The art of thinking.

[serloco]

Try focusing the direction of your attention. Focus and think on silent knowledge, truth, or wisdom. Then as you focus you will see that the thoughts forming come fro the direction you are focusing towards. Focus and intend perfection and your thoughts will then align to the firection and flow of your attention. Attention can indeed be focus to any direction and goal. Dont curse your thoughts with shabby knwoledge, instead seek the perfection and wisdom and knowledge that stems from the source of all creation.

[serloco]

Let me elaborate on knowledge. A revamp. Awareness is crucial here. If you have knowledge of how the mind works then you are setting your mind to work that way. A fool will say to err is to be human, but a genius will say that man can reach and touch perfection. WIth this knowledge, this belief, the sky is the limit. If your knowledge says that the mind's thoughts are created solely in yourself then you have closed the doors to ideas like channeling awareness form the source of creation. If you believe that your mind connects to the world around you then you open the door to that outcome, that feat. WHen you think my attenion focused on another being makes their thoughts enter into e then you can become anyone that you think about. You can take on their thoughts, their memories, their actions, etc. My point is that the ind itself is made of awareness, knwoledge you possess about the mind. Do not curse your mind but explore it, stalk it.

[serloco]

PEARL JAM LYRICS
"Unthought Known"

All the thoughts you never see
You are always thinking
Brain is wide, the brain is deep
Oh, are you sinking?

Feel the path of every day
Which road you taking?
Breathing hard, making hay
Yeah, this is living

Look for love in evidence
That you're worth keeping
Swallowed whole in negatives
It's so sad and sickening

Feel the air up above
Oh, pool of blue sky
Fill the air up with love
All black with starlight

Feel the sky blanket you
With gems and rhinestones!!!
See the path cut by the moon
For you to walk on

For you to walk on...

Nothing left, nothing left
Nothing there, nothing here...
Nothing left, nothing left
Nothing there, nothing left...
Nothing left, nothing left
Nothing there, nothing here...

See the path cut by the moon
For you to walk on
See the waves on distant shores
Awaiting your arrival

Dream the dreams of other men
You'll be no one's rival
Dream the dreams of others then
You will be no one's rival

You will be no one's rival...

A distant time, a distant space
That's where we're living
A distant time, a distant place
So what ya giving?
What ya giving?

[serloco]

I recall, a long time ago, I was trapped in the iob world. They were all aroud me and so fast on me because they could read my thoughts and knew my secrets. They could see everything. thats when I intended my mind to lie and look real. I began having thoughts that weren't like my own, and the people saw them and believed they were mine. A tricky lil bastard i can be.

[serloco]

It started out thinking in words, the internal dialogue. But after close examination I began to see that it started as consciousness, ideas, realizations, intent that converted itself into dialogue and language. It was like a spark, conscious awareness, that would then be transformed into dialogue. I began roaming the world and stalking telepathy. I quickly saw that had discovered a power in me, the power of what i knew. I realized that what i knew the world was is what made the world what it was. I saw quickly that i was like Jesus, the light of the world. For what i knew ans intended was exactly what i got. Like God said you reap what you sow. So I began trying to control my awareness, what i knew was real. I saw that by controlling my conscious awareness of any object in my world would change the object, or place or even person. This quickly became my controlled folly. It was no longer my internal dialogue that was forming the world but my choice and decisions, my solutions. Studying telepathy I quickly came to realize that by controlling what i knew was real would make people talk about what i was thinking about. It became a synchronicity. I could control what I knew was 'out there' and sure enough they would speak my truths because my truth is the light that was reality. My truth quickly became my controlled folly, my voiced intent, my teller.

