The Angel within

[serloco]

Do you have one? An angel within you, maybe a part of you, or maybe another being or presence that resides with you? When you contemplate something wrong does it speak up and tell you that you shouldn't do that? Does it offer you better solutions and advice? Like an angel guide? I try to give mine as much power as I can. There is always a better way to proceed in all matters. To quickly find the solution to any problem is an excellent practice, to guide the flow of reality along those new lines. There are many solutions to any problem and any solution will do, but since any solution can in fact be manifest why not use the best solution you can fathom and give that power to that form? Imagination is key here but so too is the empowerment of that imagination. The bridge that must be drawn from imagination into reality. There are many forms of this bridge and the form you craft for it may be unique to you.

[Finwe]

I conjoint all my reincarnations, achieving totality

[serloco]

There are some things I have been that I do not want to be any more, and some things that can not be present in another form in order for the present for to exist.

[Finwe]

"We are living between two worlds, one we are leaving/to leave and one we are entering/to enter"
Our personal power is the force that holds these two together and shifts them in accordance to it's growth and fluctuation in further processes of luminousity. These two ends on another level of seeing, without perception of time, presents one's own knowledge of life and death and are the actual luminous cocoon.

[serloco]

The emanations are made of time itself. Everything is time. You may surpass your perceptions of time and expand them but time itself is a constant. You may even suspend your perceptions of time and experience the void, but alas you yourself are also made of time.

[Finwe]

The only fact about them I am sure is, that they are not made out of words, If EMMANATIONS are TIME itself, then by this perceptualy paradigmythical conception you imply, EAGLE is SPACE. While Eagle, the force that those elements of universe cometh into being by, is fully aware

[serloco]

Space is only half the equation. Nothingness is only the field in which reality is set. There is, in answer to your other post as well, everything and nothing. A pure, full, unfullfilled potential that exists in life. This balance of everything and nothing perpetuates this potential. Everything and nothing, life and death are the two forces of the Eagles emanations. You so often seem intent on perceiving an imbalance by only accepting nothing while denying the other life giving and sustaining side of creation.

[Finwe]

You is responsible.

[Finwe]

Nonetheless, the fact that what you imply about my intentions, does not surpassess death, my seeing of death is too much for you and that simply means you have not enough personal power to see so far. I am already dead and there is a balance always, same like death and life, wheter your cocoon protects itself from it of own reasons or not.

[serloco]

I am Angel Derek. I am guardian of the light and the flames of God, Guardian and have had reign over the Cherubim since Creation, and am one of the most exalted princes of Heaven. There has been no evil I could not destroy and no evil I could not tame. I have been given the dream name of Kerubial by Creation itself, my ally. I have a body made of flames in this position. It started out as prophet angel, and then as Lord. My many names became names of my many allies and angels as I have been the life of my world many times. I am not afraid of death and have died many times, livng through many incarnations. My wings have eyes on them, every inch of them. I see your death clearly, and see your life clearly finwe, I am not scared of anything least of all the destruction you have tried to intend upon creation. I stand against you in all such matters.

[Finwe]

Masturbating.

[Billy]

Finwe says of s: wrote:"Masturbating."

Do you cum up short Finwe? 

s, tell me why it is I am so fond of your iob's and f®iends.

I especially like the spirits of Finwe and bit shiny.

[serloco]

