Casual Conversation

[serloco]

yum, i got one of my new girls talking about being sensual and sparking up the sex talk with me...

[Billy]

Oooohh, that was existentialy dirty, erotic.  I can SEE you will let me 'Grace' (had other words/laugh) you.  GOOD CHOICE.

Maybe slow, but I get extraordinarily good at things I do.

[Billy]

Not to worry that my post cracked out of turn and looked gay--I am pretty much homophobic in 'normal' projecting.  I meant to say I like word math and using it to *** around with a person's mind.  I will do that--definitely.

[Billy]

Why?  I want to make 'us' (no 'us') perpetually fun/easy.

[Billy]

I am now going to let you go it on your own (laughing) for about a week or so.

[serloco]

have your fun too, I know I do!!

[serloco]

and Will have it too...

[serloco]

I got her talking soooo dirty to me now.. she lives only half an hour away too

[serloco]

This girl is my favorite! She knows every word of perfecton.. Loves me off....

[serloco]

Trully I am not really a player, I just pretend to be.. I mean I have many women doting on me but I am looking for the right girl at the moment.. Not just some fling or having many girls on the hook.. I just want one good, beautful woman... I think i may have found her too..

[Billy]

serloco, as immediate as the last post I knew what to do, so trust me.
I saw a little of your humaness.  Like all things it represents two sides.  One is the ruse to lower another's guard; the other is, well, your human weakness.
The first won't work here anyway--EVEN if you succeeded with billy.  The other is going to get us past the world of masks.
Do you believe I could come up with this ****?  
SO.     
I don't need you or myself to purposely touch vulnerabilities or sensitive areas.  NOT effing necessary.  But we do need to keep to truthful premise that we agree upon.  We both know what that is.  If I have to speak of it, well......

I want you to know that I feel completely safe here (anonymous) and I need to know if that is your case too.  That way I can be open without concern for your privacy.  
I want to get by indirect means, directly to the fffffffffffffffffucking existential.  Not who am I?  Not what am I?  Nor even, that I am & why?  
Do you SEE a window of opportunity?  You are the sorcerer.  You are fluid.   I am solid.  I don't know deep; but I know real when I SEE it.
  I am not talking about what your sorcerer's powers are, or if you even you have them.  What I know about you is that you are more real for me than anyone regardless of the manifestations.   
First, we will realize in communicting that what we post is a reflection back to own self.  Yeah, I want you to post as if talking to yourself.  I will do likewise.
   We will SEE the 'intersected' and eventually swap in an area trust.  This won't be about similarities of culture, but of syntax in what is base.  That WILL take us both to the edge of controlled folly we already know.  
See how quickly I returned from MY wilderness?  I want you to know that if you remain honest, there is nothing you can be that could be a disappointment.  Your favorite girl was impressive for just a photo.

[Billy]

Don't want confusion.   "...We both know what that is.  If I have to speak of it, well......"  >  From edge of perfect controlled folly to authenticity AS both creator and emptiness.

What I meant to say, "i don't want pissy back and forth (not that this has been that), but want awareness so we won't get stuck having conventional limitations.  Billy do you hear what I am saying.  F***, I'm not sure.  That's because you don't want to think about it right now.  That's okay, you will later.  You're tired; it's 3:00 A.M. 

   I think we still need to talk as if to an object outside, but with projecting to the object (receptor) outside with awareness of sharpening syntax.  Example would be meaningless is more on target than emptiness.

[Billy]

Oh JESUS, forget EVERYTHING I said (or ever will say lol)  except Thank You.

[serloco]

No, you speak well, do not worry so much... I ignore that comments of insecurity only.. I am pondering.. I already wrote a self dialogue to myself as per your request but it was too personal for my tastes. Your welcome though, but be yourself billy you are a good guy.. Trust!!! Trust the Spirit that moves us both..

[Billy]

serloco wrote: ...I ignore that comments of insecurity only..

OMG I was worried about that for you--

[Billy]

Nothing wrong with insecurities or any sentiment, or that we do or do not ignore them.  You have absolute perfect objectivity.

