02-08-2014, 12:00 AM
SHARING AND MERGING ENERGIES
some of my experiences of merging and my notes on such, because from my perception, there are different types, for different purposes. maybe this is because of my energetic configuration, maybe not.
First there is just interaction, with another in the physical. with some people we feel a 'special' connection whether in friendship, colleague, cooperation or even in a fleeting moment at the shop, across a room etc etc. something says we have a commonality and usually if both partners can allow due to perceived circumstances, this commonality can be found and explored in communication and expression, verbally, with body language and action.
This, is an energetic connection, although mainly it is displayed in the tonal world. your energy is touching another s energy, you become present in the moment, however fleeting and sense the charge and possibly the exchange between you.
The next level of merging is effecting another consciously, with tonal projections, voice and action. doing something to another, or allowing that other to do something to you, to effect or be effected here in this reality.
What are these type of merging s about, they are about our sense of self, learning about our energy body, even that we have them and learning to wield it as part of being a self amongst other selves.
However, those attempting to have a conscious energy field, a formed double and reach the 'totality of self', with full awareness of both bodies in this tonal reality, can take it far farther than that, depending on their awareness, and their intent.
For example, talking to trees or plants, spirit, deceased relatives, the devic kingdom, guides, aspects of themselves.
At this point, many see this interaction as being external to them, however many of these interactions are actually silent and are done with feeling, intention, ritual, internal questioning and 'seeing'.
Therefore, it's a form of learning, how and what can be done, within ones own energy field..ie: becoming aware of the internal space of awareness, that is you and its reality, that everything is interconnected.
It can indicate,how many 'you's' the self has got, that aren't integrated, or in alignment with each other, to know themselves as an integral part of the total self.
To help notice,how many people and energies you have exchanged with, the Toltec path, advocates the technique of recapitulation, to know, or reclaim your energy,knowingly, to sense what those exchanges meant and, to be more aware and more focused from your own internal state, or awareness.
Reclaiming or remembering such energies that you hold, leads to charging your energy body/double with consciousness, making you more energetically effective, on the tonal in your interactions and, more lucid (conscious) of your dreaming state.
Many people by this point, can sense things without a physical presence, for example, knowing when someone is going to call on the phone, feeling a relative who is in trouble, and can send projections, thoughts and energy in general to those who are sick.
However, this is all to do with knowing more fully, ones capabilities as a totality of self. the tonal and double combined.
Some of us, have a 'double', a being, that is part of us, yet beyond that of an sensory energy body. This double being configuration, can be instructed by us, but more or less is autonomous, it has its own awareness, its own intent and for the most part, does what it wants to do, causing effect on your awareness, others awareness and having an affect on the dreaming realms and on the tonal, which you may, or may not, be conscious of.
This is the difference between the majority of humanity and those who are nagual beings...in my understanding. Some have fully formed doubles, who get their tonal forms to live the doubles life, no matter what the resistance, this is so that the tonal gives up the boundaries of humanness and can experience yet another, deeper sense of self. Whether this is for a bigger picture, galactic contract, growth. infinity, conscious evolution, i don't claim to know. i see it as freedom. i only know my experiences of this and look on in puzzlement at others, who do not experience awareness like i do.
So, back to commonality, if you have spent time with, or, have merged mainly or completely with, your double, you are obviously going to experience the reflection of that, with another double being. You both, maybe more than two of you, get to know more about the capabilities of having such a configuration, and, to know more of such, constitutes the same levels of touching and merging as those relationships, we foster on the tonal. However to our experience of awareness and perception they are much more profound.
So, for example, i met a nagual being in New Zealand, we had time to sit with each other for a drink and for four hours or so, we were in telepathic communication, with only the odd gasp or smile, to show in the tonal, that we were exchanging. Occasionally for laughs, we answered one anothers questions with our voice, to check, as you do, that we were really doing what we were doing. Of course we were. The answers fitted perfectly to the question, the other posed. It was for both of us at that time, a truly amazing experience. A miracle if you like to both our beings, that now each knew something new, of our own capabilities as a conscious awareness.