AFter careful observation that i could make people speak I began casting my thoughts into other people. My ideas. I could overhear a conversation someone was having and immediately send my thoughts my direct consciousness before being converted into dialogue nto another's mind and jack it. I began effectively thinking for other people. I considered myself an angel at this time in my life and so i always used it to help people, to empower them and to solve their problems. After all my truth was reality and as such i could bend reality to my will, my thoughts, and send hem into other people's minds, and dreams. I could send an evil person out of my world and chuck them into a nightmare just by telling them what was 'out there' waiting for them. My truth was the truth. I began at this time getting careless and lusty for my power. I abused my gift by turning people into puppets. I controlled them and their every movement. I was wrong in doing so. I began teaching others how to jack the mind's of others and this led to a war. Everyone in my dream was like me, i would copy my awareness and insert it into themselves. I could make clones of my life and cast this clone into other people. It led to a war of control and power in my reality. The war of the mind control was brutal, for thoughts created reality and controlled the outcomes of the reality i lived in. Powerful indeed. Any one of us could cast a world into play, into manifestation. A sinlge thought could control a person, make them evil, make them good, make them anything. A single thought from any one of us could cast the world into hell and it did in my world. The battle for control of the mind was brutal and ruthless. Everyone was fightinng for control and domination, just as I had.

After years of this battle of the mind, ad being totally controlled myself often, and totally controlling others, I reached a safe point. I saw that it was not the power of the thoughts it was the power of the choice. The decision. The mind control war took a turn for the better. For no longer could thought impulses do what they used to do. Thoughts became weaker, they took the back burner to choice, decision, acceptance free will. I could withstand total mind control and not empower it anymore. They no longer could control me nor my people. It was left to a decision. ANd even when i couldnt think for myself the thoughts were emptied out and hollow, echoes of what they used to be. I did not place power in them anymore. I placed all the power, removed all the power in the thoughts, and placed them with my choice, my decision. That was a great day.

[serloco]

Listen and be still, open your mind to the connection of time, everything aligned. Listen to the solution, the prize, and let it in. The answers will come from all around you, from everything and astound you!

[rosygyro]

[Julio Juliopolis]

