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I had a major sequence of reapitulations in my dreaming last night.
It revolved around the influence that a very powerful man has had on my life.
I was born into this world with extreme sensitivity. My early years were filled with daydreams and fantasies. I could close my eyes and visualize other worlds that would captivate me for hours. I visited a magical forest whenever I wanted. It was so real sometimes I couldn't tell it from the waking world.
I could not seem to BRIDGE the gap between worlds because nobody around me seemed interested in my inner life. My ability to enter these inner worlds began to fade as I got older.
Then I met a man, when I was in my 20's, who valued and explored his own inner life. He accessed great power from within. He could not only walk on fire, but he could take coals from the fire with his hands without being burned. He could alter radio and tv reception and was able to stay awake for a month at a time. He could sit and look at a light bulb for hours while drawing energy from it.
My sensitivity had caused me to be a people pleaser up until I met this man. His advice and influence on me was to "do whatever you feel like doing at all times", without regard to anyone else's judgements or opinions. This allowed me a great deal of freedom. The missing element from his advice though, was to not take things personally.
I became very good at expressing my inner impressions and became very spontaneous in my actions. But because I continued to take things personally, I also became very impulsive and impatient in my dealings with people and situations. I went from being extremely introverted to being extremely extroverted.
Now my goal is to find the middle ground. By not taking things personally (from the 4 Agreements) I believe I can find that balance.
My dreaming last night began with a series of sequences in which the powerful man from my past got into trouble from his impulsiveness, and then switched to a sequence where I was visiting my mother in Florida (a journey into my past).
I had taken a motorcycle ride into a nearby town and gotten lost. I asked for directions from a very nice woman (Singer?)and was told to cross over this covered bridge to a highway that would lead me back home.
I started driving the motorcycle over the bridge but the passage became very narrow (narrow was the word I told to Singer and Castor in a lucid dream as a password). There was a woman with a baby carriage in front of me. We reached the end of the bridge where there were stairs leading to the street below.
The baby in the carriage rolled out as the woman started down the stairs. The baby rolled down to the last step, very close to the street, where a large bus was approaching. The woman couldn't get around the carriage to save the baby, and I couldn't get around the woman and the carriage to get to the baby. I was extremely frustrated that I couldn't help.
A man walked by on the street and reached down to save the baby, but a dog attacked the man as he reached for the baby. Then the dog's owner ran up and tried to control the dog, but the dog turned on him as well. The dream ended with the baby still on the last step and me not being able to get to it.
The recent dreams of snakes (awakening the kundalini) and of the two silver coins, representing balance, seem to be omens for a new phase of experience.
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Hi John...as usual you might have noticed I actually do not say alot..I'm quite quiet actually but still try and maintain a sense of humour. I as a child also was able to go into other worlds with my mind.
Your dream is interesting and perhaps has some symbolic meanings in it even. The child means something I'm sure.
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Hello John,
That child is you. Your mother let you slip away. Your relationship with her is the source of disruption in your bubble (at least its one source). Recap your relationship with her. The others represent beings that have been in your life as well. However, if you clear the deep emotional scar from your mother, it will no longer prevent you from reaching your true self. These things are seldom conscious imbalances that we can sense. I recently worked with a woman who had a tremendous bond and trust with her mother. Her mother passed away. She grieved for 25 years. She couldn't find a relationship that worked. No trust could be built. The bottom line was that she had lost the only true relationship she ever had in her mother. She was afraid it would happen again. She also was expecting every partner she had to offer that same trusting relationship.
Her grieving, it turns out, was based in abandonment and anger feelings. Once we recapped these feelings, it stopped. Her trust issues were based on seeking a mother-daughter type relationship with her fiances. We were able to clear that as well.
So you see, her issues were based on her relationship with her mother. She would never have thought this to be the case before we began.
.For the Standing Mother,
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I believe that I indeed am the baby in the dream. The two men who tried to help me are two powerful, magical, and ultimately unbalanced men who ended up not being able to help me because their own natures bit them in the ass.
I have inherited a psychic sensitivity that runs in my mother's family line. She has it as well, but is afraid of it. She married an Air Force Captain, my father, to protect her. My father didn't understand my sensitivity and gave me a hard time about it, and my mother could have supported me but didn't.
In my dream, I couldn't get to the baby and no one could help him, but the baby could help himself. You can grow up fast in the dreamworld, I've seen it happen.
