Recap, the Art of

[Pixie Dust]

Most are born into their beliefs. Born into a mental and spiritual slavery. Some choose to defy their enslavement.

Distinguishing between freedom and slavery gets confusing. When an enslaved creature is set free, they experience pain. When a free creature is enslaved, they experience pain. Pain is the byproduct of change. Pain is neither good nor bad, only a shift in AP.

Recap looks at that pain and analyzes it in hopes of understanding it. Understanding why it occurred. Understanding how to manage it. Understanding what it really means. Understanding ourselves.

Recap is learning we were programmed to think the way we do. There are some deviants in the upper layers, but our value systems are horrifyingly similar. We were designed to fit a mold by a short-sighted and selfish creator. The blame is not set upon an individual, but a culture of wrongness.

Seek the eagle.

The eagle is also a creator. It brings awareness of self. With knowledge we gain power and freedom, but it all begins with raising self-awareness. It starts with you and ends with the eagle.

After the eagle, well, that's another story for another time.

There are too many mysteries in this world to count. Some small, some large. It's depth is itself a mystery. The mystery of the self is perhaps the most rewarding to resolve. There are secrets of the mind that when tapped into become pure magic.

We are incredible creatures using only a small percentage of our brain power. Use more. Expect more. Be more.

Embrace freedom.

There is so much more left to discover. It's like a universe for nerds. I can't even count the hours I've lost myself in the Halls of Mystery. The most impressive library of knowledge. A true feast for the soul.

Anyway. There's perks for getting past the shitty stage of being human. The 2% operating power of the brain is the shitty stage. Try 5%. Then 10%. And keep moving because it only gets increasingly better.

[serloco]

Hmmm, I like much of what you say. I followed the eagle for years and discovered much. However, I feared the eagle and whole cocoon, gap thingy. I found by investing power and belief in God I surpassed those dangers. I now have no gap and need not a cocoon to live. My God, the Christian God, is amazing and has done way more then the Eagle ever has. I am in battle with myself and my mind posed as an enemy. I as my God to protect me and he does. To protect nature and He does. Make me strong and he does. The Eagle let me down. God doesnt.

I agree with you about the mystery unraveling and vast. It is always there. I use much more of my brain power then average people. I have been unlocking that power for ages. 

I dont understand why you think an enslaved being when set free experiences pain? I have been set free many times, and when I do I experience liberation, wonder, power, and joy.

[Pixie Dust]

Lol. I view the eagle and God as the same. God being the invisible entity overseeing us all. So I don't understand how you've separated them, but it's humorous to see the dualism you experience.

For me being set free involved tremendous pain. To be freed from the realm of muggles and to live in the vast world of witchcraft and wizardry has been enlightening. I love the magical reality where things happen on my command. It's the sh*t. On the other hand, I really feel bad for the muggles who have no clue a secondary reality exists. There's a lot of unnecessary suffering in muggle reality. There's some suffering in wizard reality. There's a third reality, beyond the eagle/God that is so brilliant it has left me blind.

And so I traverse the three realities in search of ... and I'm content. But there was pain in learning that people are choosing to remain in muggle reality because it made them feel safe. There is two more realities to explore and not enough travelers. Hopefully, that will change.

[watergaze]

thnx for the inspiration Pixie

change in itself is not painful...
But coming out of something bad and hurtful we are not whole and often times it is only after the bad experience, once we are out of it, that we can actually feel its consequences, that we have the 'luxury' to go into it (and ofc to start healing) - this is why it is not uncommon to have most pain after painful experiences. It is a different kind of pain than the pain experienced during the bad thing itself. This different kind of pain is more hm existential. One needs to come to terms with what happened and heal. The pain is a pointer and trigger for this to start happening.

[Pixie Dust]

So what is wholeness? A sense of wellness? What brings a sense of wellness? I imagine resiliency is a component to wellness and wholeness. However, I don't see that's the only element.

