Key judgements though the childhood and youth

[Mornings Son]

From another recap practice that Don Juan's Look into you childhood and find strong emotional experiences with others typically parents.... Something went wrong and a powerful judgement became part of ones story and identity. 

this week i saw this one
I was around 14 years and had an insight about myself
I was special and I felt a big joy of being me
went and told my father
'My sister and I has something special' I was full of joy 
Father got angry and said very firmly 'Everybody is special. You are not better that anybody else!'

The judgement 
It is wrong to be joyful of being me 

This has stopped me from almost every ambition in tonal and for feeling joy...

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