You bounce around a bit in this one, serloco, so I'm going to try to put it so that idiots, (eg, me), can more easily follow along.
First, you never defined thinking. It sounds as if you're describing reaching out with one's awareness for information. That seems a fine enough definition for here without getting too fussy about it, but it's best to have it stated so it's more clear what we're discussing.Try focusing the direction of your attention. Focus and think on silent
knowledge, truth, or wisdom. Then as you focus you will see that the
thoughts forming come fro the direction you are focusing towards. Focus
and intend perfection and your thoughts will then align to the direction
and flow of your attention. Attention can indeed be focus to any direction and goal.Is there any specific direction that you prefer when focusing your attention?
When I try to reach out with my awareness for information such as the answer to a riddle I'm working on I usually go into somewhat of a "search mode", which feels like scanning a big sphere around my head. Then eventually I find a point which "lights up" and I know that's where the answer is. From there, it's a matter of concentrating on it and looking for the path to get there, which always ends up being a straight line directly there in the end. Forming that line is a bit involved though, it means getting all the points between me and the lit up point to "light up" as well. Sometimes there's a lot of points that need to be "shifted" out of the way to create this path, especially when the lit up point is something that runs contrary to my worldview. As a point of potential note when I was a kid I had a more flexible worldview and finding a point I had to work to get to was more rare. On the other hand, back then the point that originally lit up would be much more likely to be "incorrect", (as in not fit in with consensus reality). I guess this suggests that "the sphere" around my head I'm searching in has information as a result of my life's attempts to understand consensus reality. When I was younger, I could easily find a path that led to the answer of 5 when asked "what is 2+2?". Now, some of that flexibility has been traded for accuracy within consensus reality. That's a neat thing to know about this meta-model I'm using which I never noticed before.
Back to the process though, (searching for the lit up point and finding the path to it). At the end of the process, when it works, I know exactly how to get from where I start, (being presented the riddle for example), to the point. And I can do so with words, which I attribute to practice and having studied logic, which seems to directly help in analyzing paths. One can reach the answer with words, which logic teaches you how to do, or one can reach it energetically. But when one is doing it with words one is also doing it energetically so to practice reaching an answer through logic is to simultaneously practice finding the energetic path to your answer. Furthermore once I've found the path for me it's usually pretty easy to go find where someone else is at and show them the path from where they are as well.
When the process doesn't work it simply means I didn't find the answer. Of course the question then would be, why not? I can easily think of times I didn't put enough effort into it. Sometimes this was because I just lacked the energy for it, or the interest in doing it. But other times I wouldn't really try at all out of an assumption that I couldn't answer the question. Either because I didn't have enough information or because I thought the question itself couldn't be answered. For example, a question like "what's going to happen at 12:35 PM next Tuesday?" I wouldn't try to answer, unfairly dismissing it out of hand. Now I'm wondering if there really is any answer the process couldn't find, given enough effort. Perhaps I'll try tackling a question like that one about next Tuesday soon.instead seek the perfection and wisdom and knowledge that stems from the source of all creation.
Let's keep this about the art of thinking, stuff we can do, rather than from where all good things stem. Perhaps when we find the boundaries of what thinking we can do on our own then we should look into petitioning the source of all creation, but to do so now is getting way ahead of ourselves.Let me elaborate on knowledge. A revamp. Awareness is crucial here. If
you have knowledge of how the mind works then you are setting your mind
to work that way. A fool will say to err is to be human, but a genius
will say that man can reach and touch perfection. WIth this knowledge,
this belief, the sky is the limit.Agreed, and I think sports analogies easily demonstrate it. Those who are confident and focusing on how to do well and score more will be better players than those who are timid and convinced that they will screw up.
If your knowledge says that the mind's thoughts are created solely in
yourself then you have closed the doors to ideas like channeling
awareness form the source of creation.Most people assume any thoughts in their minds to be their own creations, but this is demonstrably false. Sending your awareness into other's minds, (the source of creation's or anyone else's), to read them is possible, and putting thoughts in there can be done as well. That's probably a worthy subject for investigation on it's own, but it might be a distraction to get deep into that here.If you believe that your mind connects to the world around you then you open the door to that outcome, that feat.One more thing to add to this. It doesn't feel to me like it's just my belief that allows it. Not anymore than say, turning a knob and pulling will open a door because I believe it will. It's only that if a person is so stubborn in their belief that the door won't open that they will not attempt to turn the knob and pull that they will have to suffer the closed door.
WHen you think my attenion focused on another being makes their thoughts
enter into e then you can become anyone that you think about. You can
take on their thoughts, their memories, their actions, etc.I did that spontaneously and accidentally the first time. I was thinking about someone, and happened to clear my own mind and then *poof* I was sensing hers. This would be a good thing to explore more.My point is that the ind itself is made of awareness, knwoledge you possess about the mind.Well, we do model our minds using our energy, (aka awareness), and then fit our awareness into that model. I agree, it's best to not give the model any limitations and should you find any, intend a way to remove them. Also, an exit route from the mind, an ability to recognize what you put into it versus what others put into it, and a means of adjusting it as needed are all necessary tools to have. Another point of note yet to be addressed here, is there seems to be a two-way relationship between the mind and perception. Perceptions inform the mind, and the mind has at least some control over how they do so and what may be perceived.Do not curse your mind but explore it, stalk it.Amen!
This all needs to be organized in a bit clearer manner but was a great way to begin to explore the topic. I may organize it later and I may reply to other stuff at that time as well, not sure. Thanks for making the thread and thanks to spirit for leading me here as it was necessary for me to visit this today for reasons which go beyond this discussion.

[serloco]

The focus i prefer is to perfect solutions.

Belief is something that can be empowered. Belief can be made into knowing. You can empower your belief to great lengths, so that what you believe you receive. Remember any configuration in the second attention may be met.

