12-14-2016, 12:00 AM
i left RF a long time ago, since then i have started dreaming quite well now, every night. i somehow lack a bit of control sometimes, but im getting to a point where im not just going along with the narrative and actually doing things. i might rejoin RF again some time soon, I have been drawn to that place again, i've been seeing omens about it. i feel sad that i didn't have the power to stay there and was kinda all over the place last time, i feel like i'm in a better place now to work on my dreaming practice.
monday night 12.11.16
i wanted to go to my old hood to hang out, i got on a bus but the lady bus driver didnt want to drop me off at the stop i wanted to get off at, there was a lady trying to get on the bus but the driver refused, it was kinda weird bus, the reason was a crazy man who would use his gloves as a breaking system, instead of using the breaks. so i got off the bus at this other stop which turned out to be better for me and i never realised that before. i was walking around, went to the shops and bought some food for dinner, then realised as i was walking thru the hood that i didnt live there yet and so i didnt have a house to go to make the food. i was looking around for a place to rent, and i could see the insides of the houses and picking out which buildings suited me, what configurations i liked. as i was walking i saw kids playing football in the street, i decided to go home and walked thru the fields, there was a group of kids, the boys wanted to pick on me, but i saw the moon and it was really crazy looking, like a mechanical silver and spinning round, i said 'look at the moon!' to distract them, then the moon started spinning and the perspective went weird as it bounced around and landed on the grass and became small (after being really big), Serloco was there (he never talked and people were confused by him cos of it) the kids were in awe of the moon spinning really small on the grass and tried to pick it up and make it their's but serloco shook his head and cracked an egg over the moon. i got the idea that it wasn't the way to try and control the moon or 'want' the moon. just before i woke up Serloco was showing me words that are powerful, it was like a series of notes written in a book like a flip book, they were special words and each one was written in a cursive style, the last one i saw before i woke up was amazing cos the way it was written showed how it moved consciousness upwards as you read it, it ended with an upwards inflection that seemed to lift the mind, i was amazed but i couldnt remember the words afterwards, one of them was 'success'.
i travelled instead to los angeles, where i have been before, or maybe it was san fransisco, cos of the layout of the houses, met FM from a famous band (this is the second time i have met him in dreaming in the last few months), this time i didnt bring my 'crazy friends' as he put it, they were people from my past that i used to hang out with, he didn't like them. we were hanging out and then we went to a store where you could print whatever you wanted on clothes, but i just wanted a couple of hoodies and some jogging pants, without anything printed on cos i didnt have anything to print on them, but in the end i decided not to buy them. FM wanted to play a new album he had in the van on the way home, we all got inside and listened to it, it was the best stuff i heard in a long time, (in waking life, this album doesn't exist). we hung out in the patio which i have been before, smokin and drinking. then i saw a bear from the window, a really big brown bear, and it was running away and there was another one, they were friends. it turned into a computer game that we were all playing, except this time the bears were white and it was snowing, when i was watching them play it was like a normal 3d type perspective game, but when i played it i was the bear. the bears were fighting and FM said that when he played it he never fought - that bears don't really like to fight like they show you in nature documentaries, and he showed how the bears hugged and became friends (relating to the Tao te Ching i was reading before bed) - he said that it was better to be gentle and have a loving heart. i started to play the game but became stuck in one part of the scenery and unable to move forward very much cos of the snow.
monday night 12.11.16
i wanted to go to my old hood to hang out, i got on a bus but the lady bus driver didnt want to drop me off at the stop i wanted to get off at, there was a lady trying to get on the bus but the driver refused, it was kinda weird bus, the reason was a crazy man who would use his gloves as a breaking system, instead of using the breaks. so i got off the bus at this other stop which turned out to be better for me and i never realised that before. i was walking around, went to the shops and bought some food for dinner, then realised as i was walking thru the hood that i didnt live there yet and so i didnt have a house to go to make the food. i was looking around for a place to rent, and i could see the insides of the houses and picking out which buildings suited me, what configurations i liked. as i was walking i saw kids playing football in the street, i decided to go home and walked thru the fields, there was a group of kids, the boys wanted to pick on me, but i saw the moon and it was really crazy looking, like a mechanical silver and spinning round, i said 'look at the moon!' to distract them, then the moon started spinning and the perspective went weird as it bounced around and landed on the grass and became small (after being really big), Serloco was there (he never talked and people were confused by him cos of it) the kids were in awe of the moon spinning really small on the grass and tried to pick it up and make it their's but serloco shook his head and cracked an egg over the moon. i got the idea that it wasn't the way to try and control the moon or 'want' the moon. just before i woke up Serloco was showing me words that are powerful, it was like a series of notes written in a book like a flip book, they were special words and each one was written in a cursive style, the last one i saw before i woke up was amazing cos the way it was written showed how it moved consciousness upwards as you read it, it ended with an upwards inflection that seemed to lift the mind, i was amazed but i couldnt remember the words afterwards, one of them was 'success'.
i travelled instead to los angeles, where i have been before, or maybe it was san fransisco, cos of the layout of the houses, met FM from a famous band (this is the second time i have met him in dreaming in the last few months), this time i didnt bring my 'crazy friends' as he put it, they were people from my past that i used to hang out with, he didn't like them. we were hanging out and then we went to a store where you could print whatever you wanted on clothes, but i just wanted a couple of hoodies and some jogging pants, without anything printed on cos i didnt have anything to print on them, but in the end i decided not to buy them. FM wanted to play a new album he had in the van on the way home, we all got inside and listened to it, it was the best stuff i heard in a long time, (in waking life, this album doesn't exist). we hung out in the patio which i have been before, smokin and drinking. then i saw a bear from the window, a really big brown bear, and it was running away and there was another one, they were friends. it turned into a computer game that we were all playing, except this time the bears were white and it was snowing, when i was watching them play it was like a normal 3d type perspective game, but when i played it i was the bear. the bears were fighting and FM said that when he played it he never fought - that bears don't really like to fight like they show you in nature documentaries, and he showed how the bears hugged and became friends (relating to the Tao te Ching i was reading before bed) - he said that it was better to be gentle and have a loving heart. i started to play the game but became stuck in one part of the scenery and unable to move forward very much cos of the snow.

