Nagual - Discussion & Dreaming Thread

[NagualHuman]

1/14/00:01 AM

I was in a dream in a rain on some brazilian town on the edge of jungle.
I had memory -  flying by G-4 Plane with some friends,on airport they gave me shawl over eyes so I saw nothing, until we arrived by limusine with drinks in some noisy arrea, the pulled shawl off and we were big party on beach in rain ,we made few friends and big party of people on same vibe and we decided to go into some big city vlub,  then lost my money in Crystal Casino , weir pissed off and gone to the place which should be some mansion of one guy who leads us there and , but I lost myself when talking to a woman and friends left me on the halfway - right there.
then I remember scratch on face like a teeth of snake and forgot what happened next
I never knew how I got into that moment, but it felt so real, the lost of cash the resources and emptiness, looking at the lightining falling across windswept trees and blackness of the big old forest.
I gone into jungle, I was ready to day, wet to the bone and without knowing where how or what I am going to do I tightened my lungs, breathed fully and ran into the darkness as my death told me to so.
I was enveloped by the darkness, noise, trembling of trees and heavy rain and the pain of lost of sense replaced by fear of Unknown on a tiny muddy forestpath, I was in a state of total emotional deception, I felt that if my death is to come, I have to go to her, after several hours of seemingly straightfoward walk through night. after few more hours through nothing and fear of something big jumps on me, light started to glow in its grey unscrupulous manner once more, and I appeared on a beach between big rocks, I stepped on the wet, yet warm sand and looked into the storms hapening on the far sea on horizon and one big white Oversea Cruise Ship almost calmly passing through it. A small boat making its way towards the small rocky gulf in which I almost frozen with feets cold in the deep sand, I was unconcerned of the ship arrival on the beach from which the three men were twittering about me and glancing at me strangely, when they did, I pulled me legs and shaken them steadily so that my legs are clean of da wet sand, and repaid the eye contact to the guys already jumping into sea and holding on the rocks the boat, few meters on the 3hours, before they came to me and said "See, guys I said he will come in time" one with moustache and red shirt said "It depends if he has the courage", came or slided to me this men and shaken head strange on me, like if he is going to beat my ass. I wasnt taking care of him, I just overlooked his and was still standing there unconcerned, without emotion or a word on face.
Then the man in blue vest who tiing the rope around rock so that ship does not go astray on the raging sea, laughed and the red man stoped to pierce or mutilate me to act agresively by eyes. blue men gave me a smile and a friendly place and came to me and handed me a hand for a shake, I took it friendly with calm pressure on the hand and He smiled and glanced with one eye on me and said in a "uncompromising" but not "selfish" low tone of voice "You are here, we can kill you anytime" The man with the moustache and brown decent hair started to play with a curved knife and smiling viciously.
I smiled and said "I know this sorta ****, what about you give me a ride and I'l cause no problems." the man in blue, nodded and said "Okay" and he released my hand from the "handshake". The atmosphere went very silent, as if everyone knew what is goin on, but in reality noone knew. As we started boarding ship, I noticed that these guys act to me in total detached manner, I never met them before, yet they seems reliefed from the fact that I am going with them, a strange thoughts started to fall out of my head as I were holding the railing a piece of rope so that I dont fall off from the small boat while big sharp waves were crushing and bending the wooden flooring of the little boat, which was bending and slippery creaking, while all the salt cold water was piercingly thrown every few moments into my face, as we were darting through the immensive massess of dark sea. I was sitting in the front.

[NagualHuman]

dream recap. after short nap 1/16/00:01 AM

interloop shift,we are landing the small coy of the white cruise ship, entering on on the ledge and going by the wooden plated corridor of white steel,                                                                      
the ship looks very expensive and somehow modern and stylish, met a guy with a beard,
 big fellow talking with scotting accent "Wheres your ticket, Boy ?" and looked into sides showing with his arms like that the ship is his.
I was started to unrelentlessy hunt any items which could be considered as worthy by this calculative and venomous posture which he holded.
The three guys behind me started to be distorbud and nervously sniffed around my back, while cracking  in joints - stretching hands.
After while in which the atmosphere was so tin, that the buddy behind will just stab me into back and bye-bye *food for sharks*.