I dont recommend building knowledge to think for other people. I used to do that all the time and other beings learned it fro me. They began putting thoughts into my head and i hated it. I suggest being very careful what you build, and what types of knowledge you build and apply to your mind. Having others think for you is not so fun.

[serloco]

I dont think it is too soon to discuss opening your mind to the source, or to the Spirit. That was one of the first things i learned in my path and it led me to know every greatest realization i could imagine directly for myself. i could look at a book and receive the awareness and knowledge from it directly because i was connected to the silent knowing. I still do it too.

[serloco]

[serloco]

[Julio Juliopolis]

It seems we are discussing two different things.
In a thread titled "The art of playing the guitar", I would expect to see discussion on tunings, notes, chords, progressions, types of guitars, etc.
The thread you seem to be aiming for, by way of comparison, would contain advice to open your hands to God, focus on playing perfectly, and videos about guitar players like Foreigner's "Jukebox Hero".
Not that either thread would be wrong, or even that one is better than the other. It's just what I'm personally looking for is a discussion about how thinking works energetically. Investigating questions like "Is it the same for everyone?" "What exactly is a thought?" "How do we create them?" "How do we dismantle them?" "What's the best use of our energy regarding them?" "What makes a thought correct or incorrect?" "How do matrixes of thoughts build on each other?" etc.

Since your interests with this thread lie elsewhere I'll not try to push it into what I'd prefer, but may just start a different thread for that sort of discussion if I choose to do so later.

[serloco]

I dont think that there is a need to start a new thread. Please feel free to add anything you wish to in here.

It is my understanding that thoughts originate from pure consciousness, awareness of the world around you, whatever you are focusing attention on. As we grow up most of us learn to speak, and as such much our mind gets converted into dialogue or words, however when you look closely at your own thoughts you can see the spark of consciousness, that then gets forms into dialogue. I prefer to not have so much dialogue and enjoy purer awareness, or consciousness. As we grow our consciousness develops a personalized form, a signature of our likes, and dislikes, our knowledge we come to learn of which gets activated at appropriate times through our memory. In other words pathways get formed. Most people believe that our brains are the vessels in which form thoughts, however I have learned with careful observation that it is indeed a body of awareness and not the brain. The brain is formed from our awareness. It is like a creative reflection of our awareness.

It is important to note that just because we have learned and built these pathways does not mean we can not leave them behind and remake ourselves in a new position. We can create new pathways whenever we want. It had been said that these mental pathways, this internal dialogue of what we have learned and discovered constantly tells us and the world what it is, and thus forms the alignment of reality. WHat you think is real is thus the perception that you generate, align to, as real.

Is that more of what you would like to see?

[serloco]

[Julio Juliopolis]

serloco wrote:I dont think that there is a need to start a new thread. Please feel free to add anything you wish to in here.

It is my understanding that thoughts originate from pure consciousness, awareness of the world around you, whatever you are focusing attention on. As we grow up most of us learn to speak, and as such much our mind gets converted into dialogue or words, however when you look closely at your own thoughts you can see the spark of consciousness, that then gets forms into dialogue. I prefer to not have so much dialogue and enjoy purer awareness, or consciousness. As we grow our consciousness develops a personalized form, a signature of our likes, and dislikes, our knowledge we come to learn of which gets activated at appropriate times through our memory. In other words pathways get formed. Most people believe that our brains are the vessels in which form thoughts, however I have learned with careful observation that it is indeed a body of awareness and not the brain. The brain is formed from our awareness. It is like a creative reflection of our awareness.

It is important to note that just because we have learned and built these pathways does not mean we can not leave them behind and remake ourselves in a new position. We can create new pathways whenever we want. It had been said that these mental pathways, this internal dialogue of what we have learned and discovered constantly tells us and the world what it is, and thus forms the alignment of reality. WHat you think is real is thus the perception that you generate, align to, as real.

