Dragonfly

[watergaze]

Hey there... it has been a while... I want to share my experience with an ally I have been learning about recently - the dragonfly.

I have experienced this magical being at various times in my life. But now I want to share a recent dream that got me to focus a bit on this being and try to learn something about its qualities. 

Feel free to share your experiences with dragonflies, as well as what you learned about them and the insights you gained through interacting with it .

[watergaze]

Here is my dream (from 27.1.2017) that linked to the dragonfly 

A trip into a little country. We meet the princess of this country and go with her for a while. One of the things I see is a bridge over the water. At one point, when the tour is over, she wants to go into a library. She and someone go in. I decide to follow and am exploring the building (I am cutting this part out of the report as it is not linked to dragonflies). I end up in a room with some empty space in it. It is a smaller room where there are some bookshelves by the wall but it does not seem like part of the normal public book area. I look out of the window. I see a bridge and people walking across the water. I see a strange thing. A very tall (almost inhumanly tall) and thin man. Walking strangely, more like hovering. I am mesmerized by this movement and its appearance it is quite intriguing and interesting and even kind of enchanting. I want to take a picture. But it is hard due to the typical dream electronics issue I tend to have. (After I was up I was not 100% sure if my memory of seeing this being is from here or whether I saw the being first during my tour with the princess when I first saw the bridge. I was not sure if here is where I see him or before because I observe him in such a way that my awareness zoomed in on him and I was seeing him from much closer then than from a window of an upstairs room. And also once I zoomed in on him there was surely no glass between us either - but because it is a normal thing in dreaming that I can zoom in on things of interest no matter how far away they are, it probably happened here).

Somehow I make contact with this creature - man (has the shape of a man, even when it was in the tall form on the bridge it was a humanoid man). It seems to me he knows a person I went to high school with but that was a misunderstanding.

A part of the room starts falling away. I am in the room with a man and this someone I feel is linked to the shamans.
We survive, we rescue ourselves from the falling room. It falls around us but I am holding on to a good part of the wall construction which keeps standing. How the other person survived I don't know since I am the only one holding on to this railing part of the construction of the wall. It seems the man did not need to hold on like I did, he just kinda levitated.

I have no idea how this person came to be in the room with me, but I think this person linked to shamanism is the same creature/man I saw on the bridge. He came to me. (Maybe even provided some kind of support as the walls were tumbling around me...maybe he made that happen for me who knows).

Then we walk in a kind of more natur-y surrounding (could be a huge backyard of a house too or a park). I see flowers and I look closer. I am amazed to see bunches of 3 of my most beloved flowers growing side by side (snowdrop, forget-me-nots and the third was a gentle purple color I forogt already what it was but could be one flower I know from the mountains from my childhood or violets - not just that the 2 flowers were really close to my heart and my childhood self, but they were also the perennial/everlasting type of flowers which links to quite an important shamanic exercise I have been doing on and off for a couple of years - but which has not linked to my dreams before). Seeing that is like a miracle (I am not a flower kind of girl and there are very few flowers I know and even less I have a bond to). I am happy to see that. 
I point this out - the flowers. And as I look at them I notice that my state is different than it was in the dream segments before. I feel like my awareness has been raised/expanded. The way things look and feel is more vibrant. There is more color and more awareness in the world. But also there is like a shimmer in the air. It feels more alive all of it. I am happy to be experiencing this.

Me, a man and the shaman. We are sitting at a small round table in a kind of garden terrace in that place with grass and the flowers close by. She is telling me about myself. I do not remember what she told me, but I was listening and I was not surprised by the things she was saying. She told me things I knew about myself and knew to be true (I wished I retained this in my recall, the information, but I only remember how I experienced it and how she looked and the surroundings etc. I think because I was in a state of heightened awareness that it all made sense but that maybe some of it would be interesting to know once I woke up and returned to my more normal state).

Then, once the shaman finished talking to me, it seems to me it is now to be the man's turn (but it might not have been the case, it is just that I am this way hehe). He feels like he is my friend, an ally to me. I feel tenderness towards him. He has a mark on his left cheekbone. it looks like an anchor of sorts (but as I am waking I can identify it as a dragonfly). It has blue-green color paint. Since it seems to me like it is his turn now, or should be, I start by touching his face on the tattoo/mark and say/am about to say something about that/him. This is where the dream ends.

As I wake up I realize that this man was a dragonfly ally. The mark on his cheek was a dragonfly. His tallness and thinness and the way his hands were outstretched on his sides on the bridge were like the body of a dragonfly and its wings. His strange movement also was similar to a dragonfly in a way. He probably flew/hovered as the room was crumbling by and did not need to hold on to anything.

[watergaze]

I read an entry about dragonflies in a book about allies (Chris Lüttichau's Animal Spirit Guides). This is what it says (I underlined parts that seem to link to my dream and gave the dream link in small font within brackets):

DRAGONFLY
* Mesmerise * All potential * True self

In the magical land of Mexico, where dreaming and reality often merge, I was on the beach one afternoon near the pyramids at Tulum. All of a sudden I became aware of a colorful dragonfly. Soon, many more joined in, flying back and forth in front of me. Hypnotized by their dance, I was filled with a sense of mystery.  (--in the dream the movement of the tall man really drew and held my attention)

Those iridescent wings can mesmerize us, altering our consciousnesses and taking us into a shimmering world. This is the realm of the soul. (--when we came to the flower part of the dream it seemed to me like the air shimmered a bit and I felt I was in an altered state of awareness). Dragonfly's first teaching is to make space for mystery.