My mother's fear of her own magic has caused her to fear her magical son. I still love her, but I'm finding the feminine support and guidance I need from my wife and from the Goddess within me and from Her Priestesses.
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Dreamster,
This dream you had is very interesting. I agree with Dok that the baybe could have been you.
Our memory is filled with things from the past that should be recapitulated trough tehniques in a day time and trough dreaming it happenes spontainiously.
All best to you,
Castor''It is a dangerous business, going out of your door. You step into the Road, and if you dont keep your feet, there is no knowing where you might be swept off to.'' J.R.R. Tolkien
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When I was a child, there was an old abandoned 3 story house in the woods nearby. My friends and I would sneak into the house and explore it from time to time. This house, with hidden stairways, attic, and all kind of mystery began showing up in my dreams. It became a recurring dream for me.
I hadn't had the dream for many years, but had it last night. I was inside the house, climbing old stairways and being fascinated by the old objects that I saw. I entered a room that had been the library and saw some metaphysical books that I recognized. Then I saw some other people who were also exploring the house. A man was looking at a deck of tarot cards that I recognized as mine. We began talking about an eccentric, spiritual man who had lived there, but I lost the dream at this point.
When I woke up I realized that this old abandoned house was actually my own ego structure. It was my personal history that I lug around with me. It is old baggage that I carry for security and protection but it actually keeps me from experiencing the freshness of the eternal now. I don't think I'll need to have this dream anymore.
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It's been a long time since I have visited Lone wolf's double. I was reading soem web pages conserning Castaneda and recapitulation came across. Is it posible I cant get lucid because I havent done recapitulation?
How many of you have done recapitulation?
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hi!
me not...
a year ago i started with making a list of people..but i left it being started-..
i think im not strong enough yet.
i have to learn to focus my intent first..
but i surely shoud start soon..
for example i thought about when when i visited my parents a few weeks ago, my father played a video with christmas stuff when i was 14-18 and i couldnt stand it, it was horrable to see me talk...my stomach twisted and i had to stop watching after a few moments...
i thought that i am not not in ....clean(?)..with my self...
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Excellent post Poutnik. Recapitulation does indeed make for better dreaming ability.
Start with recapitulation in waking and your dreaming will improve. The recapitulation process may also enter into your dreaming and help you become lucid. That has been my experience.
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Zitter: Hi. I have seen signes in life which were telling me to start with recapitulation. May be you also got your signes. How do you learn to focus your intent? What do you do for it?
dreamster: Thanks. So I have read. So you have done recapitulation. Can you describe how you done it?
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hi pout..
i think i wrote the wrong word...i wanted to say focus my attention, i have proplems with that...i started again to do my meditation every morning...
i strongly feel the need to get control over me and my life, i have problems to concentrate, that makes many things more difficult for me than they are.
i hope meditation will strengthen my attention..
its nearly impossible to make any progress in sorcery when you cant focus your attention on focusing your intent...
thats what i wanted to say...i can hardly concentrate..thats why im not ready for such a task.
you want to tell me what kind of sings you had?
for me the sings for recapitulation are mostly simply that i realize that feelings, like fear or anger, affect my actions and emotions, i think that i have things inside that arent "clean" . things from the past that taint my feelings and thoughts.
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hey zit
How do you meditate? I have the same problem with concentration and remembering so my life is in a mess.
I think the transergrita may be help with it so I am goign to start practising it. To help fix your concetration you should be fixing your awarness (aware) in your wake life or so I have read. I am also gonna start practicing that. (takeing to much load eh? )
My hints were 3. First I was rereading book from Castaneda "Art Of Dreaming" and I came across the spot where I underlined paragraph concerning recapitulation. I took a piece of paper and wanted to write down "Have ti start with recapitulation" but instead of that I wrote "I have to start FROM recapitulation" Second I was talking with one girl who is in magic and it was like looking into my own history. Third. I gote a url to a web site about Castaneda as I was listing thru web site I come across recapitulation and It just accured mi tha ithat were hints. Also I have started reading Castaneda's "Power Of Silence" And there was Manifestation of Spirit it just was like final dot.