This being, was going to come spend time with me, when i returned to Australia. however he received a coral cut on his adventures in NZ, and had to be flown home for treatment. The distance was, for my tonal being, agonizing, as we found that the conversations didn't stop, in fact we found each other in each others houses as energy, one seeking out the other, as if a part of ourselves were missing.While getting treatment, his family and friends and an old girlfriend showed up and his vibration dimmed, until he couldn't sense me any more. However, I was still as sharp as i was before, that caused a lot of pain for me. It took me four months to actually disconnect from him, in such a way that i felt whole as a self again. We still are in contact, but he chose a tonal life, over a life as a double being with me. it's something on one level, he regrets and will never forget. I know he's told me, and when things get low in his tonal life, i know he reaches out. But he is ensnared by social conditioning now, he doesn't perceive himself as a free being, able to walk his path of heart.
I can do nothing. Not walking my doubles life is not an option for me. I desire more than anything the state of being free. That versus playing at being something i hate, in my core, is a no brainer.
So, I place this experience as a loss, not on my part, because i am still free, but as a calling to power missed by another.
I feel the same about my husband, who when I first met him and we sat alone, the world went white for both of us, I could see all our different selves rise up like an intertwined pillar above us, each section answering the other with an 'I agree' question and response.
It wasn't a question of whether we wanted to travel half way round the world to be with each other. it was a statement of knowing. within 5 minutes we knew we were supposed to be together. And we were for nearly 8 years. however after this time we had planned to move back to his country and he left without me, to put in paperwork. i can surmise what happened after that, however the energetic s, due to his lack of experience in maintaining telepathy, and energetic connection, led to him being influenced by outside forces, because he was not strong enough to hold them inside his being, for himself. it only took him two weeks to dim his light, without my presence, although i would say it took two and a half years, to give myself enough time for me to feel whole again without his presence. we still dream together but as time goes by and he gets wrapped up in a new tonal life, without the energy of the double being expressed, i see him grow dimmer and dimmer and he comes less into my attention. I cannot pull him back from that level. So i let go of the mental and emotional as well as the physical, however an energetic connection remains, which he cannot shake off and neither can i, as part of him is an intrinsic part of me and vice versa. Sometimes i feel him reach out to me, and he is sad, vary sad, but there is nothing i can do. He wants to have a tonal life, one not dedicated to freedom and the will of his double, then he will struggle and this is very hard for me to sense...but, i walk on.
This summer, a new aspect to merging came into play, now knowing that i have merged with my double, maybe after these calls to power as i feel them to be, tests or obstacles to hone my determination..lol. the sense of sense has died and i find myself in what i call group consciousness, where the tonal, plays for the situation, intent and focus of the group i am placed in. the tonal now has no fixed personality of its own. i walk the path of the double in the tonal, of course the double is connected to all the other double beings and energy bodies of others and although i see, with my perception, sometimes in the moment, but more often when i am alone, and or in hindsight. how the double is working for a purpose not many others can perceive as they still are walking the path of the self, still getting to the stage, where they are consciously connected to thier double, and releasing all resistances to that path of freedom, due to social conditioning and the perceived projections onto their awareness by tonal life, relations, friends, work colleagues and situations they find themselves in. i am fully aware of their struggles with as I call it power, because i have been there myself many times and i look on at their successes and their missed opportunities, rather like a game of chess.
Anyhow, to cut a long story short, managing to hold my double here this year around others has had many effects, some people have responded in a perceived positive way, become more knowing of what they are capable of as a conscious awareness, and some have responded to my energy in a fearful way, ie it has been received, but their tonal conditioning, emotional and mental constraints have resisted and consequently i am to be 'got rid of'....i find this mildly amusing, as a double's awareness, it just shows that their stuff has come up to be freed. its not bad or good, it just is. My reaction to it is not to respond by justifying myself and my awareness in action, but to withdraw my attention from those hostile, as i know they cant cope with any more, at this time..this is thier processing time.
That's a matter between them and their tonal situation and their own desire for awareness. nothing to do with me per say. i am just what i am required to be in the moment, but it doesn't touch me personally, as there is no personal self present.
Some beings however, whom i have met, have openly embraced my energy, what i mean by that, it that they have allowed themselves to have no edges, no resistance to another being, becoming part of themselves. I presume they all have double's. These ones are double beings, at various stages of development, however their selves managed to ' step out of the way' or dissolve to let this merging to take place.