If we remain locked in our rational mind, we lose touch with our heart, soul and spirit. Rationality and logic dominate modern western culture, but do not help us to identify our authentic purpose. Dragonfly encourages us to see the illusions that define us. Let him guide you to the forgotten part of your soul, so that an understanding of your true self can begin to emerge.  (-- the dream ended with the shaman telling me true things about myself. I think I knew those things because I was in an altered state but in my state now I do not know if I would know. Also, another intent I was having the last couple days is to remember myself from the past and my past self and this seems to link to the dragonfly too)

Dragonfly often hovers in one place, held there by the rapid movement of his wings. From this still center he moves up, down, backward, forward, left, right. These are the seven directions: the sky, earth, east, south, west, north and finally center. This shows that dragonfly is the keeper of potential. 

He begins his life in the water and then goes through a long process of transformation before emerging in his full magnificence. (-- in the dream I saw the dragonfly by the water, on a bridge between water. I am very much linked to water. And I hope to be on a path of transformation). He teaches that we can pursue our dreams. Realizing our true potential, in a way that also benefits other people, is the ultimate expression of the power of the dragonfly.

Dragonfly is extremely difficult to catch, and this ability, combined with his astonishing swiftness and accuracy when he hunts insects in the air, makes him a superior warrior. If you need help with battles you are fighting, or with goals you want to accomplish, call on the dragonfly.

[watergaze]

One more thing I learned about the dragonfly (thanks to Senear) is that it is a very old species going back all the way to the dinosaur era. Therefore, dragonfly seems to be a good ally to have by my side as I am intending to connect with my ancestors and lineage (as well as the previously mentioned remembering of forgotten memories of my self).

Later, during the evening/night, I decided to revisit the dragonfly from my dream and did this in a shamanic travel.

As I started to think about visiting the dragonfly ally through the means of a shamanic journey I started to see these pastel type colors on velvety scarfs. Each scarf a different color. The scarfs were floating in the air and mixing with each other a bit. (I remembered how I would do this with a bunch of kids, blow different unicolor scarfs into the air and then blow on them to keep them floating about and how magical this was for the kids and me, plus quite pretty too).

As I set my intent to learn about the dragonflies I found myself watching the aurora. The same colors as before in the scarfs were dancing before my eyes in the sky. Beautiful. I met the dragonfly man from my dreams and he motioned for me to watch this play of northern lights. So I did. This had a certain effect on me . I always found northern lights to be magical and would like to see them in real waking life one day . Of course, I was also reminded of the scarfs blowing about . Magic, lightness, wonder, happiness. 
I realized that the colors of the aurora are similar to the colors a dragonfly can have. The Aurora and the scarfs specifically reminded me of the wings of the dragonfly. The wings are pretty and colorful but also have this quality of being ageless and very light... and ofc like magic. They also link to illusion (but not as in fake), rather something linked to vision and the way you see - how things become more colorful and vibrant. And this is a quality of the dragonfly ally. -- this links to my dream where I saw a little different. In the dream, I thought it was due to my awareness level but I realize at this point that it is due to the quality that the dragonfly brings with it.



We come to a river which is quite calm. I observe the fluidity and mirroring of the water. And I can see the aurora again but this time thanks to the mirroring on the surface of the water.

The dragonfly man takes some water into his palms and drinks it, he then wants me to do the same. He takes some more water from the river and gives me to drink from his palms. I could also see the aurora in the water he was holding as he and I drank it .




The next thing he does is to motion for me to lie down on the ground like he does. So we lie on the grass and it is like we are going inside the ground. But not by moving into it with our bodies - those are still there on the grass. It is more like by going inside myself I am going inside the ground. Like the space that separated me from the ground disappeared and I can just fall into myself and keep going into the ground. By doing this I also go into my past of sorts - I find this links to my ancestors. Like suddenly where there was a boundary there is more space and I can go into the roots, into this space that opens, this space inside myself (it is quite intriguing to discover that I have spaces in myself like that which I do not usually use). I am pretty sure this ally is showing me this precisely due to my recent connecting with my ancestors and my intents to continue doing that in the future. 
The dragonfly maybe even came to me as an ally in my dreams because of what I am trying to do with my ancestry/lineage and because I am trying to connect to my past. So its help twofold, one is to open that gateway or show me where to go to get that link and the other is that it helps me see the colors of things so maybe if I look into the past and find it is bleaker or faded that it helps see things more alive and more vividly.

The water can also easily be seen to link to life, and by being so connected to water the dragonfly also has a connection to life. And the flow of life - which I guess could again be linked to the past - to memories and ancestors. 

The dragonfly man tells me to come again. I am sure I can deepen the thing we are doing with the earth. He says he is ready to help me. I thank him and I also thank him for coming into my dream. He smiles and I feel this is a good place to end. Thanks .