Is that more of what you would like to see?Yes, but bigger! We're scientists here exploring the meta of all metas! It's THE thing behind every post in this forum, behind the invention of all things ever invented, behind the strategy of every battle that's been won! And any serious examination of thinking itself is conspicuously absent from education systems around the globe, whose very stated purpose is to teach young people to think! This makes it a powerful occult doctrine as well. Your image of Einstein is very appropriate here, as is the quote. If we consider thinking from the level of a couple guys chit-chatting at a bar, trying to entertain themselves for a while without any real examination put into it, our results will reflect that. If we approach it from the level of scientists delving deep into something that rest of the world is ignoring trying to discover all we can about it, our results will reflect that. I'd like to do the latter.

To that end, let's start as scientists will, just by making observations. Look at what thinking is and how it seems to work and write it down (or type in this case) so it's not just sitting in our heads but out where we can really examine it. 
To that end I'm going to ask some observing questions and give my answers, hoping others will do likewise. This may help me notice things I'd missed and clarify my own observations and may also show us if there are any differences in thinking, (as a process), between us.

1. What is a thought?
JJ - A thought seems to be condensed energy which forms a tunnel from one place to another. When I put my awareness inside the tunnel, I hear it as words. From outside, I see/feel it as a straw-sized tunnel whose walls are condensed energy. The tunnel is always straight, and always near my head, (at least when it's my own thoughts). Note that at the moment I'm only considering a concept as a thought, and not just an image. I might answer these questions differently if we want to look at mental images too.

2. How is a thought formed?
JJ - Three ways come to mind. 
a) One is by searching with my awareness for a point which might contain the answer to a question I'm trying to solve, and then focusing on finding a path between me and it. The point is just a lit up point when I find it, and the path is built of energy condensing toward it. This is then followed by an examination of the path, and if I see it as having cracks I know it's got some logical issues with it. Sometimes I can move through the path and fix those, sometimes they are too flawed, in which case I look for a new path. Sometimes I find a new, clean path to the same point. If not, I go back and search for a new point and start over.
b) Another way is by following along with words or other symbols, such as those used in math. So if a group of words describes a concept as I read it I'm building the concept with words. Or if I'm trying to solve something like 19283 * 345, then I can follow the symbols as I'm working with them to create the path. In that case however I'm not likely to put much energy into the path as it would seem unimportant to remember it later, but the option is there.
c) Same as b but with someone else explaining the concept to me.

3. What is the relationship between images and thoughts?
JJ - To me, images intensify thoughts. They bring emotion to them. In fact, I'm not sure I've ever had an emotional reaction to ideas without images accompanying them. This seems useful in cases where I want to imagine a way to do something, or in meditation if I want to imagine moving energy around. (A good example of this would be trying to move energy up your back... then try it again imagine a finger running up your spine pushing the energy. For me, the 2nd case is much easier and more effective). This also has the potential of getting me stuck in emotions for a while, if I imagine things which trigger them in me.

4. How is a thought dissolved?
JJ - I'm not sure they are ever fully dissolved. I've stopped paying attention to thoughts, forgotten some, and stopped believing others, but I don't remember ever having tried to dissolve one and am not sure how that would work.

5. What is the relationship between thoughts and energy?
JJ - I think that thoughts can store energy inside them, more than just what is required to make the thought. This energy can persist even if a thought is not really believed. For example, arachnophobes don't really believe spiders are killing machines, but they have a thought that says they are with lots of energy in it which gets activated anyway when they think about spiders. Other thoughts which store energy can be pleasant memories. Thoughts about people treating other people poorly tend to store lots of anger. Using these thoughts may be a way of gaining energy when needed which could be repurposed for other uses. 

I'll stop at 5 questions for now, and see what questions serloco, (or anyone else) wants to add to this. Hopefully, some of you might answer these questions too and help provide a better view of thinking as a whole instead of just how *I* do it.