From my perspective, i let go of the folly of walking as a tonal being. i drop the edges and hosted flavours of a personality and therefore become empty of frequencies, that cause commonality or disconnection on the tonal level. i become transparent, it may be perceived as black also, as there is an absence of reflection from the tonal world. Plasma or goo are other words for it, it is the unknown known at this point. hugging someone in this state is very much asking your mind to let go, except it is a prolonged state of that, the timeless unconcerned unknown, which then embraces or flows into the others unconcerned unknown..as they also allow themselves to dissolve and flow into you.
The effects of this is rather like my previous experiences with merging, although with different intensities. The most prominent thing with them is that my double has become aware of them and so therefore i am active with them from that moment in dreaming attention. This means i can see them, even at a distance, sense thier state, hold conversations with them and dream with them. Depending on their usual mind state in their daily lives, depends on my telepathic link with them. group consciousness is formed, however just because i live the doubles life doesn't mean, as previously indicated that these others, although they are double beings choose to follow this example. They have experienced however an option of a calling to power. a crossroads in their tonal life to follow their path of heart. this is called in cc's books, 'the cubic millimeter of chance'
The path of heart if you are a double being, i cannot speak for those who are not, is to walk the double's life in the tonal and the conscious lucidity of awareness in the energetic and dreaming realms. Once touched by this possibility, you always feel it and if you are a conscious warrior on the 'path of heart' it becomes your only goal, as this is the path to freedom, to experience more than is thought humanly possible, more than is possible as an individual tonal body living birth to death. gradually over time the pull and the efforts of stalking power, come into alignment and we come into a different view of the world.a different way of living to our past, unconcerned by the conditioning of others, we walk into a world of conscious awareness, because its a no brainer, and the double giggles with the joy of it, and your life shines with new meaning and purpose.....
If you get your minimal opportunity of chance, which is all a Nagual or double being can offer another, its a choice whether you take that calling. however once a warrior on the path, really its the path that will master you, for its your double in charge, whether you like it or not, it is autonomous and it is determined to come from the unknown and into the known, power will call you again and again, getting more forceful each time. i was never interested in being challenged that hard with power, although those i have loved have temporarily fallen in their quest. i see no future now, without power, as my tonal has aquiesed to infinity and part of that infinity is you..
Shamanka Silver Wolf.
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some of my experiences of merging and my notes on such, because from my perception, there are different types, for different purposes. maybe this is because of my energetic configuration, maybe not.
First there is just interaction, with another in the physical. with some people we feel a 'special' connection whether in friendship, colleague, cooperation or even in a fleeting moment at the shop, across a room etc etc. something says we have a commonality and usually if both partners can allow due to perceived circumstances, this commonality can be found and explored in communication and expression, verbally, with body language and action.
This, is an energetic connection, although mainly it is displayed in the tonal world. your energy is touching another s energy, you become present in the moment, however fleeting and sense the charge and possibly the exchange between you.
The next level of merging is effecting another consciously, with tonal projections, voice and action. doing something to another, or allowing that other to do something to you, to effect or be effected here in this reality.
What are these type of merging s about, they are about our sense of self, learning about our energy body, even that we have them and learning to wield it as part of being a self amongst other selves.
However, those attempting to have a conscious energy field, a formed double and reach the 'totality of self', with full awareness of both bodies in this tonal reality, can take it far farther than that, depending on their awareness, and their intent.
For example, talking to trees or plants, spirit, deceased relatives, the devic kingdom, guides, aspects of themselves.
At this point, many see this interaction as being external to them, however many of these interactions are actually silent and are done with feeling, intention, ritual, internal questioning and 'seeing'.
Therefore, it's a form of learning, how and what can be done, within ones own energy field..ie: becoming aware of the internal space of awareness, that is you and its reality, that everything is interconnected.
It can indicate,how many 'you's' the self has got, that aren't integrated, or in alignment with each other, to know themselves as an integral part of the total self.
To help notice,how many people and energies you have exchanged with, the Toltec path, advocates the technique of recapitulation, to know, or reclaim your energy,knowingly, to sense what those exchanges meant and, to be more aware and more focused from your own internal state, or awareness.
Reclaiming or remembering such energies that you hold, leads to charging your energy body/double with consciousness, making you more energetically effective, on the tonal in your interactions and, more lucid (conscious) of your dreaming state.