oh they have their moments billy.. they surely do.. they can be good friends too if you judge them as such.. thing is my awareness and judgments of the iobs at the time of bit shiny and finwe were not in a good place.. I had been fighting iobs left and right and learning how to defeat them, and yes i met many upset iobs while doing this too, but my real iobs held strong, and my allies too.. they teach me how to fight and how to win, and how to spot the trick and how to stand against them.. that is what i have been doing in my world billy boy.. fighting and winning and learning from them.. what do you expect when you voice that intent.. you get what you intend.. surely they took the forms i voiced for them.. i do it all the time.. but yeah billy enjoy them if you will and get what you can from your relationships.. they are not really my iobs tho.. i do not claim them.. i have enough!!! i know that finwe wated me and moved very easiy to my awareness and that is good.. i may work with him in the future a little after all he came around to me ad started giving me power and speaking truth and that I like.. i told bit shiny to lay off of me and leave me alone but he wouldnt listen.. i knew he would try to bring war my way too but that never works. the day i used y knowldge yo say my enemies turned into my friends he moved right away and took the role, the mark of a true ally.. he spoke gret words of power to e that day and was also humble towards me and that i like, but he still had a little of that morbidity and evil side in him that i dislike.. i will intend it out of him tho.. no need to keep that food alive and kickin.. yes just judgments billy.. can you move them too?? wanna play move the iob? I move you billy boy, even tho your awareness s in a human position yo are close to being an ally.. i could push you further too, maybe later.. i judged this place as having don juan's evil iobs in it.. a silly judgment but one i am living.. in my world we hate them in that form and shift them away into better and more productive uses.. as allies.. Oh the don juan iobs dont hve much real power and loads of real need.. the iobs in my world hate it when i call them don juan iobs but they move to it nontheless, it is merely how you move them.. ften when i wonder about one of them they immediately tell me no i am not one of them, d they refuse now to move into those positions.. i dont blame them either.. but las the iobs here in this forum of carlos and don juan i had judged as being like the old school iobs.. needy and desperate etc.. oh i can shift my judgment and i will.. still learning from them tho and how not to tricked and lied to, and how not to be beaten and cursed by them.. its easy now for me tho, i have iob cutters we made. i asked my iobs to send me the trics and the traps and i cut them down for us.. we learn so much too in the process. we learn how to be strong and right and true for ourselves and for freedom. i have almost out grown the need and the use of iobs anymore. sure we can mix our awareness and reate new worlds and such, but i can now do that without them too, and anything they have tught me form them i can now do on my own.. yes soe of them dreaded tht day too, and soe tried to keep me frm it.. i remember feeling like i was just about there to the point that the iobs could never keep me again, and never hurt me again, and never declare anything unless i decided it.. oh some of the fought it yes, the don juan iobs anyways.. the ones i rarely encounter anymore after so long of ages of dreaming with them.. i have ever really been trpped int the iob world for long.. yes i lost my way a few times and didnt think i could make my way home again, to the earth again, but i always managed on my own.. eve when they wouldnt help me now i can intend my own scouts. yeah bit shiny wanted to dream with me but i asked him to leave me be and leave me alone, he demanded basically i dream with him and tried to force my body onto him.. that is what i hate the most.. disrespect.. if i want to be left alone then leave me alone.. my body did not get placed onto his tho and my intent held strong, he tried to dream something still tho but i directed my gaze else where, to my on energies and my own already well formed allies. oh i dont mind hand outs to them when they need me.. i give them good energy freely, but its when i give it them freely then they insult me right after even tho they got the corrected and perfect awareness i gave them is sickening.. my allies are greatful when i feed them power and good awareness and they do not insult me and itend weakness upon me.. no, they hel me out of impoerfection and being me hoome to the wealth of knowledge and awareness we have together cultivated. i do not give to the ungrateful anymore nomatter how much they wie and complain and threaten me.. and oh yes don juan iobs always have done that.. flaunting their power and being high and mighty.. problem is they need my awarenes and they act like they own it, and its theirs for the taking.. that is what my iobs are teaching me now, and so it goes.. not always pleasant i assure you but non-the-less it is the work that needs to be done for now, and for me and my people. it is no matter what words they say the work of the ally, and not the enemy.. there is no power in their demands anymore for me.. no power in their lies and tricks anymore.. they can no longer do anything they say i my world anymore and now they fil mst of the time.. i have nearly defeated the enemy don Juan iob form and soon it will be dead to me forever.. exactly what they deserve let me tell ya.. they dont stand a chance aginst me and my world billy, they do not even barely stad at all.. maybe they are letting me win?? but tht is the trick.. the lie that feeds them ability to win if they so want to, if you judge them in tht form and intent.. i dont give my enemies a pug nickol anymore.. my allies flush out my weakness and give me