[serloco]

to ponder, to realize, to imagine, to identify, to associate, relate, define, to conclude

You are correct thoughts store feelings such as love, fear, anger, etc. Once we build a feeling the energy is then stored in our memory until it is again triggered.

Thoughts are formed by our intent and our will, the very life we live, our awareness. Thoughts are often formed as a stimulus to the environment, a reaction to what we perceive. As well as a reaction to our own thoughts, and imagination. Again, thoughts are also formed by the direction of our probing attention. Attention holds within it the intent of that direction. For example when you love someone you tend to focus on them in a positive light, bringing positive awareness and glowing ideas and feelings about the person. Likewise when you dislike someone your attention focuses in a negative direction, bring bad feelings and negative ideas and conclusion about the person. ONe tends to discover what they seek depending on the intent behind the attention.

Thoughts form, or lead to, beliefs and opinions. Our thoughts give us identity thru self awareness. "I think therefor I am." This adds to the intend of your probing attention. For example a person who's identity is cynical or bitter, then to focus and thus perceive in a scrutinizing fashion.
Looking for fault in things and having a generally negative mind frame. Our identity forms ultimately a filter in which we examine from. ONe may look out at the roses and see beauty, and other one may look at the mud and see filth. Of course this comes from the stored energy we have made through our experiences brought back through the triggers of our memory, through the part of our awareness associated with knowledge and perception. We judge the world all the time, and we carry this judgement with us through the cohesion of our awareness. The bonds we make. The pathways our minds follow.

Don't forget Julio that words too carry energy within them, they convey understanding. Everything in this universe in connected, and thus even simple words convey the truth of the 'thing' they are pointing at. Intent can be seen in anything, including words. That brings me to my next point, awareness "tells" you what you see and experience, and thus awareness forms conclusions and facts, realizations and epiphanies.

More to come.

[serloco]

"If we consider thinking from the level of a couple guys chit-chatting at a bar, trying to entertain themselves for a while without any real examination put into it, our results will reflect that. If we approach it from the level of scientists delving deep into something that rest of the world is ignoring trying to discover all we can about it, our results will reflect that. I'd like to do the latter."

Of course, which is why I mention the position of awareness and intent we set out to achieve, the focus of our attention that is fueled by our intent.

[serloco]

[rosygyro]

[Julio Juliopolis]

It's really clear to me that in order to get what I came in here for I'm going to have to start up a new thread. Which is perfectly fine, I don't mind doing that. I'm working on a rough draft, and at the moment I'm looking closer at the idea of emotional energy triggered by thoughts. Obviously, not all thoughts seem to trigger similar emotional responses. Also, I'm not sure it's only about the emotions one has already invested into the idea. Some thoughts seems to trigger emotional responses the first time one spends any time with them. Any ideas on how this relationship works?

[Billy]

serloco- ...After years of this battle of the mind... I reached a safe point. I saw that it was not the power of the thoughts it was the power of the choice. The decision... no longer could thought impulses do what they used to do. Thoughts became weaker, they took the back burner to choice, decision, acceptance... And, even when i couldnt think for myself the thoughts were emptied out and hollow, echoes of what they used to be. I did not place power in them anymore. I removed all the power in the thoughts, and placed them with my choice, my decision. That was a great day.

This is detachment.. and you are describing the workings and freedom of Billy.  I'll add here, that a 'set aside' meditation augments the living process.  I am quick to note/know that meditation is not a separate form.  That is, living need incorporate what is the meditative quality.  Practice without such unity renders both meditation and life rather impotent.