The next thing I did is some gazing at a Labradorite stone and to my surprise what I learn about this stone also links to things I saw connected to the dragonfly and my dream. Plus there was a rune that I saw carved naturally in the stone that again linked to the qualities and aspects that I had discovered. I took this as a kind of positive reinforcement , at least in the sense that when there is a certain type of repetition of stuff it is a positive signal (or at least shows there is power in it).

[Xlyer]

I actually have something meaningful to add for a nice change of pace.
This post reminded me of an encounter i had in the parking lot at school last month.
I had a dragon fly land on my finger mid sentence it was quite a feeling.
The last time i had an insect land on my hand mid sentence in a profound way was 3 or 4 years ago.
it was a red wasp, buts thats a bit off topic.

Back to dragonflies. I remember a book ive had on animal totems and the like. Animal speak by Ted Andrews. Im not entirely hip with the jive enough to know if he is credible in the shamanic community. But the info vibed quite well with me. Anyway. Now I wanted to post the whole section on dragonflies and damselflies.(he combines the two into one section)I'll post a few of my favorite lines in the section.

"The bright colors take time to develop, reflecting the idea that with maturity our own true colors come forth. This is part of dragonfly medicine."

"For many it is difficult to tell the difference between a dragonfly and a damselfly. [...] Dragonflies will often eat while in flight, and damselflies will always land before eating."

"Dragonflies and damselflies inhabit two realms-water and air. The significance of these should be examined."

"Just as light can bend and shift and be adapted in a variety of ways, so can the archetypal forces associated with the dragonfly. [...] Their eyes are kept clean with special combs on their legs and by washing the eyes with water drops collected in the mouth."

"Their realm is the realm of light, and they are only out during the day, as they are cold-blooded. Summer is their most powerful time, as they need the warmth and the light of the sun."

"Life is never quite the way it appears, but it is always filled with light and color. Dragonfly can help you see through your illusions and thus allow your own light to shine forth."

 Nice info in this thread its quite the eye opener.

[glance left]

Cool experience, WG and great information, Xlyer

The only personal experience I have with these beings is when I went to visit a friend in Colorado maybe 8 years ago.  He was a fellow shamanic practitioner...very silent and powerful person, both spiritually and physically.  He took me east of the Rockies to the Pawnee Buttes, which are these magnificent land formations which erupt upward from the relatively flat grasslands which predominate the eastern portion of Colorado.  We hiked down beneath the towering upcropping along an arroyo down to this little hidden cul-de-sac that seemed to mark the end of the wash. This area was protected by a grove of large, broad trees....maybe live oaks?  I can't remember.  But when we settled down to rest and then practice some energetic movements together, we saw a spectacular sight.  Literally thousands and thousands of blue dragon flies swarming around this one particular tree.  We didn't know what to make of the sight/experience....but considered it a good omen overall

[watergaze]

Hello Xlyer and glance

I am glad not to be alone here in my amazement of dragonflies .And, yes, I was wondering if someone will mention their unique movement (thnx glance for the helpful link). My recent discovery quest did not bring this aspect of theirs to the forefront (though it was there in the hovering and such). I also know that bees are quite special in how they can fly... but that is a different story .
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Xlyer wrote:"Dragonflies and damselflies inhabit two realms-water and air. The significance of these should be examined."
Xlyer, does your book say more about the significance of the water and air realms? Just curious what this author says about it .

glance your story is quite magical .

I have had quite a few encounters with dragonflies. Most recently during my summer in Spain. This was quite interesting because I would be in a certain place regularly and only after a certain while did I notice there are sooo so many dragonflies there. It was like I shifted to another layer of reality and could suddenly see what I did not see before. I always feel there is an entrance of magic when dragonflies are around. Like this soft gentle threading of fairy stuff . I love it when during their fast flight they stop right in front of my face and hover (or go slightly left and right) for a second or two .

[glance left]

"This was quite interesting because I would be in a certain place regularly and only after a certain while did I notice there are sooo so many dragonflies there. It was like I shifted to another layer of reality and could suddenly see what I did not see before."

This seems to be a great description of a manifestation of their magical properties.  They represent the magical/ethereal aspect, as mentioned in your post, that may go unnoticed to standard daily awareness...but when awareness is elevated/enhanced...more subtle 2nd attention (or maybe even 3rd attention!  elements become evident

[watergaze]

I agree, glance. Because it is 99% certain that the dragonflies were there even during the days and moments during which I did not see them. Given that they have been there every day after I noticed them and also based on the fact that another person saw them there on a day (though not the same moment) when I did not notice them. So, it shows us again how peculiar our awareness is . 

And really people should bear this in mind... how we are actually partially blind to the world around us.

There was one period in my life... after a lot of inward work that took years.. at one moment the way I saw the world changed. And it is not that different to what happened in my dragonfly dream either (given the vibrant colors and the feeling I am seeing things differently). I all of a sudden started to notice stuff I had not before. I had been walking the same streets for a few years and suddenly it was like I was almost somewhere else. The fact that it was spring and things were popping up and growing around helped, I am sure, but then I had seen quite a few springs in that environment and none had affected me in this way. I would notice colors where before I had not seen any - and I do not just mean on flowers/plants but on buildings and such too. And I noticed the plants and trees and although I always did that to an extent now it seemed like I spotted ones that I had not seen before (same went for certain aspects or parts of buildings). I felt like I am waking up and seeing the place almost like for the first time. And I am thinking what if even this awareness is just a stepping stone like the one I was at before and someday I will walk the same streets and see even more, another layer of beings and colors and such that I cannot yet see - I am pretty sure it could be like this . But of course, wherever the bar can actually humanly reach (whatever heights/strengths one's awareness can actually reach), those moments in my life would not be less magical .