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few weeks ago i was tested on ADS (attention deficit syndrome??)but im still waiting for the result...hm..
i was told several ways to srengthen the concentration, but in the end they are alle simmilar to meditation, my meditation teacher said the best way is to make a little black spot on a wall, then sit infront of it and an concentrate on this spot. every thought , every emotion should be immediatly thrown into the point..let there only be this point on your mind.
but i thinkl i will start with meditation first..
when i meditate i sit down, first i sing two mantras a few times, i have learned 5 mantras in my meditation course...but i mostly sing 2 or three of them,
its
-AUM aparajitaya nama *invincibility*
-AUM rudraya nama *transformation*
-AUM govindaya nama *protection*
then i sing AUM / OHM for a few minutes or more
then i get quiet and concentrate on breathing, breathe in, hold breath, breathe out, hold breath, breathe in.....
thats all...
do you meditate?
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hhmm,,,
what is transegrita?
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Racapping frees energy trapped by the body during tramatic events of one's life.. Recapping the main events first releasing energy then work on the ones that have seemed minor at the time.
Meditation using vision focus helps me. I use the double's sight to see you for example as a tool.
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Zitter:
Never heard of ADS. Let me know results if you font mind.
Quote:make a little black spot on a wall, then sit infront of it and an concentrate on this spot. every thought , every emotion should be immediatly thrown into the point..let there only be this point on your mind.
I'll try that it sound interesting and I did something like that once or twice when I was small.
Unfortunatly I never meditated not with the mantras. Do you close your eye when you meditate?
transegrita is transegrity in another words magic moves
Lone Wolf Welcome back. Glad you achieved your goals.
Can you write recapping in more details. I have read on web page it good to divide ones life into severel segment for example elementary school, high school, new house, marriega and such and recap part by part
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hey...you mean tensegrity?? castanedas magic movements...?
i tryed it, but with the book its not easy to make it right on your own i think...i bought the videos but i dont have a videorecorder...
a few years ago when i was on the german board i had to read thousands of discussions about tensegrity, its fake, its just pimped thai chi and qi gong and so on...i never heard such a discussion here...
anybody wants to start one?? 
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another common tecnique to train your attention is to take a clock and only pay attention on the second hand of your clock, when you managed to keep all your attention on the second hand...you can make it more difficult with putting the clock in front of your TV while something intresting is going on, and you shall still keep all your attention on the second hand..
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yes sorry for miss spelling
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Recapitation has two main objectives. The first is to free up energy and the second is to satisfly the awareness of the Eagle and its demand upon your energy.
The first objective should be organized to a point where the warrior can identifly the following in his life and then of course relive it.
Tramatic events
Pain: such as major damages/mental and physical.
Death encounters
The occupation of your body by the foreign installation
the holding back of events forgotten
encounters with spiriual beings
When we die or leave with our body into the other worlds we take with us mustered energy.
A warrior hopefully will survive death/eagle but he may surrender to it after he has made his dance.
That is what most do. They have only enough to make death wait for a short time.
One who has recapped their energy and face death as one enitiy have much more a chance to escape its grabbing hands and seek freedom behind the eagle.
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Wolf what do you mean Quote:The occupation of your body by the foreign installation ?
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Human beings are born free and without parasites most of the time..
At some point a child will grant permission to an unseen force that talks to it in its mind, to join with it and live in it. This parasite is called the foreign installation and it installs itself into the human mind and body and feeds on certain types of energy produced by the human being.
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And how do you find if you are or not infested?
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The test is to silence your inner mental dialogue.
When you can do that for long enough periods you can now inject your intent and manifest your power.
Go to a mirror, look into your left eye for a long time and see if you see something that isn't you looking at you.
Take this mirror to water and hold it underneath the surfac and stare at it and watc. Often the foreigh installation will appear OR you might see something else.
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what else do you know about our eyes wolf?
i realized that if i for example cross my eyes for double sight, or even when i look without focus my eyes on anything...then i allways have the mayn focus on my right eye..mayby it changes ..but i have the impress that i cant use them 50/50...
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Hey Zitter..the eyes are key. A sorceror uses eyes to perform acts of intent. If I wanted to make you see something I need to use your eyes right?
If I want to catch your intent I need to catch your eye..
A warrior uses his eyes to gather energy. A stalker uses his eyes to stalk you or the spirit.
The right eye is your tonal and the left eye is your nagual.
If I was talking to you normally I would use your right eye, if I wanted to move your assemblage point I would use your left eye. Crossing your eyes is fun and seeks to break a line that is making its way into your eye(s).
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