I prefer to see wholeness as an awareness of self. When we are perceiving the many components of who we are, we see ourselves from the position of the nagual. We know thyself.

Hurt comes from fissures in self awareness. Hurt, in this sense, comes from being exposed to areas of the self we are ignorant. This hurt informs us to gaze deeper into the self to mend, with gold (think Kintsugi), ourself. The error some make when exposed to hurt is to mend another with gold. It's endearing for some, when they hurt, they try to mend (or injure) someone else. When in pain, the majority look outward, instead of inward. They blame others, when they would be better served by resolving the self.

It's funny, people often want to be seen in mostly a positive limelight. Yet, we are made of light, but also cast shadows. On the path to wholeness we should remember that it's perfectly acceptable to be a sh*tbag, on occasion. Knowing thyself is working with one's inadequacies, not denying them.
Denial is no fun for anyone.

[glance left]

watergaze wrote:
thnx for the inspiration Pixie

change in itself is not painful...
But coming out of something bad and hurtful we are not whole and often times it is only after the bad experience, once we are out of it, that we can actually feel its consequences, that we have the 'luxury' to go into it (and ofc to start healing) - this is why it is not uncommon to have most pain after painful experiences. It is a different kind of pain than the pain experienced during the bad thing itself. This different kind of pain is more hm existential. One needs to come to terms with what happened and heal. The pain is a pointer and trigger for this to start happening. 

So, this impetus to recapitulate for the collective has been brought to bear.  All these visions outlining the possibility....templates within which awareness can spread/move within.  That's all nice.  Looks good on paper.  What about the actual doing it.

Well, I decided to just go for it.  What the hell.  Silence this a.m. gathers momentum and I see the template (twin circles overlapping with interconnected nodes, shared and otherwise).  And then......it happens.  My recapitulating eye dilates and this massive wave of energy moves in, causing my body....like, each individual cell, it felt as if.....to vibrate.  Waves of pain......or, not quite pain....more like grief.....or longing.  "Existential pain" is a good word...it didn't feel personal.  And thus, not unbearable....well....bearably not unbearable   Wave after wave after wave.....I'm trying to process this feeling/experience and I'm suddenly taken to the front lawn of my house  when I was like 7-8 yrs old.  The colors, images are super intense.....super real....yet not real.  I turn to my left and am instantly taken to my friend's house down the street 2 blocks away.  Julian V.  Me, him and 2 other kids on that street were like a little clan....hanging together daily....bickering with one another.  I remember arguing with Julian about who would win in a fight.....triceratops or tyrannosaurus rex.  In his basement/rec room.  Then I see his father coming down stairs.  Then.....something in me moves into Julian.  His ambient apprehension.....directed at his dad.  His dad's constant verbal haranguing....verbal abuse.  Emotional abuse from an angry, frustrated man.  I'm in it.....feeling it.  Breathing with the recapitulation pass, back and forth....that feeling of those waves of longing coursing through me.  Not fun......

I remember, years ago, Ska Pastora (salvia) introducing me to this state suddenly and shockingly, shredding me into accordion strips and stretching me out, through the bed...the floor....the earth.....dipping down....over and then up like a streaming tube of clear awareness.  My awareness emerged, liquid and formless, into a car across the street with two 20 something females sitting in it.  They had the passenger window rolled down and were talking to an Hispanic guy (could have been any guy, please understand) who was leaning down onto the open window.  His aggression.....caged violence.  The girls felt it......I felt it....I was the girls.....I was the guy....the car....the street....the formless tube beneath the street...and me back in bed.  And, in feeling the shock of that aggression and their reaction....I recoiled and tried to race back up the down escalator of my accordioned awareness.  Fear.....recoil.....get the hell out of there! In my panic, I felt this being swoop up from the depths of the sea of darkness below the tube.....and lick my back.  It was absolutely horrifying (at the time )  Sheer desperation had me swim upstream back into my reclining body and I got up walking around my apartment, sweating blood practically.....literally drenched in sweat.  