[watergaze]

(part of a) dream (from) 30.1.2018 written on 13 Apr 2018
I dream a dream in which the setting and attire of the characters in the dream shifts. Before this shift happened I saw a girl that caught my attention because of her wearing things that were like snowdrop earrings I bought from an Orkney artist. She had parts of this snowdrop ornament as a necklace, bracelet and little snowdrops were sewn into her top and it was quite interesting and pretty. I was kinda envious hehe, just a little . It was in part a bit strange how her accessories were like done in the style of just a part of the snowdrop ornament. And it had a kind of cool metallic feeling to it. But all in all it was quite a striking look and I really liked the little snowdrops in the top.
(---all in all this snowdrop being was very intriguing and interesting, thinking back it could have been the spirit of the flower/plant [that I saw on a shamanic journey later - I did it in February]. It is one of the flowers that I have seen in heightened awareness during my Dragonfly dream some 2 nights before this dream and I was thinking maybe I could go do a journey to learn more about the 3 flowers I saw and then it occurred to me that omg I had a part in my dream which linked to snowdrops - I totally almost forgot it, phew glad I did not.)

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I (22 Feb 2018) wrote:
I continued my exploration into the dragonfly dream by looking further into one of the flowers that I saw in my dream... exploring is great . It never ends... the stuff that is contained within one dream is like a universe of possibilities of learning and exploring. I should take another go at it soon .
I am not noting this part down because, similarly as to why I did not go into what I saw during my stone gazing, I just cant write it all . And this would go into different directions too... linking to other links...  

(In short, (to make a memo for myself here), I connected with the flower, saw its spirit. I understood something better but I was also shown something I did not understand and will need to check on again at a later time. Although at a later time I understood it a bit more, I am still not totally there yet...)

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I (27 Mar 2018) wrote: The thing is that the dragonfly dream also gave me one message that I did not mention more explicitly before. I dunno why, I guess it was more specifically private (as in relating to a very specific thing) and with all the stuff I was already focusing on it kinda slipped through the cracks. It relates to the 3 flowers that I have seen. One was snowdrops, one was I think forget-me-nots and the third I think was violets (or maybe a herb from my childhood that is used for example to make tea, of similar violet color, a type of thyme) - all three are small flowers, all three of them, are perennial.
I have been doing an exercise with a friend that links to perennial flowers. Seeing the flowers in my dream not only helped me re-spark those efforts but also gave me an idea about a different layer of how to do this exercise. 

As you may have noticed, I am quite the stone girl, not a flower girl. So having flowers in my dream that are perennial and etc. was not a coincidence. But also, I really love snowdrops . And I did a shamanic travel to look into the snowdrops and that led somewhere too... though I did not write the specifics about that here.

Now I have a bunch of snowdrops planted in a pot on my balcony . I found them while doing another exercise "Everything is a mystery." It really is all more and more connected lol. It is like everything I do, be it a dream, a shamanic travel, a seminar, a walk in the woods, homework for the seminar, etc. gives me a piece of a puzzle. The more I do the more pieces I have and the more it all starts coming together. But also leads me to the next step of it all. I almost cannot believe it sometimes. I wish it would continue and continue... 
I got some seed pods in the flower pot from these snowdrops. I read that does not happen all that often. New plants should grow from these seeds eventually and flower in a few years. I am quite curious to observe all this. It seems to me symbolic that I might be able to see the development from the ground zero stage .

[watergaze]

I (21 Mar 2018) wrote:So, this dream (the dragonfly dream) still keeps giving me stuff to ponder. After having my shamanic seminar, I was surprised somewhat to find myself looking back to the dream when the shaman was talking about certain things. She mentioned about how we can grow into the inside of ourselves - this linked for me to my shamanic travel where I lay down on the ground and felt this space between me and the earth, like deep in me there was space I had not been aware of before (surely had not felt it that clearly) or was not using really and this space linked to my roots and knowledge of ancestral stuff and linked to who I was at the core of my being. The shaman said that there is a deep layering into the inside of ourselves into a position that we have but stopped using. We probably used it when we were children.

And then a day or two later the symbolism behind the building falling down around me while I was holding on to this construction metal rod stuff on the corner of it.... well this links to habits too. Kinda like what we cling to when things around us are falling down. But habits I mean like the construction of who I am. This is what was happening in the dream at that point. My construction was breaking down and once it broke down - with the help of the dragonfly ally - I entered a heightened state of awareness and that is when I met the shaman. And this is also why she was telling me stuff about myself. I mean who would have thought it is all connected...? Right?! roflmao. This was hmm Monday (5.3) after a seminar I didn't plan to go to. I mean imagine! I almost missed this revelation process, cause it would not have been sparked if I had not gone to the seminar. Leave it to the shaman to help explain my dream from what over a month ago (without even intending to haha).

