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Muahaha I finally figured out how to embed the exact video I want. Facepalms. I'm an ****, anyway...

Thought it worthwhile to post such a song. Yeah, I sold out to pop. Not very trendy, hipsterish, or awesome in the range of tone but the message is pretty clear. Sometimes yeah, we get suckered into something we were too naive to be in. I'm a big enough person to say I'm an ****, that's one of the great things about not having that much of an ego... I don't entirely care about the things that reflect on me. At the end of the day, I still have my power source and my endless supply of funnies and no one can take away my happiness.
I know, cheesy. I'll admit, I'm having a full blown cheesy moment full of random b.s. but that's another great thing about not caring about appearances ... I don't care I can post anything I want (Oh ok, not ANYTHING because obviously there are SOME lines I can't cross) but I can sure make myself look like a dork and revel in it.
There has to be a rule somewhere about how embracing the fact you can laugh at yourself is important... I swear I read it somewhere. Oh well, for all those on the path to freedom, let's take a moment and say to ourselves, "Yeah, I f*cked up. So what? It only made me stronger ... and funnier for it."

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Those f'ing little squares need to stop showing up in my posts, lol, they're annoying.

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Nice song Kaomea...I like what you wrote about your feelings

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Thanks, actually that reminds me of a quote I heard from Affinity a couple days ago in chat. It went something like, "In our willingness to be vulnerable is what lies the ability to be invulnerable." "In our willingness to be out of control, we gain control." Or somethings like that, it was really inspirational in the effect that what we avoid only becomes our weakness... why not toss all worries aside and be that which we are afraid to be.



... unless of course it's a serial murderer, in which case I'd advise not to be that.

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Yeah, posting again to my own thread cuz I'm cool like that. Lol. Since it's already made, why not.



It's sort of sad seeing the finish line up ahead and then realizing I was side-swiped mid-run. One thing I do have to comment on is the improvement being made each time I jump head first into love. I get closer and closer to that damn finish line. It makes me wonder if I should change my tactics at all. I mean, maybe it's me whose doing something wrong in all of this. But then I think, must I close my heart because it gets trampled over? Must I be more cautious of those I choose to love? .... I don't want to do that. It makes me happy to love openly, there's something inside that just flourishs when I feel loved and am able to love freely. Hindering that would make me sad.



Guess that means I'm not changing my tactics. I will continue to love as I always have. There is no such thing as feeling hurt and needing to shut down my heart because my trust was taken advantage of. It's so much more fun to go diving into unknown waters, at some point I will find the buried treasure and in it will await the most beautiful slinky I have ever seen.



If the slinky does not exist yet, I will manifest one to meet my desires! That's right, screw heavenly intent, if he does not appear within six months, I am creating a spell and bringing him into existence! Lmao, yes I am that stubborn. Is that like buying a blow-up doll? Damn, I didn't think I'd ever go that route. Oh well. If the universe doesn't provide what I need, I'll do it myself. I'm not afraid to get my hands dirty ... I like it dirty. Hahahaha.

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