   So, at the onset of sitting for meditation, I am aware there is no call to change anything.  I see how I am (thoughts, feelings, stressors, occupations, bodily sensations, visuals and sounds, etc. simply noticed---> and there is 'no thing' like distraction.. I mean, what arises is real, and all I do is watch real arise.  Does that make sense?   AND, in 'normal' living action, I am deciding that this meditative function (letting be) pervades my awareness as THE primary choice.  [THIS becomes more habitual]

    The challenge is not to divest consequential decision making (or consequential anything) of the detachment habit being developed.  More mastery here begets the quality of fluidity in the state termed 'controlled folly.'
This term is useful to describe the resultant 'safe point' serloco describes--->  awareness still has all the thoughts, feelings, stressors, occupations, bodily sensations, visuals and sounds, BUT without the consuming identity with them. 

    Julio, when I attacked you, this was as real as could be....  yet, I held none of the associated baggage. I had the normal worry and thought that proceeded that 'extreme' choice and action, but I was free enough.
There are many nuances in living that are not normally experienced.  When you reach this point I am at, you are apt to pay attention to fluctuations (especially of emotions).  Nothing has to be rigid (your mind is rigid).

I can savor what is unpalatable to most.  The communion I have with Kaomea has become a smorgasbord of devious delight for me, and I love my dark villainous nature.  [My god, I hardly think she is overmatched (smile)]  I CAN choose whatever persona at any time (I have that much control of myself).  I am truly having fun. 

    Besides determining that Billy is an +@#**%*, what else, Julio?  Have you looked into the neuroscience demonstrating that consciousness of choice occurs AFTER neurons determination?  Illusion?  What?

the art [biology] of thinking (lol)

Oh well, serloco always has Jesus preceding his thinking for him.  Kaomea, I MISS your words, honey.

[serloco]

And ever since I have had Jesus in my life again, my heart and my mind, and my soul have never been happier. My community has also opened themselves up so much to my presence. Its like love is everywhere.

[serloco]

Well Jules, lemmie tell you this. My emotions are on lock down. I choose what I feel. Controlled folly has taught me how to shut down my feelings, to suspend them. I can tell myself what makes me feel a certain way and then change them around if i choose to. I do not ever again want to be a slave to my emotions. Kaomea actually broke through and made me react to my emotions.. I was very surprised. Means I have more work to do.

I think that all feelings arise from the mind, and the conditioned pathways we have built. You mention new thoughts having feelings as well and my take on that is that some things are naturally enjoyable, or vise-versa. Things, including thoughts, are positive generating or negative generating. We naturally are happy when we think positively or feel bad when we think negatively. Even new thoughts are desirable or not desirable depending on the thought. New realizations are often enlightening, supportive to our growth and development. They can place us in awe, make us happy, leave us intrigued, etc. It is pretty natural to feel these ways.

[Billy]

serloco, I tend to disassociate from people I disagree with or who smoke (smile).  Nevertheless, serloco, you can choose to live however you want without my permission.  Further, I am for you having Jesus or even satan if it makes you happy.  As to Kaomea 'breaking through,' I assure you she could make anyone bat-sh*t crazy.  Julio probably concurs.


  I liked working with emotional reactions and persistent reflection from whatever emanations by sometimes toying with them.  Toy is agood word here.  I often treat whatever 'negative' as an object for self-amusement.  Detachment is half the equation.  When you gain space (detachment) from whatever, this is the time to foundationally understand the 'thinking' that just occured.  What were those reflections and emotions?  Really??

As you toy and observe, you are creating the 'safe point' or 'go to' for all happenings.  Then, you will even embrace 'negatives' because they have the interesting nuances I spoke of.  Not only is there an empowering self-awareness going on here, but now all the old 'been there- done that' is totally fresh.  I mean, you see that.  So you look at (recap) old 'bad' experience in a different way.  In all of this, there is the ultimate reckoning of existential pain, sadness- pleasure, joy.
  I mean, it is little value to do awareness piecemeal.  The principle of dealing with existence in wholeness brings accountability for ALL of EVERYTHING.  I don't (laughing) have to tell you what a sh*thole life can be.

 Kaomea, I recognize an unmistakeable pull.  What do you want?  No- don't answer, "I don't know."  You DO know.