I breathed fully inside myself a showed my empty pockets with a sigh and smile, the Scotish owner of the ship starts to laugh and say
"Okay, I dont like unwelcomed visitors, but I give you a chance,
here is a rope" He grabbed something in his back and handed me a rope that was tied to the safe-rescue red circle of first help.
I take the rope and he looks on me like I doesnt exist. He says "Jump anytime you want, lets see what you can make."
I stand here, smile and look unbelievably on the rope with in my hand and shrug my shoulders with a face that "how the *** he can does this to me ?
a lone soul on the big sea without a place or known ?"
then I swiftly moved 180degrees took the rope between my teeth, and slapped the main red shirt with moustache.
With other hand already on the railing, I jumped off into the rain and sea, I heard something like a scream from some room on the seemigly empty yacht
picked the rope into my hands and was able to quickly repulse my self off the side of the ship by legs and strongly holding the wet linen rope in my hands,
I heard laugh from upside, I had to glance up as someone made me slide on the side in the raging high sea which flushed off the side and salt water got in my lungs.
I was there like a snake - tossing myself on the swinging side of the ship, pouring in water and slippery, then something like *error* or 'crash' happened and my thoughts
or feeling of pain and discomfort lost, in that moment, it was like if time stopped and I was for several minutes in absolutely other dream, I saw the depths and my fall to the despair below my feet,
Very, very angry sea, or straining my muscles to the definition of pain. My body gave off the final statement, it was like instict and showed me back, some old friends call animal instict or ferociousness.
I twitched with my body so hard that I jumped of and twisted myself into a decent mountain climber position, I made a step and saw the moustache man cutting the rope, I saw a fire in the window while making the several three or more steps, and something like a woman voice, then lighting sounded across whole my perception, and field of my light was strucked by the lighting that felt straight into boat.
It made the man in red to twitch himself and cutted the rope immidiately, as he was swirled by the wave that came on the left of the boat.
It felt like eternity, I just heard a swirl of the rope sliding by my weight with speed to the depths of the sea, and then a almost hot warmth holding me across hand from the window.

[NagualHuman]

[NagualHuman]

Before some time months ago, I came to sleep I had a dream - I appeared in the white clouds, on the endless lightened blue sky filled with white fluffy-breathy clouds and no sun was here.
I was standing on the cloud and before me was a wooden ladder, which was dissapearing between the white clouds above and beneath the one I was standing on, then a woman stepped down from a cloud above on the ladder and standed before me, facing me, she was a head bigger than I, naked and her hair was of light that shined intensively, her skin was very white. I felt that she is like god and I felt I would love at the atmost deepness of my heart to interact with her, but also I was little dazed, I was feeling a bit out of myself. I never met before anyone like that before and my eyes felt heavy, I started almost uncomfortably tingling at my heart and from an impulse which I do not know where came, I touched her belly with a finger as I felt somehow thats all I want, the move I made was very fast and almost uncatchable by eye, because I felt that If I would touched her with passionately she could, interpret my intentions in some sexualy-wanting way, which was not my intention at all. A moment after I touched her she said "You touched me!" not with anger or anything like that, but with a childish passion like that it made her enjoy my touch. I said "No" and she nodded and with smile said "Yes, you did". Then I realized that I am wearing a pointy hat and in robe, looking exactly like Sorcerer Rincewind from the Discworld Novel and I felt dont know why ashamed.

[NagualHuman]

Within this dream I realized, that it is of no importance what we are feel and then made to do, but how we interact between the impulse and our realisation; definition of it, because afterwards every eye see if the integrity of ourself within that circumstance is truly eternal; drawn from the utmost potential that we are able to generate for that what we want to dream.
and that the sight of one, who wishes to witness the farest reach of universe, the most enchanting mystery and the truth, has to escape, from the struggle to concieve and simply be that what we already see as the Tranquil Dream.

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