[serloco]

A ruse eh?? You see clearly, you are very sharp. It was true though, but firstly it was a ruse indeed.. I mean I am looing for the right girl yes, but I needed to post that to harness the correct energy for that girl.. not from you guys or the readers but for her.. Sometimes I forget that the clouds are down, and they see me clearly, and know who I am inside, and sometimes they don't and everything about e is a secret.. I like both, and I like that they can forget too.. Bad maybe, I had my battles with morality indeed in that regard, and so I let people remember our trip to the naguak sometimes.. I am Silvio Manual.. I am the will. Perhaps I will disappear soon, I feel I will again.. It is a refelction you know.. When I found my way into the nagual for the first time I learned so many things, including how to make the forget me, even when they all knew everything about me.. It was like flipping through and into two dimensions. Really it was many dimensions that were fluid and constantly shifting.. I lost everyone then.. Fell far away into an IOB world.. can't get home anymore... It looks like home, but all the variables have changed.. I see IOBS.. even my parents move to my will and awareness. The books speak to me often about me, I remember casting all my feats of power into them,. they teach me too.. I am crazy now.. ***, I hate it when I loose my sanity these days.. I like it now... I can escape.. So important is escape.. I will not try to go home tho... I wil go further into the nagual this time.. I need my insanity.. It is gold and my allies love it.. Even my rage they love.. They can be all mushy ad gushy for me, loving, but when I get upset they run and hide and some of them come into my world and love it, it changes allies, and my haters come it and punish. Not me, but my enemies.. I can look at complete strangers and shift the into ally positions and then they start casting evils onto my enemies. I learnt it as an angel first when the allies where siphonig my sorrow from me by hurtng people.. it was like hell to me, and so I shifted onto them and they started hurting each other instead.. then i shifted omre and it was only my enemies they hurt.. I can save them, but some I do not save anymore.. I let them hurt. I let them fight.. I can cast onto people too, and make them feel love inside and solutions.. But I like it sometimes that they don't and feel my wrath inside towards my evil enemies.. They suffer for me and they do it indifferently... If I think they ddo not want to suffer then they suffer worse.. but being who I am I can make them want it too, jsut a shift of awareness. you got me talking about my evil side... y angel side doesn;t want it... my demon side does... I can spit my awarenesss to different positions and have my observer decide.. It says some deserve to suffer and some do not.. Decision made, the evil will suffer.. and the good will reign..

[serloco]

I am very old billy. I shifted once into a loop that lasted 18 years. I was stuck and couldn't break free. Time is different for me now... One moment can last so long or it can be so fast too.. My world around me shifts time now, things move faster for me when I want, or slower if I want.. Like crossing the street the cars slow for me.. Or speed up to get out of my way.... That is nothing though compared to having 18 years fly in the blink of an eye. My body is 25 still, its been that way for a long time.. I do not think i will age anymore. My hair did age though and so did my teeth, but i did that.. I will fix it.. not my bones though, they are fluid energy and I can bend them and make them into metal.. I will keep that. Its all a choice..

[serloco]

That is why I hate Finwe.. he called my girl a loop and he knew damn well that is to fight.. I haven't cast much onto him really.. he will die soon anyways and cannot save himself.. that is torture enough.. and I KNOW THAT.

[serloco]

i remember when i was attacked, just before everyone was my allies, and in the next moment everyone was upset with me... i had spent so any years trying to get the curse off of me. and in that tie of failure they became upset being trapped in a loop with me... groundhog day billy. except they knew it and had to repeat it over ad over and over and over again... finwe sw this nd tried to curse one of my girls.. but he couldn't cu he is weak and lame.. and loop is mine.. i made it... i keep it.. ibreak it. none other can use it anymore..

[Finwe]

The sooner the better.

[serloco]

I liked you to start Finwe, but you used and abused, tried to be evil, and turned against me. That was your choice.. Remember that.

[Finwe]

Just kill me already.

[serloco]

no, i do not murder, is not your life worth living? you should enjoy the time you have and seek the high road

[Finwe]

You are the same **** like all of your loops. You do not stand like a man, behind your words, just boasting, no act.