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Some times I think things and think, wow, that's kind of cool, who can I tell? No one being the conclusive answer. But wait! A forum full of people perhaps as crazy as me? Perhaps they will tolerate my mad ramblings? lol
Out of all the things life has to offer the thing I like the most is knowledge. To know just for a second that life is intended to be fun suddenly and completely erases all doubt because real knowledge is for certain and never speculation. Real knowledge is simply to know for sure! It is in trying to apply this knowledge that I see how defensive I am. My challenge is to try to be brave enough to trust and live by those things I know for sure. It is too easy to be suspicious and defensive and so much harder to live with a heart wide open, holding nothing back.
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Nice description of a warrior's heart Lea.
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God, looking at it now I wonder. I am coming to resent every moment of my life. That is actually progress. funny. Nagal Lone wolf. I wonder if you would tell me a little bit about yourself? I would love to hear about your transition from being average to having power. I wonder if you ever had a cross roads moment where you nearly threw it all away? I would love to hear about how you realized what a nagal is and that you were one.
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Alot to answer. Do not resent your life as it is you and only you. Thus your battle and spirit. Above average? That has many meanings...I realize my predicament quite early in my life. There has been a few crossroads and I chose my path based on my love of my life. Throw my life away? More like...decided to keep staying here and learning is more the answer Lea. A nagual is a mutation of the human species..a born shaman if you will....I have always been with the spirit and it and I are one.
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cool, sounds like you are more than comfortable with everything. I'm freaking out and have been in a living nightmare for three years I honestly feel like everything I do is useless but that I have to keep going , just for the sake of knowing weather I can have the chance of deciding to stay here and learning. I guess I am making this choice all along. It is easy for me to have delusions, I indulge them. I just don't seem to be able to face the tightness inside me. I don't have the power so instead I am having to avoid it and pretend it don't matter. I realy like that picture below. The wolf hiding behind the tree. To me a tree represents knowledge and the fact that half the wolfs face is covered makes me think about the tonal and nagal. I know that the spirit brings people together who belong together so in this sense I feel like a bit of an intruder. I was a member of Theun Mares group The Toltec Legacy. I went off the rails and left and feel that it is the right group for me. I am waiting to be able to pay for it though so really just was shopping around in the mean time. Strange to think about. I think usually I have never been aware of making those decisions that actually guide my life so now I find myself more and more being held accountable for them. I think I am wanting life on my own terms and of course power has other more universal plans. But then so often the spirit will take my mindless actions and still bring me face to face with something of value. I wonder.
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Wonder is good. Life has many meanings. Best to strive to be a warrior in the face of adversity. Be strong and you will gain power Lea.
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Breathe in, Breathe out, Shake it all about. What is it all about?
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