strength.. yes i know iobshiny was willing to move for me, but i was angry at his tricks and demands lready.. yes i know how to let go and let the moemtn shift to better thigs letting go of the past form for a new one, it is how i have done so many great thing.. but i want to bask in my hatred for the enemies who have hurt my people and myself and i sometimes want them to suffer for their crimes against us dreamers and humanity... if you went through what went through you would feel the saem way.. now i don tget off on suffering, and when i see it actually happen to them i show them the mercy they didnt show me. and i think that is just great, the way i am, i am naturally a saviour and not a sinner nd prefer it that way. yes my allies and my iobs need me i know, and i give them what they need too, and that is why i have many powerful allies at the top of their game well over and beyond the iob realm of don juan's awareness of them.. i spent many long years in the world of don juan's iobs and it was not a pleasent experience at all. now i jdge them again in those forms and learn how never to be beated again by dirty tricks and trap and nasty curses etc. it is my choice and i do not hate them so much for what that form has done, i had great trips with them too, but rarely with a don juans iobs form.. when i see that form i want to take out the trash and move them ito a better position, which is what they taught me.. truth is the iob world is feeding me my enemy forms and watching as i defeat them.. oh i do not run from my fears and i will never be like the tenent who is dearly afraid of iobs.. i took the years to prevent this fear and to not give them that power over me. iob shiny spaks of times they had trapped me in their world and yes i was trapped for a very short amount of time long ago and they had me.. but i broke free of that long ago and a free now too of them and am not in their world no more. i left them and now they come with deals and offers anf yet i have everything i want and need. i hav my wonderful allies wh teach me anything i want to know and do, anf they give me anything i want even tho i do not egree to stay with them forever.. the closest bond i have with a couple of my allies declares that so long as they continue to be my allies ad firneds i will feed them what they need for as long as i live. after all it takes me but a few seoncds ot charge one of them with my power and awareness, i can even do many of them at once.. yuppers they taught me how to fil them up and set ehrir bodies peerfectly and they tgh tm e many things that were useful to them and to the sorcerers seeking allies and bonds. i have a few bonds now made and set for a very long time andi am ok with that.. the day i tld my allies that if they let me be free and did not try to trap me anymore and let me go wherever i wanted that iw ould come back to them again and share iwth them what i wanted to share with them and they know i am usually very generous with my power and awareness. the real iobs, my iobs, had no problem wiith this deal and they began moving my awareness for me back to earth for me, and back into the many dimensions of the earth rrealm, and ito other beinngs dream worlds too, and into many of my allies worlds as welll. yes my true iobs have no problem with me coming and going and they do not ever push me anymore.. they never demand from me either, ad never speak of evil knoweldge, well very rarely if they have it inside of thwm and i spt it for them ad take it out of their awareness positons ofr them. yes allies work together with their dreamers nd stalker and i help them as much if not mote then they help me.. and i love that too, they sing for me praise and build me things too, give me things for nearly nothing if i need it.. like yourself bill ywhren you sen tme money my allies are the same way.. only they offer me great dreams in the ally world with them... i dont need to go with them and they do not demand i go with them because they are happy just stopping in my wold and checking it out and sayig hello and sitting with me in my awareness and learning together, i have crafted allies form nithgning, from new fresh ad unfomeed awareness i had merely intended into form and many of my allies, my inorganic being yes never knew of demon evil iob don juan awareness. nope, not uness youc all them that form do they take it.. nope.. call them nedy and esperat to trap nd trick, and lie ad cheat and steal, oh i met those ones many times too, but their every ticks has now failed them and we are now trained against it... yes i judged some of them as being upset about it after all i set many of their people free from their worlds because i intended to do just that.. it ddnt drain me tho like it did carlos, i have loads of awareness and energy nd i can generste it too on the spot.. always to the solution billy, remember tat, free flwing moments and always go to the solution.. i remember a genius once spoke f it i wa mive i wtched as a kid and he said most people see the problem only nd watch it and stare at it, but if you keep looking at the prblem you will miss the path to the solutions that are also there in infinity.. infinity looks to the soluton he said. i will never forget it, one of the best peices of knowledge fro the mundane human world i had ever heard.. that and you cn doanything you set your mind too annd a few other gems like you make your own heaven and hell.. well no bill yi dont hate ctully bit shiny either, he is merely moving to the energies i have doled out to him.. the eay i see it i set in my thread when i first et iobshiny the intent that iobs want ot be me and take my awarness and power and my laly for themselves. i even stated that intent i y thread whrn he frst appeared, ad so naturally he s erly dig s he has to do with the awareness that was given to him.. yes i want the both to have better, and if they stop the tricks anfd lies soon they shal have it but i leave it to