Many people by this point, can sense things without a physical presence, for example, knowing when someone is going to call on the phone, feeling a relative who is in trouble, and can send projections, thoughts and energy in general to those who are sick.
However, this is all to do with knowing more fully, ones capabilities as a totality of self. the tonal and double combined.
Some of us, have a 'double', a being, that is part of us, yet beyond that of an sensory energy body. This double being configuration, can be instructed by us, but more or less is autonomous, it has its own awareness, its own intent and for the most part, does what it wants to do, causing effect on your awareness, others awareness and having an affect on the dreaming realms and on the tonal, which you may, or may not, be conscious of.
This is the difference between the majority of humanity and those who are nagual beings...in my understanding. Some have fully formed doubles, who get their tonal forms to live the doubles life, no matter what the resistance, this is so that the tonal gives up the boundaries of humanness and can experience yet another, deeper sense of self. Whether this is for a bigger picture, galactic contract, growth. infinity, conscious evolution, i don't claim to know. i see it as freedom. i only know my experiences of this and look on in puzzlement at others, who do not experience awareness like i do.
So, back to commonality, if you have spent time with, or, have merged mainly or completely with, your double, you are obviously going to experience the reflection of that, with another double being. You both, maybe more than two of you, get to know more about the capabilities of having such a configuration, and, to know more of such, constitutes the same levels of touching and merging as those relationships, we foster on the tonal. However to our experience of awareness and perception they are much more profound.
So, for example, i met a nagual being in New Zealand, we had time to sit with each other for a drink and for four hours or so, we were in telepathic communication, with only the odd gasp or smile, to show in the tonal, that we were exchanging. Occasionally for laughs, we answered one anothers questions with our voice, to check, as you do, that we were really doing what we were doing. Of course we were. The answers fitted perfectly to the question, the other posed. It was for both of us at that time, a truly amazing experience. A miracle if you like to both our beings, that now each knew something new, of our own capabilities as a conscious awareness.
This being, was going to come spend time with me, when i returned to Australia. however he received a coral cut on his adventures in NZ, and had to be flown home for treatment. The distance was, for my tonal being, agonizing, as we found that the conversations didn't stop, in fact we found each other in each others houses as energy, one seeking out the other, as if a part of ourselves were missing.While getting treatment, his family and friends and an old girlfriend showed up and his vibration dimmed, until he couldn't sense me any more. However, I was still as sharp as i was before, that caused a lot of pain for me. It took me four months to actually disconnect from him, in such a way that i felt whole as a self again. We still are in contact, but he chose a tonal life, over a life as a double being with me. it's something on one level, he regrets and will never forget. I know he's told me, and when things get low in his tonal life, i know he reaches out. But he is ensnared by social conditioning now, he doesn't perceive himself as a free being, able to walk his path of heart.
I can do nothing. Not walking my doubles life is not an option for me. I desire more than anything the state of being free. That versus playing at being something i hate, in my core, is a no brainer.
So, I place this experience as a loss, not on my part, because i am still free, but as a calling to power missed by another.
I feel the same about my husband, who when I first met him and we sat alone, the world went white for both of us, I could see all our different selves rise up like an intertwined pillar above us, each section answering the other with an 'I agree' question and response.
It wasn't a question of whether we wanted to travel half way round the world to be with each other. it was a statement of knowing. within 5 minutes we knew we were supposed to be together. And we were for nearly 8 years. however after this time we had planned to move back to his country and he left without me, to put in paperwork. i can surmise what happened after that, however the energetic s, due to his lack of experience in maintaining telepathy, and energetic connection, led to him being influenced by outside forces, because he was not strong enough to hold them inside his being, for himself. it only took him two weeks to dim his light, without my presence, although i would say it took two and a half years, to give myself enough time for me to feel whole again without his presence. we still dream together but as time goes by and he gets wrapped up in a new tonal life, without the energy of the double being expressed, i see him grow dimmer and dimmer and he comes less into my attention. I cannot pull him back from that level. So i let go of the mental and emotional as well as the physical, however an energetic connection remains, which he cannot shake off and neither can i, as part of him is an intrinsic part of me and vice versa. Sometimes i feel him reach out to me, and he is sad, vary sad, but there is nothing i can do. He wants to have a tonal life, one not dedicated to freedom and the will of his double, then he will struggle and this is very hard for me to sense...but, i walk on.
