12-02-2010, 12:00 AM
I'm not sure if that is a technically correct use of the biochemical term 'free radical', but it sure sounds good!
Just want to share some thoughts about a process I'm noticing inside due to hanging out here recently. Most of us here have spent our lives, or a portion of our lives, maintaining our inner truth, a truth not shared or recognised much at all by those who belong to the 'dominant social paradigm', the majority of folks around us. This has not exactly been easy!
And we have forged strong individual identities as a result, and I think most of us here cherish our individuality, well I know I do mine...it has allowed me to function in both worlds.
I have realised recently that part of the identity I have has come from the rebellion and 'fight' I have had to employ to hold my truth amid a sea of people who don't share my truth. That fact has also led to a certain feeling of being 'special' and that has sat very comfortably indeed with my ego thank you very much .
And here in this place I meet other strong identities. Now I am no longer alone. There are those who understand. I know they know, they know I know. I am no longer so 'special' hmmmm. And yet my identity still wants to assert itself as is its habit. I have noticed the rebellion fighty part of my identity 'acting out' where it is not now needed or appropriate. That recent deletion behaviour of mine was a part of that identity expression I think.
Its interesting! To experience a part of myself that has kept me 'safe' I now need to adjust, and relate differently, from a deeper, more authentic place. I felt 'special' before (being different from most of those around me) and here I am not so special, well not in that sense anyway. Inside adjustments taking place. My identity is not being lost, it is being expanded by the interaction here. I am learning about sharing and merging energies, and at the same time maintining full sovereignty. wow. Its all gooooood.
Its more than good. It is I feel, a hint of the future. What will groupings of sovereign individuals look like I like to ponder on sometimes, how will they behave with each other....its very exciting!
Just want to share some thoughts about a process I'm noticing inside due to hanging out here recently. Most of us here have spent our lives, or a portion of our lives, maintaining our inner truth, a truth not shared or recognised much at all by those who belong to the 'dominant social paradigm', the majority of folks around us. This has not exactly been easy!
And we have forged strong individual identities as a result, and I think most of us here cherish our individuality, well I know I do mine...it has allowed me to function in both worlds.
I have realised recently that part of the identity I have has come from the rebellion and 'fight' I have had to employ to hold my truth amid a sea of people who don't share my truth. That fact has also led to a certain feeling of being 'special' and that has sat very comfortably indeed with my ego thank you very much .
And here in this place I meet other strong identities. Now I am no longer alone. There are those who understand. I know they know, they know I know. I am no longer so 'special' hmmmm. And yet my identity still wants to assert itself as is its habit. I have noticed the rebellion fighty part of my identity 'acting out' where it is not now needed or appropriate. That recent deletion behaviour of mine was a part of that identity expression I think.
Its interesting! To experience a part of myself that has kept me 'safe' I now need to adjust, and relate differently, from a deeper, more authentic place. I felt 'special' before (being different from most of those around me) and here I am not so special, well not in that sense anyway. Inside adjustments taking place. My identity is not being lost, it is being expanded by the interaction here. I am learning about sharing and merging energies, and at the same time maintining full sovereignty. wow. Its all gooooood.
Its more than good. It is I feel, a hint of the future. What will groupings of sovereign individuals look like I like to ponder on sometimes, how will they behave with each other....its very exciting!