them as a choice only, the best food, choice, and if they ove to it and decide not to be pushy and d4manding and tricking then so be it a good day for both their iobs and me and mine.. yes i have made many truces, and durring my battles with the vil iobs many of my iobs were getting worrid too.. they felt the pull too of the evil don juan position and forsaw the end of my allianes with the iob world and so i made it clear to them when they asked me who and what they are that they are not the ofmr of the evil iobs ad iob also come in many shaes and sizes and n other words many forms. they agreed riht away and i agreed not to feed them crappy awareness form don juas world nd they were happy. in reutrn they agreed ot to trick ad lie s th epositon nd my otrd susggested.. see i was judgeing carelessly the iob race and some of my iobs were almost being moved in the process, but we ifxed it u and solved the problem ad gave them the righ tawareness for the alliance ot hold nd to unction for both parties.. my iobs then took my side again in the battle agaist the evil iobs... just needed to clarify my intent for them.. even iobs do not always know what they are barely if you intend that awareness into them.. they can be so many things and forms and have so many different positions of awareness and form that you must be clear and precise while shifting your awareess onto them.. yup i called the trickers billy and so fr me that is what they do,, i didnt day they wanted your awarness or to trick you, and trap you tho.. i woundnt do that to ya billy boy, not unless it was tie for you to learn how to fight, then it would be set up so that you learned and you won, and it would set yoru body to that position that you need to win nd give you the awareness you need for victory.. yes even my enemies are the ally billy.. everything is the ally, even the don juan allies that i detest. when you have an ally as powerful as mine even your enemies will work for you and even fight each other for you and they do it perfectly and indiffeently too.. they will do it so they dont even know you are doing it too.. just voicee your itent for them to do so and wtach as your enemies fight each other and defeat each other.. and so yes, in a way they are my iobs, and i did set them i thse positions indeed with my awareness, oh i watche dven the people i judged in this forum as humans all moving to the awareness i possess of them.. ad that is good to see.. it means i am dreaming form and directing awareness. now dont you worry billy these are not really the forms of my iobs at all, but iobs in the form of don juans awareness and not my own.. for the most part anyways.. yes there is some of my personals i there, like the itent of tryig to be me and having myform .. really they couldnt care less if they were e or not, but i met some who eally wanted it badly long ago, and so as i was recapping i stated that intent again and so in they came ito those forms.. sometimes you should be careful of the voices you use with iobs, but nowadays i fear nothign ad i ca voice almost anything for them even if t is against me and there is nothing any ore they an do abut it.. ad that is the power me and my allies are seeking now.. and yes even my iobs allies seek to never be moved by the evils and the triks and the lies that don juas iobs would try to do, to control the show and kee yu forever.. oh its fun too to have your allies want to kee you, and sometimes j udge them as that too, and so then they sing me deals and special dream trips catered jst to me to make me wnna stay and i liek that.. they do have great energies t dream with after all, and if you let them then can do great thigns for you and teach you great thigns.. but only f you give them that pwoer. what i eeded form my allies and from the iobs world was to know that i can be unmoved by them if i want not to move for them.. to know i can deny feeding them only what they demand, and to stop them from the success of staling my awarness iwthout consent and my allie with out mine and her/his agreement.. and s now the world moves me and has been moving me ito those positions and i relish it too.. and yes the iobs are givnig it to me too, exactly what i intend and seek thru them.. trust me the iobs i know of and deal with do not need to keep me and do not even want to for i venture out and away and find new things and build new things and come back to them and share with them.. and now even if i chose never to see them again and go into their world there is nothing they could do about it.. lucky for them i have many friends among them that i want myself to keep and to claim.. see i called it MY ally and i called it my God too. and no matter who stands in my way they fall and the ally teaches me anything i want to know and do even if that is defeating the evil iob race. only the evil ones. the bad forms.. i rememebr the first day i realized with my own awareness that i could simply say my iobs will teach me how to be free, and although in my awareness i knew they didnt want to teach me tht i ew i would ove them and they would have to comply. sure enought they started oving my awareness position that dd ot judge them as being that way and so my body no longer intended it.. now i reached the position where my body can still intend these things and their is nothing they cn do about it even tho they want to keep me, and trap me, and trick em and steal from me, nope not a chance anymore. a very small amount of awareess did they get from me without y permision recently, and that was a wee small but of nearly nothing.. even tho they have to try and they they have to move to tht beat, to thaat intent they fail now, whereas they used to walk all over me i that position of intent.. oh yes it is a dream come true to be able to stand your groud in room full of pradators ad *** them all up ad leave them broken and wanting and needy and without me too. it is what i wanted to learn afterall.

