The mastery of controlled folly and self stalking

[warfcat]

I am realising that each day I walk the path, my path becomes more narrow. I havent yet notices the cracks, but i am realising the difference between likes dislikes and actual shadow intent. Sometimes I might dislike a person for certain actions, on my part due to self importance, rather than shadow intent. This was realised by actually reading the energy behind the words, sometimes i must have mistook tone.

Today I learned a lesson about the difference between gossip and opinion. Most people can get away with opinion, I realised that my opinions were mostly gossip. Today I tried to share about something that happened at work with a group of co workers. I remember it got drowned out and i found myself speaking it louder while other people were talking. Right after I said it, i felt the energy change and i developed a pin point of pain on my throat. I know I was walking that fine line, and the architect told me that i was loosing integrity.

Maybe I am not prone to talking, Maybe I have to yet develop more opinions and or content, but aside from sharing feelings and insights, I have few stories of my past, as I have erased almost all of my personal history. The bent of my character is to choose to do nothing, or remain apathetic. It seems only sometimes I can muster the energy to be daring and funny. Truely acting with abandon and do so as if i cared. But it seems this is only granted to me sometimes. Maybe this is the mastery. As There is still much more i need to process before I can decide when To make gestures.

Another thing i should note here too is, that maybe not all of my opinions are opinions to be shared. I am not talking here but rather at work or in public. As I still do not know the difference between What I have Viewed and what I have Seen. It seems i shared an insight today that was not nutured by another co worker, It was an off hand remark by me, but i realised it could have possibly lost its potency from being said. I am quite sure it was a result of seeing the capability of a new supervisor that started.

This is all I have for tonight, anyone is welcome to comment and give insight.
thank you
Warfcat

[serloco]

The mastery of controlled folly deals with the known world. By controlling and even choosing what you know control the reality that you know. What you know is what you get. However, for most I presume, the world is also what you do not know as well. The unknown is much larger then what we know, even if we dont let it in. Since the unknown ultiately knows every secret and way, we must trust it and beckon the best to us through what we know of it. The unknown is perfect. You can intend a great feat without knowing how and yet the unknown guidance will still lead you there. It is because of what you know of the unknown that gets you there. So my comclusion is that the known is still mastery over the unknown as well.

[watergaze]

It is very beneficial to observe (stalk) the nature and specifics of interactions with others. 
To comment more specifically on what you write I'd need more context. For example, I noticed in general that being on the path does not mean we have more options, actually the path narrows - like you mention but I am not sure you mean it here in the same way as I do . The narrowing of the path in the sense that I mean is a pretty interesting phenomenon and it is not negative.

Concerning disliking a person for certain actions.... Leaving things open and free from judgement is freeing. Decisions come from other places then... one is more open to spirit.

Erasing personal history does not mean one has nothing to say about one's past - imo. The having released one's past is not related to not talking or sharing. It is somewhere else  - a different layer. One can share stories of one's past just like one can share stories of a movie one watched last night . 

You know that apathy and inaction are not specifically the desired result or aim, hence you are moving in a good direction in that sense. We are here in this world for a reason. If one is in apathy and inaction then stuff passes us by. And it is no fun .

What is this difference between what you have viewed and what you have seen? I am asking about your use of these two phrases.

It is so interesting to observe the dynamics of conversation. In order to bring certain ideas or comments there needs to be something there that can receive them or work with them. The setting, the mood, the awareness. You can try to bring this setting about of course or just wait for it if there is a chance of it happening on its own. 
And also I find very interesting to note the point after which talking does not make sense any more. This is something I have been observing for some time in the past .

[warfcat]

watergaze wrote:It is very beneficial to observe (stalk) the nature and specifics of interactions with others. 

To comment more specifically on what you write I'd need more context. For example, I noticed in general that being on the path does not mean we have more options, actually the path narrows - like you mention but I am not sure you mean it here in the same way as I do . The narrowing of the path in the sense that I mean is a pretty interesting phenomenon and it is not negative.


Concerning disliking a person for certain actions.... Leaving things open and free from judgement is freeing. Decisions come from other places then... one is more open to spirit.


Erasing personal history does not mean one has nothing to say about one's past - imo. The having released one's past is not related to not talking or sharing. It is somewhere else  - a different layer. One can share stories of one's past just like one can share stories of a movie one watched last night . 


You know that apathy and inaction are not specifically the desired result or aim, hence you are moving in a good direction in that sense. We are here in this world for a reason. If one is in apathy and inaction then stuff passes us by. And it is no fun .


What is this difference between what you have viewed and what you have seen? I am asking about your use of these two phrases.


It is so interesting to observe the dynamics of conversation. In order to bring certain ideas or comments there needs to be something there that can receive them or work with them. The setting, the mood, the awareness. You can try to bring this setting about of course or just wait for it if there is a chance of it happening on its own. 
And also I find very interesting to note the point after which talking does not make sense any more. This is something I have been observing for some time in the past .
 By walking the narrow path, I mean that It seems I have to be more impeccable at every turn. Like spirit is fine tuning my actions.

Well along with erasing my personal history for me, came a sort of alzheimers like state, where I instantly forget everything that has happened. Even words that were just spoken, Maybe this is where I need to work on my recap. But its kept me peaceful atleast. I have trouble recollecting stories from my past, Most of them are funny mind you, but I find my humor is more situational.

I know they are not the desired aim but sometimes i do just feel like sitting there quietly, but I do have great moments of buoyancey. When I speak, I always speak from the heart, Since I have no internal dialogue, these words have to be coming from somewhere lol.

By Viewed and seen I mean as don juan put the term Looked or saw. Did I simply look with my eyes or did I see it with my inner sight. Maybe I have no idea what im talking about, but it just means something that can be witnessed, or something that can be devined through knowing, and the difference between sharing those two things with people.