(It is like certain dreams need threads of their own to put all the exploring linked to them into that thread to keep it nicely compactly together. But the most curious thing is how much is hidden in one dream - too bad we cannot explore all of them that deeply)

[watergaze]

I (24 Mar 2018) wrote:I got a reminder this Monday that the Dragonfly is waiting for me - I think I should go for a visit soonish . 

I found a paper this Monday (19.3) with a dragonfly picture on one side and 2 dragonflies on the other. The strange thing is, looking at it now, I have a feeling I have seen this somewhere before. Like years ago... hmm.
I (13 Apr 2018) wrote:I saw that Dragonfly poster again - this time in big and pinned up to a notice board. I was reminded that I still gotta check on this in a shamanic travel and also update my thread on this in the main part of the forums - so much to do damn it
c. on the 1st of May: my sister gave me a dragonfly nail-file (she had no clue about my dragonfly experiences). She gave me a choice among a few and one of them had a dragonfly on it.

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since I am noting down my dragonfly memorabilia...

A bout 2-3 weeks after the dragonfly dream I was walking through an old an famous town doing some shopping (for myself and others to bring as gifts). I went into one shop where I was taken aback how the merchandise looks like things created by the people in my shamanic circle. It was interesting to be there and observe this. I went all the way back to the shop where there was a little alcove in the wall. I found there a hand-made dragonfly brooch. I looked how much it cost and was surprised it was a nice price. I went to buy it. At the cashier the price that I was asked to pay was more than double what I read on the back. I decided to buy it anyway - at that point I could not turn back cause I knew this was no coincidence (me not seeing the right price made it that I got to the cashier and I knew it was meant to be given it was a dragonfly and the shop style and everything. I checked later how I could not have seen the right prize and saw that the first number, which was 1, was so on the edge of the price sticker and given it was a 1 it just kinda looked like the edge of the sticker and then there was a space where one could fit like 3 other numbers and then the rest of the price, which is why I considered the rest of the price as the real price lol). I wore it on my winter coat (and it still is there just that it is not winter anymore). It was amazing to have around. I felt like I got a friend coming along everywhere hehe.
The interesting thing about this dragonfly brooch is that the wings can be moved and adjusted . It seems a bit more alive and free like that to me . The winds are made from a silvery wire, which gives them a gentle sparkly side. In the body of the dragonfly are 4 freshwater (I think) pearls. For me this links to my shamanic travel where the setting was by water. The body after the pearls is the beginning of the tail and that part has a spiral going down to the tail. I did not think of this before but since I am looking for meanings and symbols I can say this seems to link for me to how I felt when I was lying on the ground and suddenly there was this space between me and the ground through which I could go somewhere... and all the way to the roots.

One other thing that I saw in town was a beautiful big crystal (glass) dragonfly (larger than life size). made of different colored crystals and siting on a branch. Very expensive

The first dragonfly thing I got was earrings in Orkney last summer. It was a greatly magical time for me and I knew dragonflies held magic for me. I felt they were a great way for me to keep the memory of that magical time in some physical form (though now ofc they hold many other meanings for me too). A few weeks after I went to Spain and encountered many dragonflies (as I already mentioned).

[watergaze]

I was reminded of dragonflies again at some point but I forgot to note that down. I would use the paper I found before as a bookmark. I kept reminding myself, waiting for a good state/time/mood/moment to go do a shamanic travel but still I did not find the time / proper state to go and check on what the dragonfly wanted to show / tell me. Why? Well, I don't know. I guess I did not feel the proper state for it or whatever the hell one thinks in these moments. I was exploring other for me amazing things on my path and discovering things and it kinda took my attention. 

(a part of a) dream from 29.4.2018
Fairy from the north. I put it into my 'sister's' room. 
We almost argue about something linked to the fairy. but it is more like an opinion difference not a real argument. The fairy is pretty cool. Reminds me a bit of dragonflies. It has a blue body or dress or wings. But blue that is not like normal blue but kinda icy, which is why I thought that she is from the north.

[watergaze]

I traveled again to a different town / country to go to a seminar. 
Early in the morning (on Saturday 12.5) as I was on my way to the place I was staying at, I found a dragonfly's wing on the road. A wing from a balancing dragonfly toy. One wing out of 4. I picked it up and put it in my pocket. (Some weeks ago at some point after my dragonfly dream I was looking online to see if I could buy this toy cause it fascinates me and I also saw a documentary on how this toy is made. Hence I could recognize the wing immediately for what it was). 
Once I left my luggage at the place, I went to the seminar. On my way there I saw a dragonfly pendant in a window display and a dragonflies painted on long-sleeved top that was on display there too. I took a picture. 
As I had a moment while in sitting in a mode of transport and since I had gotten 3 different prompts in a row I was like damn it ok I am doing this NOW. No more waiting. And so I went into a different state then and there. 