I know I was overreacting to something I wasn't ready for.  Not enough of the objective over view....but still.  I wonder what I'm signing up for?

[funnyguy]

I don't think we're born into our beliefs but most are definitely like sponges when it comes to outside influence and knowledge at a young age.

Also pain is not the only by-product of change and freedom there are tons of wonderful things that go with that as well, however, it's usually true that it's hard to get to fluidity and break through fixations without sacrificing comfort.

I like what you say about self-awareness. In those terms it makes the whole process seem simple and it actually is unless we build on top of it think of the countless rituals made just to trap attention. Not that they're wrong or bad or not working they're yet another way to achieve the same means, however, a little longer but at times necessary.

I've heard many times recap comes to you, you don't go to it and I don't disagree but neither do I agree as I know that if you set yourself up and make the conditions inside right what you're waiting for will knock...

[glance left]

Yes! The dilated eye sees all. Thanks for the reminder. Including the joyful moments today in my recap

And, you’re right. There’s a ton of prep work that precedes the free expression of an effective recapitulation. I think that’s why, in the context of the tradition that I learned, the first sweep is very formal and disciplined. The retrograde list of everyone I’ve ever met.....from the last person I engaged back to Mommy and Daddy . Every impactful interaction with each, recapitulated. One the first sweep is complete (took me several years....but I’m not that disciplined then the more formless approach is engaged....and infinity starts to pull it all together like a spherical puzzle.

Completed puzzle, on an individual basis, becomes the piece that fits in the puzzle at large which if critical mass is achieved causes sweeping change through collective recap....I think LOL. Trying to incorporate Rosy’s vision.....with Serloco’s “anything is possible” inflection

[funnyguy]

I don't think it's a ton of work I just think that most are too lazy to actually commit to doing it that's all. It's about consistency it doesn't have to be 20 hours per day most importantly you need a calm mind and a good level of concentration with an open mindset. Once you got that things start flowing out by themselves and energy starts getting freed.

Think about how many things you focus your attention on per day, how many thoughts, and how many things you look at distract your attention as well. The conceptual idea I hold is simply about maintaining your attention to yourself not letting it run wild unless you allow it to. If that's achieved everything else seems to get effortless. You start seeing that the focus of attention on whatever is a choice and the best place to keep it is usually inward.

When I said people are like sponges while young that's not the only case a lot of adults are like that as well and it's our responsibility to take care of the tonal and guide ourselves and our attention. Most of adults are just much more fixated on their own stuff they've gathered through the years and man does that suck... You close out so much of the world like that.

[glance left]

For me right now.....in the absence of thoughts....there is this almost interminable deluge of second attention imagery that presses into and through that empty space like a roaring wave. Every time I close my eyes, the images pour in from out there somewhere, bursting at the seams with plumes of colored light.

Recapitulation, in that context, is almost a relief

[funnyguy]

You don't have to close your eyes to get to the second attention. One might say you should open them. But that's a great experience you're having and it's quite good to be able to choose whether to think or not. Awesome progress!

Recap in any context is a relief in my view as its whole point is freeing energy.

[glance left]

True that.....and nicely put

You’re right....I don’t have to close my eyes. With that in mind.....and plotting a trajectory forward. I fear for my sanity . Oh well.....anchors away!

[funnyguy]

You should fear the common sanity more than the insanity you're headed towards.

[serloco]

I havent done much recap to be honest. I have however expanded my memory a great deal and will do so more in the next coming weeks. I will also get more into the recap again. Thing is I have an abundance of free energy already and so i always say i dont need to. But I figure it wouldnt hurt to give it more of a better shot. Freedom is worth it.

[glance left]

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Serloco

Yeah.....who knows. Maybe something hidden away in there which could propel you to heights hitherto undreamed of (lol....sry. Heard that phrase in the Avengers movie. I can’t stop tossing it out there

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