04-08-2012, 12:00 AM
I think I am losing my human form. I am having amazing connections to spirit while awake. Not much memory from dreaming, but I know my double is there and strong. This DD forum is a place I come to be myself, completely. Where else but within our own warrior party can we lose controlled folly and exist in the moment with totality. I have been thinking about losing the human form and then waiting to burn with the fire from within. What do we do in the mean time, but act from a place of no pity. It is much harder to maintain this shift in the AP then it is to first get here.
A couple of things bothered me lately. Not that I am happy with myself for being petty, but it appears to be a step in losing my form. In both instances, I am defending others when I become aggressive (in my eyes). I do not think I am overly forceful with this aggression; however, it is still not what I want. I am not sure why I get defensive for others. I need to trust in spirit and not let things bother me. I even become protective over DJ and his lineage when others attack it.
So when PerSyd informs (with such authority) that DJ's lineage is misguided in regards to time, I was offended. A nagual does not rush and does not wait. He has perfect timing when he is with spirit and acts impeccabley. This is what DJ taught and accomplished. It was the right time for Julian to find him when he did...that is why it happened that way. To allege that DJ's intent falls in line with the intent of the sorcerers of antquity is the complete opposite of the truth. DJ was only concerend about burning with the fire from within and keeping awareness, flying past the eagle to the 3rd attention. He was not shooting for the realm of the Nagual in the 2nd attention, as MS's article points out (the 2nd thing that bothered me). DJ taught CC how to rise above the trappings of the 2nd attention that the soreceres of antiquity favored. That is why DJ chose the 3 prong Nagual to close the door of the old way of thinking. CC was then charged with the responsibility to open up this lineage to others with a new intent to reach freedom....not stay trapped in the 2nd attention. That is who we are, here from the wolf lineage of spirit. We have gained the knowledge of DJ through CC and will use it for freedom. I think it bothered me a bit when the article kept relating the Death Defiers and the Tenant with the down fall (the trap) of the 2nd attention. Yes, we seek a connection with the Tenant but that is for knowledge, as CC wanted. But we are given the power and beauty of validation of this magical world we live in from the Tenant. We learn, from her.....we seek freedom. I even had the thought that we should change our name to Freedom Fighters (FF). But it does not matter, a name. We are Death Defiers. Not that we want to stay in the realm of the nagual in the 2nd attention.....we want to burn with the fire from within to seek freedom and fly past the eagle with our awarness into the 3rd attention.....thus defing death.
Our party is connected to DJ and CC. Simply due to the fact that; CC's writings of the teaching of DJ.....is our connecting point. This is how we found each other. CC closed the door but opended the window to freedom by spreading the message of DJ's lineage. This connects others lineages all around the world, as this forum proves. We are NLW's lineage and we are on the path to freedom and will burn with the fire from within. The Tenant is a teacher, we do not want to live forever like she does. Maybe our energy brings her closer to freedom.
A couple of things bothered me lately. Not that I am happy with myself for being petty, but it appears to be a step in losing my form. In both instances, I am defending others when I become aggressive (in my eyes). I do not think I am overly forceful with this aggression; however, it is still not what I want. I am not sure why I get defensive for others. I need to trust in spirit and not let things bother me. I even become protective over DJ and his lineage when others attack it.
So when PerSyd informs (with such authority) that DJ's lineage is misguided in regards to time, I was offended. A nagual does not rush and does not wait. He has perfect timing when he is with spirit and acts impeccabley. This is what DJ taught and accomplished. It was the right time for Julian to find him when he did...that is why it happened that way. To allege that DJ's intent falls in line with the intent of the sorcerers of antquity is the complete opposite of the truth. DJ was only concerend about burning with the fire from within and keeping awareness, flying past the eagle to the 3rd attention. He was not shooting for the realm of the Nagual in the 2nd attention, as MS's article points out (the 2nd thing that bothered me). DJ taught CC how to rise above the trappings of the 2nd attention that the soreceres of antiquity favored. That is why DJ chose the 3 prong Nagual to close the door of the old way of thinking. CC was then charged with the responsibility to open up this lineage to others with a new intent to reach freedom....not stay trapped in the 2nd attention. That is who we are, here from the wolf lineage of spirit. We have gained the knowledge of DJ through CC and will use it for freedom. I think it bothered me a bit when the article kept relating the Death Defiers and the Tenant with the down fall (the trap) of the 2nd attention. Yes, we seek a connection with the Tenant but that is for knowledge, as CC wanted. But we are given the power and beauty of validation of this magical world we live in from the Tenant. We learn, from her.....we seek freedom. I even had the thought that we should change our name to Freedom Fighters (FF). But it does not matter, a name. We are Death Defiers. Not that we want to stay in the realm of the nagual in the 2nd attention.....we want to burn with the fire from within to seek freedom and fly past the eagle with our awarness into the 3rd attention.....thus defing death.
Our party is connected to DJ and CC. Simply due to the fact that; CC's writings of the teaching of DJ.....is our connecting point. This is how we found each other. CC closed the door but opended the window to freedom by spreading the message of DJ's lineage. This connects others lineages all around the world, as this forum proves. We are NLW's lineage and we are on the path to freedom and will burn with the fire from within. The Tenant is a teacher, we do not want to live forever like she does. Maybe our energy brings her closer to freedom.