This summer, a new aspect to merging came into play, now knowing that i have merged with my double, maybe after these calls to power as i feel them to be, tests or obstacles to hone my determination..lol. the sense of sense has died and i find myself in what i call group consciousness, where the tonal, plays for the situation, intent and focus of the group i am placed in. the tonal now has no fixed personality of its own. i walk the path of the double in the tonal, of course the double is connected to all the other double beings and energy bodies of others and although i see, with my perception, sometimes in the moment, but more often when i am alone, and or in hindsight. how the double is working for a purpose not many others can perceive as they still are walking the path of the self, still getting to the stage, where they are consciously connected to thier double, and releasing all resistances to that path of freedom, due to social conditioning and the perceived projections onto their awareness by tonal life, relations, friends, work colleagues and situations they find themselves in. i am fully aware of their struggles with as I call it power, because i have been there myself many times and i look on at their successes and their missed opportunities, rather like a game of chess.
Anyhow, to cut a long story short, managing to hold my double here this year around others has had many effects, some people have responded in a perceived positive way, become more knowing of what they are capable of as a conscious awareness, and some have responded to my energy in a fearful way, ie it has been received, but their tonal conditioning, emotional and mental constraints have resisted and consequently i am to be 'got rid of'....i find this mildly amusing, as a double's awareness, it just shows that their stuff has come up to be freed. its not bad or good, it just is. My reaction to it is not to respond by justifying myself and my awareness in action, but to withdraw my attention from those hostile, as i know they cant cope with any more, at this time..this is thier processing time.
That's a matter between them and their tonal situation and their own desire for awareness. nothing to do with me per say. i am just what i am required to be in the moment, but it doesn't touch me personally, as there is no personal self present.
Some beings however, whom i have met, have openly embraced my energy, what i mean by that, it that they have allowed themselves to have no edges, no resistance to another being, becoming part of themselves. I presume they all have double's. These ones are double beings, at various stages of development, however their selves managed to ' step out of the way' or dissolve to let this merging to take place.
From my perspective, i let go of the folly of walking as a tonal being. i drop the edges and hosted flavours of a personality and therefore become empty of frequencies, that cause commonality or disconnection on the tonal level. i become transparent, it may be perceived as black also, as there is an absence of reflection from the tonal world. Plasma or goo are other words for it, it is the unknown known at this point. hugging someone in this state is very much asking your mind to let go, except it is a prolonged state of that, the timeless unconcerned unknown, which then embraces or flows into the others unconcerned unknown..as they also allow themselves to dissolve and flow into you.
The effects of this is rather like my previous experiences with merging, although with different intensities. The most prominent thing with them is that my double has become aware of them and so therefore i am active with them from that moment in dreaming attention. This means i can see them, even at a distance, sense thier state, hold conversations with them and dream with them. Depending on their usual mind state in their daily lives, depends on my telepathic link with them. group consciousness is formed, however just because i live the doubles life doesn't mean, as previously indicated that these others, although they are double beings choose to follow this example. They have experienced however an option of a calling to power. a crossroads in their tonal life to follow their path of heart. this is called in cc's books, 'the cubic millimeter of chance'
The path of heart if you are a double being, i cannot speak for those who are not, is to walk the double's life in the tonal and the conscious lucidity of awareness in the energetic and dreaming realms. Once touched by this possibility, you always feel it and if you are a conscious warrior on the 'path of heart' it becomes your only goal, as this is the path to freedom, to experience more than is thought humanly possible, more than is possible as an individual tonal body living birth to death. gradually over time the pull and the efforts of stalking power, come into alignment and we come into a different view of the world.a different way of living to our past, unconcerned by the conditioning of others, we walk into a world of conscious awareness, because its a no brainer, and the double giggles with the joy of it, and your life shines with new meaning and purpose.....
If you get your minimal opportunity of chance, which is all a Nagual or double being can offer another, its a choice whether you take that calling. however once a warrior on the path, really its the path that will master you, for its your double in charge, whether you like it or not, it is autonomous and it is determined to come from the unknown and into the known, power will call you again and again, getting more forceful each time. i was never interested in being challenged that hard with power, although those i have loved have temporarily fallen in their quest. i see no future now, without power, as my tonal has aquiesed to infinity and part of that infinity is you..
Shamanka Silver Wolf.
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