light long enough

To enter a dream it's there

Waiting to take you

To lead you

As the ultimate challenger

When its not yelling

Its whispering

Numbers are sounds

Words too

Everything speaking

The dream appears

The thread aware expansive

Which way to climb

Which step to take

Which is ' sure'

[bit shiny]

Don't be fooled

The water is speaking too
Fire water

[bit shiny]

Integrate it ?

Not many can stand upon it

Shadow separation none

Feel it ?

Now direction

Many will be destroyed

Not many can tame

[serloco]

Remember, awareness of any form, can be retained. There are options. Freedom is any way.

[bit shiny]

As the eagle flies

And also

Watch out for sarcastic " warrior" farts

They're not all their cracked up to be

Might fall in a crevasse

You know if you fold a piece of paper seven times and cut out the image of a man

Leaving one folded side connected

Then pull it open

They make the leap together

[Guest]

Mornings Son wrote:Found myself in a world of huge stone alien structures, grey and beautiful and HUGE

After flying though it for awhile looking at this underground realm, there was a small detailed stone. It changed form when I looked at it. 
I did the See-energy trick and it was a yellow being..


Asked it what it wanted, and it suggested a deal Power in change for doing missions.
I rejected. 
it tried to over take me as it invaded my energy. 
I offered it alignment with the command of the Eagle.. and I became that in the Dream. 
It did not want that and left me...


Anybody knows about or better has experiences with yellow IOB/Spirits?
Just noticed this now, figure I'd respond since others haven't and I have experienced yellow IOB/Spirits.  I've had many experiences with them, intially they were very spiritually savvy in that they understood how to control their environment.  Those within their environment are very accurately assessed.  I'm not sure what sort of knowledge you want about them; but your interaction with them is typical.  Exchanges are typically proposed, possession may occur though I've never had them do that to me (to be fair they seemed to know me so that may be a part of why they didn't attempt possession), and yeah, aligning with the eagle is of little interest to them/us.  I joined them for the past year or two, I first encountered them maybe six years ago.  I don't agree with how they function, but then, I don't really agree with most people or groups xD I find them a little too ruthless and quick to kill.  I prefer to preserve life and awareness--any type of it.  They only want to preserve what is useful to them.  Which, I mean, makes sense in their own way.  

Why did you reject the exchange?

[Mornings Son]

Hey Mea
Thanks for the info on yellow IOBs. I feel like Don Juan no wish to have that kind of allies. As well as I love my freedom so much that I don't want to do others bidding, if i can maneuver myself away from it. So that is the answer. I made a note to myself to question deeper next time I get an offer and not just auto reject trading with them. And yes I do feel the same towards the Death Defiler that also wanted to make a deal with me.

There is different type of IOBs are the yellows the only kind you work with? I ask out of curiosity about the different kinds. Could possible find it at Dreamways site, but Im not that interested and you are an adept Dreamer, so maybe you know ))

[Guest]

Given how yellow iobs function and Don Juan functions, I can see why they aren't very compatible. Freedom is such a finicky concept. Yellow iobs can offer you ways to expand your awareness. That doesn't necessarily enslave you to them. For example, people attend universities to expand their awareness. We rely on others when we go out to eat at restaurants, teachers help us raise our children in the school system. There are many places we accept help from, not that we're enslaved to them, but there's always an exchange occurring.

I think it's okay to accept help and to give help. I don't think it means others are enslaved to us or us to them.

Though in the case of iobs I can see how enslavement was a core feature for Don Juan, making it a bad option for him.

I've seen other iobs, but never had meaningful interactions with them; only the yellow.

Personally, I think danger can be found anywhere. I also think very kind people can be found in the darkest of places. I don't know whether interacting with the yellows will be useful for you; but I noticed you had a post from 2010 where you interacted with a yellow. They seem to have an interest in you. I'd want to learn why, but that could be opening the door to the unknown. I mean, do you simply say no and remain unchallenged....or do you say yes, and see what may happen?

How safe do you prefer to be? That's something we each decide for ourselves. Good luck, I thought of visiting Dreamways site too after reading your post. I wonder what his experiences with the yellows have been like.

[serloco]

Oh yeah, I asked some of my allies to show me a yellow iob nd this is what I got.

Listen.

[Guest]

Heh, Serloco.

Yeah, that's the mentality many of them possess. They're probably not the easiest iobs to begin with. Then again, I have little else to compare them to. These yellow ones can be consuming, but I mean, so can video games and hookers. We still do those. I'm not sure I can define what MS may receive from an exchange with them, but what's there to lose?

One's sanity? Really, I mean how important is that?

I'm not really sure he'd find much to gain from them. I still wish he'd make the attempt. Would be interesting regardless.