I went to the place where I met the dragonfly man under the aurora. The dragonfly was there waiting. This time though it had wings. The wings were beautiful, of aurora colors. The colors were moving with the wings. They were alive. The dragonfly came to me and we hugged. Its wings wrapped around me, cloaking me in its colors. An interesting thing happened then. The tips of the dragonflies wings started attaching to my back. They went inside me and it was as if they were my wings now going from my back outwards. The space into which the wings grew was linked to the inside space in me the dragonfly had showed me previously. not just that, thanks to the exercises I did about 'everything being a mystery' I was noticing how certain as if echoing sounds resonate and straighten something in me. As these wings attached I felt how I was straight and how this space in me is there and these things seemed to go hand in hand. 

And another thing came into play because I remembered that years ago there was a girl who got a cloak in one of the shamanic travels. And how I understood that this is a representation of a certain state of awareness. I am not sure if hers was a multicolored cloak, but I decided I should check on it.

I went to the seminar. It was great... The next day (13.5) I was running a bit late but again on my way to the seminar I found myself with some time in the transport vehicle and there was free wifi in some parts of the town. So I put in multicolored cloak or some such search terms and started reading about Joseph from the Bible but I did not get very far (I only managed to load one page and there they kinda mixed the two Josephs and I was kinda mixed up). I shared my experience with people at the seminar. One in my group told me the story of Joseph and his cloak and about there being a musical about it. (-- I will get back to this in a bit.)

[watergaze]

I kept pondering as I was traveling from the seminar to another town again...

I realized some things. I will write here this: Looking at my life I noticed before how colors are/were for me. At one point in my life I stopped wearing them. I went black . I felt best in black. It calmed me. Something happened that had this result for me (but there was no one event that I can pinpoint as this is what did it). At some point in my life I was basically ok with just black or white. And green here and there - cause that is a color I felt connected to since childhood.

As I worked on my inner bs I slowly incorporated more colors into my wardrobe again (but ofc this was not only a thing of clothes but also objects around me). I felt closest to green, with that I had least trouble and I started using it again. Then I got to red. Then violet and purple. Then I found things where I really liked orange - like a blanket for example. A major breakthrough was when I started wearing blue - this was linked to having finally dealt well enough with certain childhood issues linking to a family member. The first blue piece of clothing I bough in years or probably ever was at a shamanic seminar and it took me a year or more to actually wear it. Then I started loving it and bough another blue Tshirt and loved wearing that one too. Then came some earrings and etc etc. When we were kids our parents assigned different colors to us - I got green (toothbrush, shirt, etc) and the other person got blue. This was based on our eye color but it was used as a practical thing so we knew which thing was whose. I had trouble with the person so I didnt feel connected to blue I guess. Weird lol. Anyway, so it went... and not too long ago I finally started being OK with pink. That was kinda the last of the bunch. Grey was just before pink... cause I found grey to be kinda lifeless and people here wear it too much they are like monochrome idiots, eer professional people. So its like one goes into a shop that tries to sell decent clothes you get it all in black white and grey. No colors. Speaking of which this indicates the same problem/ issues I was battling but seen on a different layer of our society.  Mind you... I had noticed the thing with the blue color and having dealt with the issues I had linked to the family member but I was totally blind to this other stuff happening with the colors. How my color palette was slowly but surely expanding to include all colors. Ofc I had noticed at one loong ago point that I am no longer all in black or white but well I mean that seemed kinda like a natural development, so called being more mature or some such lol.

it really is like my journey in this regard was like going back to a more natural state. because it was not the case that I started off with no colors. but in effect I think I expanded my palette in the end, maybe, cause I cannot remember all the details of how it was that long ago, before I started to think of blue as not my color etc. 

pondering all this, I felt that I had gone quite a journey. And the colors were like my milestones (there is such a thing as color therapy too though I don't know anything about it lol). And now I have come to a very big one. And indeed the dragonfly wing cloak in this sense is an amazing symbol of my growth in this regard. 

I am now remembering how the dragonfly man gave me to drink of the aurora colored water...  This was, looking back, in preparation of putting on the cloak. So was becoming aware of the space that I can grow into inside myself.

[watergaze]

So, I got to one of my homes. And I had internet and time to research a bit and read up on stuff. So I read Joseph's story. He was a dreamer and could interpret his and others' dreams. He received a multicolored cloak from his father and his brothers envied him for this and also because of what the dreams said. They did him harm and sold him into slavery telling their father that he was killed. Joseph later in the story interprets a few dreams, averts a catastrophe and is considered to be a seer by the Egyptian pharaoh. He married the daughter of a Pagan priest (of On, the greatest of seers. The city of On was known as the Heliopolis = The city of the Sun. It was the center of worship of the sun god Ra. It seems to me interesting because there seems to be a marriage of dream/night/moon prophet/seer and sun/light seer lineages - kinda like he grew to incorporate that other aspect of being a seer/prophet too). Joseph later reunites with his family and forgives them. I also found Tamar's story about how some think she was a priestess, healer and "mistress of dreams" and she was said to have a multicolored robe/cloak as well. 

It seemed to me that the cloak links to dreams and dreaming.

I mean, even the musical is called "Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat"

I dare say I do not know that much about it at all, but this at least makes some sense to me . 
And as far as my experience with dreams goes... Dreams have been showing me things my whole life (as far back that I can remember any dreams at least)...

[watergaze]

A day later in the morning I got to the musical... Putting it into search I got a song that was called: Any Dream Will Do.