And what do you mean about talking not making sense anymore? I am trying to relate. Is it when you get so lost in conversation that it becomes like a symbiotic dance between the two people. or do you mean that after so much talking people just loose potency and it becomes just bla.

[serloco]

Remember, everything is awareness. If you think you have to be more impeccable all the time, then your path will be manifest as such. Remember Julian's controlled folly. He learned that nothing really matters and so long as he knew he didnt have to be impeccable then he didnt. He stopped intending that. I think the example made was eating a tray of cookies and leaving none left for anyone else. If you think its wrong then it is, and yet if you think its fine then it is. Controlled folly is just like that. Purposelessness. YOu make your own purpose or none at all.

[glance left]

"If you think its wrong then it is, and yet if you think its fine then it is. Controlled folly is just like that. Purposelessness. YOu make your own purpose or none at all"

I'm certainly learning about the tricky truth of this. It's tricky, in a way, (sorry...the trickster is my ally...to my dismay and utter joy , and thus I get pranked by infinity itself in the context of underscoring this tricky truth...coyote has been pranking me hard these last few days), because there is another element at play. Thinking this and that certainly impacts perception. But what about the impact of suspending thought altogether. Silent knowledge....the insights, impressions, indications, impulses that come flashing in without a single thought to support them...to give them preamble. That's when infinity bleeds through the woodwork with it's purpose. Is that me? Perhaps one could coach it in those terms...hell, why not. The bigger self and all that. But, if I'm honest (and I'm simply speaking for myself here) it feels vastly beyond "me"....out of my control, so to speak. It is awareness...as you say....but an awareness that extends far beyond the perceived boundaries of me and my sense of control.

You used Julian as an example of a master of controlled folly, and you're right....nothing really matters, at least when compared to what's truly taking place at the fundamental level of things...within the third attention. But if read further, there was purpose there...and the purpose wasn't his at all. He truly was impeccable as was don Juan, in this regard. But impeccability had nothing to do with morality, in this we're in agreement. It had nothing to do with a fixed sense of right and wrong. Their impeccability had to do with acquiescence to the spirit and its indications. It's right there in the books....over and over and over again. Julian, with all of his crazy antics and prankster ways was him impeccably following indications from at large in the universe, filtered through the lens of his particular bent of character...his configuration. He was allowed a certain creative license with respect to how the indications were carried out, given his predilections.

Point being is that there is a unbound current out there....and it will proceed according to its inscrutable purpose long after I'm dead and gone. My goal (speaking for myself here! as always ) is to align with that purpose to the best of my ability while I'm woven into this configuration. I don't know what that means...where it will take me...but, when in alignment, the joy of it is incontrovertible.

[serloco]

Well said. I agree, and would add (for me) it is almost like a fate or a destiny. Much of my sorcery deals with time and I see that my destiny was planned for many many years, long before I got here. Time has been laying the road for me to accomplish my ''fate''. It seems to me i chose that fate and yet it was there for me before i made the decision myself. Its like time and space conspired to make this road for me ages ago. Even very old songs , and very old maps, and very old and passed on people all were knowingly playing a role in my path.

I like what you said about silent knowledge and how it seems like it is us but is something much bigger and beyond us. However I must add that silent knowledge is a state that pure awareness can reach. Infinity knows no limits. There is no reason why your own eyes can not see all the answers.

[glance left]

Nice Yeah, I see something of that "fate" laid out for me too (it bleeds through in dreaming all the time), though that seeing is not as clear to me, perhaps, as it is for you. Clarity is improving, though.....slowly but surely Currently, I just get hints...bits and pieces, many of which I don't know what to make of because I can't see the whole.

Anyways..." silent knowledge is a state that pure awareness can reach. Infinity knows no limits. There is no reason why your own eyes can not see all the answers" Yeah, that resonates. The key is that some of the "answers" don't have a lexicon to support the truth of it...so it can't be expressed adequately, when I return to the construct of the tonal. Once "back", I'm just left with these fleeting impressions/memories of wild, intensely vibrant/moving abstractions of energy which sometimes try to take a form but can't quite manage it....so I don't know what's being conveyed, once I'm back "here". What do you do with that kind of thing?

[serloco]

Interesting. Well I would seek to expand my tonal understanding of the abstract and intend cohesion on the new state while entering back into the old state. Raise the awareness of the habitual position in order to retain the understanding of what your beautiful experiences were showing you.

[glance left]

Yeah, that resonates too....thanks, man. Can never go wrong, raising awareness I'll place the emphasis of it....the awareness raising...on the transition as I'm emerging from these states. See what happens

They are beautiful, I agree. A gift..........

[serloco]

Yes, it helps of course to raise your level of lucidity and emain focused on the memories no matter how vivid they may be. The more you focus on the memory before it fades or slips out of reach the more you retain. This act will help build your transition awareness/cohesion better too. Good luck.

[find dharma girl]

1. [Modifying self-importance and omitting personal history are important 'tactics' of earlier detachment that I won't explain]2. [# 1. above is to note that rules and tactics become moot having entered the learning stream of mastering controlled folly]

3. [I AM not going to develop stalking in the realm of controlled folly..  simply said, one is detached and learning.. and, ALL stalking is self-stalking]The mastery of controlled folly and self stalking:  The best place to start:  I AM indulging in perfect depression.  I've done a s*hitload of work the past few years and so I've earned it.  Syzygy has waited for me to reach this point, so we can take a dip in the ocean.
I don't like the metaphor.. I cannot swim well; I only like to look at the water.

However, Syzygy is not near at risk of drowning though the infinite ocean is SURE DEEP.  We survive

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