Stalking with Close Family & Friends

[Gugeyewalker]

I think I GET why Don Juan encourages Castaneda to leave his family and friends. 

Personal history shared with others builds up patterns of both internal and external expectations among close family and friends that can keep people in a mold of behavior. In fact so much so, that if you stalk a different behavior pattern, your actions are almost (sometimes literally) invisible to people who think they know you best. They see you do something that their minds cannot process so they forget it ever happened. Sometimes they see it but don't accept it as true.

...For example. When I worked for a family business I wore a bright red gilligan hat always. I was in the kitchen in plain sight, while we had five family from out of town visit, they were in the lobby and noticed me in the kitchen (without my hat). I wanted my hat before visiting with them. I walked out of the building right in front of all of them hatless to go find my hat at home. I came back with the hat. They said that they were confused because they had jsut seen me in the kitchen. I told them I walked out right in front of them. They didn't believe me and were convinced I had snuck out the back. This is of course a short term example. Imagine if people cannot accept you without the hat, how they might not accept behavior changes after years of seeing you be a certain way.

However for some of us it isn't practical to totally and literally cut off family and friends...

My situation is that I feel I owe a great deal to my grandparents (who are somehow still kicking yet aging). Sometimes I wonder if the 'debt' is a weakness of sorts. However, I would not have thrived, and may not even be a warrior if it weren't for them. Similarly my mother, although she never really read Castaneda, introduced me to his books when I was a late teenager. After some conversations with her I come to find out recently that she has been capable in the past of OBE dreaming to a degree that even I can't do. She has been through so much but somehow still has mountains of sun-like energy (I sometimes speculate that she is a nagual woman).

The downside of all this is that I feel as if I cannot completely change who I am...as in take a new name and let go of personal history in totality. The good side of this is that by being helpful and accessible I am to some degree challenging my own self-importance. After all none of them are abusive or belittleing (any more). Difficult for sure, abusive not so much.

I feel that in my case I have ironed through most of the entrapments that come from family and my freedom is certainly up to me. Ironing through all that took some guts of steel, and there is still just a bit more ironing to go. I am not married and do not have a lover, in the past that was also an entrapment...a reminder when I feel lonely that I should enjoy not being coupled while I can.

I am sure there are many tricks warriors can use to deal with family without leaving them. Would love to hear if you have any.

[serloco]

Family is your awareness of them.. You must forget that they have power to hold you, and begi to realize that they don't. It is in your realm to change them. Suspend your inner dialogue, the expectations you hold of them. Genero wandered out with his ally and could never come back home again. He saw that his reality was his idea of reality, and when his idea shifted so did the reality he was living.. This means that when you stop your judgments of even your closest known family members then they too will shift.. I go home from time to time, but my awareness of people is largly inorganic now after being in the iob world for many years. I have different positions of awareness of the world, and can shift between them affecting the reality around me, including my family members. They become human iobs. Allies. The ally IS everything. And as such everything may be anything. It does not matter if you have an ally or not, it awaits you, and acts from you regardless if you know it or not. You are still sustaining your average positions of awareness and ass such that is the form the ally takes for you.. Shift your awareness, suspend your judgments and you will see reality shift with you.. Erasing personal history is easy, you just let it go, and accept the shift that is becoming. Accept that the world is fluid and in motion, that it changes and it will change. That becomes your idea of the world and your ally as result.

[serloco]

A master stalker may reach his dreaming body in the waking world.. Now here the dreamer dreams the dream. It is a secret that your awareness of reality aligns to form the reality. Your perception is a force, becomes a force that shifts reality around you. This perceptual force exists within everyone.. A secret is that one who gives up his volition may ride the perceptual forces of any other energy generating being.. This means that your mother and father see you in a certain way and shifts you into that role through the force of their perception. Allies are volitionless and as such move easily to your perceptual shifts, becoming as you perceive them to be. They are fluid so long as you are fluid and cohesive when you are cohesive. Allies may have any perception you imagine them to have, and if you think I will shift into a position of don Juan then the Ally that is everything can shift you into that position using their perceptual force. Meaning they look at you as shifting into that position and thus you do. The trick is to learn when to shift using someone else's perceptions and not to shift. With practice you can discern these energies and feel them as they shift you, and with your volition you can let go and become their forced shift and ride it into the position they shift you into or you can deny it and remain in your own position. The ally is formless around you, and you can hinge your perception on it, and even trick it if that is what you perceive and say I am going to shift into an animal, or learn to shift into an animal and the ally will then watch you become that position.. Yes the ally is nothing at all, and so really you are doing it yourself, but the ally is also real, and as you imagine it to be, and can (being that is it everything, nothing, and anything) teach you how to do anything, enter into any position imaginable. The force of your perception may be used on yourself, reflected inwwardly onto yourself. And then instead of perceiving it to be the ally, you can perceive it to be yourself that is moving you. However you do not know so much, and have never been a wolf, or a dragon, an the ally has and knows how to become these positions. I suggest using the ally. And allies exist in the world already, even in forms of people and animals and anyhting in your world.. You can hook their attention to you, and use their perceptions to shift you.

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