I played the song (there were two to pick from but one had "Give me my colored coat" in the title and the other didn't so I picked the colored coat one DUH) and listened to the lyrics. To my surprise I had heard this song before. 
(To be sure, just a few days previous a member of Ravenfield referenced this song in a totally different context in one thread (but no one gave a link to it then and I did not inquire)

Any Dream Will Do / Give Me My Colored Coat


(Jospeh)
I closed my eyes, drew back the curtain
To see for certain what I thought I knew
Far far away, someone was weeping
But the world was sleeping
Any dream will do

(Joseph & Children)
I wore my coat, with golden lining
Bright colors shining, wonderful and new
And in the east, the dawn was breaking
And the world was waking
Any dream will do

(Joseph)
A crash of drums

(Narrator)
A flash of light

(Joseph)
My golden coat flew out of sight

(Joseph & Narrator)
The colors faded into darkness
I was left alone

(Joseph, Narrator & Children)
May I return to the beginning
The light is dimming, and the dream is too
The world and I, we are still waiting
Still hesitating
Any dream will do

(Full Company)
May I return to the beginning
The light is dimming, and the dream is too
The world and I, we are still waiting
Still hesitating
Any dream will do
Give me my colored coat
My amazing colored coat
Give me my colored coat
My amazing colored Coat

[watergaze]

This song helped me a lot. It triggered a kind of emotional cleansing / epiphany. It came at the right moment, I was ready for it. I cried like a baby , there was a mix of many emotions involved. Not least of all gratitude. There was some sorrow in it too, linked to these things happening, linked to the feeling of loss and how one then has the longing for wholeness... but there was also an acknowledgment of the fact that there is a path towards it, one that actually works... and hence again gratitude for that.

In short, the song tells of the loss that most of us experience during our life. It is a change from being connected to our inner soul and everything around us to a state of being disconnected. And expresses this heart-felt wish to return to that state from before the loss. In Joseph's case this is seen also externally on him losing his family and his multicolored coat.
The words "may I return to the beginning" are at the core of it all. And some say this is what it is all about for us warriors. Returning home is another way to say something similar. For me it also links to memory, after being disconnected from a certain state or level of awareness we also often lose the memory of what happened when during that state. Similarly, when there is a soul loss, sometimes the soul part takes the memories with them. Returning to the beginning is a returning to wholeness.

Maybe the only thing I would change about the song is the "any" part. I am surely not up for "any" at the stage I am at. But it shows the desperateness of Joseph - he lost a certain reality, state of awareness and any glimpse into it would be better than what he has now.

My stanza by stanza analysis/interpretation of the song:

(Jospeh)
I closed my eyes, drew back the curtain
To see for certain what I thought I knew
Far far away, someone was weeping
But the world was sleeping
Any dream will do
---- Joseph is a dreamer. Going into dreaming means opening the world and being able to see the truth of things. For him closing his eyes is not about shutting down but about opening up. As he is falling asleep he basically draws back the curtains to see. But it also seems his intuition is strong. He intuits the truth and then the dreams show it to him more clearly and for certain. He is connected to the world and others (he knows/feels someone is weeping far away and that others are sleeping). Any dream will do -- here I can see it in more ways. He is fine with / cherishes anything that comes to him from this state. He is grateful for any glimpse coming from this unordinary state. 

(Joseph & Children)
I wore my coat, with golden lining
Bright colors shining, wonderful and new
And in the east, the dawn was breaking
And the world was waking
Any dream will do
--- He has his coat, which is an external expression of his abilities and state of awareness. It is great when the inner and outer are in sync  (similarly now I am reminded how I felt good in black because inwardly I had a feeling of loss of 'colors' and how as I was healing I started changing what I wore etc). He is still connected to the larger world (he is aware that dawn is coming and feels the people waking). 

(Joseph)
A crash of drums
(Narrator)
A flash of light
(Joseph)
My golden coat flew out of sight
(Joseph & Narrator)
The colors faded into darkness
I was left alone
--- This is the moment of loss or trauma. It happens as a shock (crash, flash). It is unexpected. He is not prepared for it. One could even see a link to soul loss where the coat flies off with the soul fragment and because he is no longer whole he loses a part of his connection, abilities and well-being. As he is no longer whole he cannot wear the coat. The colors fade into darkness - this is the change from his previous to his current state. Now is a state of darkness and he is no longer connected - he is alone (also symbolized by the loss of his family).

(Joseph, Narrator & Children)
May I return to the beginning
The light is dimming, and the dream is too
The world and I, we are still waiting
Still hesitating
Any dream will do
--- Here this is his heart and soul wishing, hoping to get back to the way things were (I wrote about the symbol of 'the beginning' a few lines above). He lost the colors and now he is slowly losing the light and the dream. These are symbols for life. Life in general and for a life that is connected to Spirit. But he has some memory of how it was before and that it is possible. He does not want to give that option up - he is waiting and hesitating - He does not want to give up and content himself with living an 'ordinary' disconnected life.
Any dream will do - here I'd read a hint of desperation. Any glimpse or link to that previous state even if it is painful, sad, terrifying would be better than nothing. (and, for example, we know that often people who are disconnected but have some subliminal connection to power have great nightmares - Florinda was like this too)

(Full Company)
May I return to the beginning
The light is dimming, and the dream is too
The world and I, we are still waiting
Still hesitating
Any dream will do
Give me my colored coat
My amazing colored coat
Give me my colored coat
My amazing colored Coat
--- Joseph keeps wishing. And this is one of the important and useful devices that we have at our disposal - wishing. Impeccable wishing is a great tool. It moves the spirits . He is wishing for this with the whole fiber of his being that he has at his disposal. This is magic and it works. It leads one on a path that works , a path that leads to the beginning - home.