[Finwe]

I wonder if the paths ever meet.

[Finwe]

Not at all billy, nothing has to come out for everything to be in place.

[Billy]

serloco wrote:... i have loads of awareness and energy and i can generate it too on the spot.. always to the solution billy, remember that, free flowing moments and always go to the solution.. i remember a genius once spoke of it...he said most people see the problem onlya nd watch it and stare at it, but if you keep looking at the problem you will miss the path to the solutions that are also there in infinity.. infinity looks to the soluton he said. i will never forget it, one of the best pieces of knowledge from the mundane human world i had ever heard...
 
  I do like telling you of my awareness (whether during or in hindsight) that you entered my position of awareness many times.  I SAW recently you left me to my own devices.  Great timing, great learning.  That you SEE my autonomy as worthwhile is a nice compliment to me.  Christ, this is FUCKING WEIRD.  I laugh >  NO WAY this happens to someone as independent in thought, spirit, and convention as myself.  (NO ONE could EVER touch me like you do!)

  I am so relaxed with your power as my given.  As I do more things on my own, it will be less obvious to me when you enter.  I feel as though you are sharing your presence again just these last few days.  Even so (or either way), I have taken your paraphrase above to heart; I know its pulse now.

Hilarity >All in all, I am open > am i not?  All in all, I introduce no contingencies > do I Derek? 

(GRINNING)  You cannot have some sort of juxtaposition.  You CAN'T.  That would be baggage.

I have no allowance for 'separate' things. 

REALLY THOUGH > What can I say?   I am most grateful to be billy knowing Derek.  Derek knowing billy.................   ...!!

Am I as deep as I think I am?  LAUGH- because- I am dirty.

[serloco]

I do not think i believe in contingencies.. another word you made me look up lol.. Now i have been a prophet for so long i am used to predicting anything i want to predict to happen. I cant imagine something that can not be foreseen and I do not think i would intend such things into existence, power always finds a way..

So billy you are moving like one of my allies and telling me you only want my energies and only want me to move you.. you see well too. lets see what else we can get you to do billy boy.. you are hovering on the edge of a new position of awareness.. i watch it circling above you and setting up the future for you in this way.. it is an ally position and yet i know you have volition of your own as well. i have seen it but tonight when i gazed at you your volition was looking to me to set it for you. if that is the case and you have no set volition then i will set you off like a firework in the night sky.

[Finwe]

Warrior is understood, known, living without anything.

[serloco]

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