[Kaomea]

Home is important.  For some it is a place, for others it's people.  For me it is a feeling.  

Home is the feeling of being celebrated and cherished.  Valued and loved.  Sort of like a participation trophy for the soul.  I love home.  

I also love exploring and wandering, but when winter comes there's no place better to come in from the cold.  The hearth at home beats all others.  

For some home and family is their literal home and family.  For others it's not blood, but love.  Whatever family and home people are born into or choose as theirs, may it bring them happiness and peace.

People deserve a home and a family who love and support them.  Life is a less c*nt-y experience that way.

[watergaze]

Kao, I like how you go into what home is in the thread you made after you posted here. For others, the thread is: Home is

Home is something that we want to get/return to. What I am exploring here right now (sharing a part of the journey) is HOW . 

The states of before my first dragonfly dream encounter and after the Any Dream Will Do song (so the first and last post in this thread) are different. And the transformation is described in a certain way. It is likely that this way cannot be replicated, surely not in its exactness. But it gives certain hints and certain things that will be similar no matter which specific path one takes (though probably many things cannot be identified by those who have not embarked on this journey, something in us knows nevertheless). The gratefulness was inevitable because I felt the shift and that I came a little but significant step closer. It is a state that does not go away, does not fade. It is like a new stepping stone. 

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Many things are converging for me atm. One example:

Among my first shamanic journeys into the middle world was one about fish that swam up stream. In short (just describing what I saw, not the context of my intent or what I concluded from it or any communication that transpired): I met up with my ally - Bear. I followed Bear to a river. Bear showed me the fish and how some of the fish are swimming upstream. Later, I remembered that salmon are the fish who do this - swim upstream. They swam with more force, obviously, and from time to time they'd jump from the water to make a leap. The other fish continued downstream and would eventually come to the end of the river - the sea. The one's going up would come to the beginning of the river - the source of it. 
Bear was showing me these two ways of hmm, well, being/ living. 
One of the salmon fish sprang up. Bear caught it mid-flight, took a big juicy bite and chewed. This was kinda unexpected hehe. 

At some other point in my life I encountered stuff that returned me to this first journey and it gave me a fuller sense of it all. I was amazed then how our past experiences can grow with us - continue to have relevance and still have things to show and teach us.

The past month I have been looking into myths, legends and fairy tales. I was looking at creation and origin myths, among other things. I was also checking on some specific versions that have been made into animated videos. I found, without really looking for that specifically, a story about how salmon take the advice of bear to swim upstream to find their home (and I am not going to go into details how two weeks before this a white/crystal bear sculpture caught my eye and how after some other prompt I looked into the qualities of this ally).
 
I will not spoil the story, but those who will check it out (or at least read the title heh) will find out how it comes full circle to the stuff I wrote about in the thread here . You might not see all the stuff I see (cause I did not introduce it that well hehe) but some of it will be visible for sure . It is like a story that links my beginning journeys to my latest journeys, while keeping certain other aspects quite precise. It is kinda cool when one finds stuff like that... and it is just floating around the www .

[Kaomea]

It is good that you have these meaningful experiences. Thanks for sharing them, I enjoyed reading them

[Kaomea]

Ah, I also enjoyed listening to them too. The video was on fleek.

What amazing synchronicities you've encountered. Very magical.

[watergaze]

yes, I also find it magical. And I am glad you enjoyed reading the thread, hope others do too (I myself have no clue where it will go from here, if any new post will be able to come here anytime soon or at all hehe. Cause it might shift into a different thing from here. Either way, I think the current resting place is quite nice). 

We all have special stories but of course not all are moved to share them (I mean to say that I think most of the people here have fascinating and magical things happen in their lives).

Although there are synchronicities happening left and right, for me this last part is something more. For me it is a piece that makes things come full circle (which is an additional aspect that, as far as I am aware, is not what a synchronicity is. But I am no expert hehe). This full circle thing is a sign.  

It brings me back to my beginning - my first exploring on my own in shamanic journeying and through that a part of myself. And it brings things together with an aspect of my journey that I had explored (similarly as I had explored the dragonfly aspect that I share in this thread) but thought separate. Now a whole new dimension has merged into it all. Now when I say dragonfly aspect I am 'only' describing a stream/river that comes together with another stream/river to form together a larger new river. And flowing now together, both streams help things come together giving fuller meaningfulness to certain parts. 

It is basically the spot where, like I wrote, there is an air of a new beginning thanks to feeling like one has crossed a certain border or threshold (kind alike the merged rivers are in a way new, but also not, but new too because in their merged form they are something neither of them has been before). And this realization of the merged rivers comes as giving me the next thing to look into and discover on this new layer.

[watergaze]

Wouldn't you know... I am of the Salmon