09-30-2006, 12:00 AM
Recapitulation is not something that I read about by dreaming but something that just come out of me instinctively and became my most useful tool in my pursuit on my path as a warrior.
For example and I will give you many this one happened just resently and that was a 35 year old recurring dream that I have had since I was a little kid that a I forgot about until I remembered as a kid of having a dream that I was around 6 years old at being at a summer vacation cottage on a lake and this little girl about he same age in my dreams would come riding up to me on her tricycle and I would talk to her but when I did her mother which was mean and cruel would punish me and hit me like a mad women would and scared the **** out of me at such a tender age.
When I recognized this recurring dream while I was in my dreaming attention I felt I had to hid the fact that I was aware and stalk by acting out the dream
to lure the women and kid out and let the dream play out to the point not letting the offensive energy-{nightmere element}-know that this was a set up.
Everything turned out as planed and when I encountered the women that I was afraid of I slapped the the living **** out of that **** and told her that she had no right to treat me and scare me that way and when I woke up I know that I will never have that childhood nightmere again and that was just a couple of months ago but it shows how far back ago you can go.
Believe me I have taken care of alot of things in the meantime for example things that affect your self esteem and this had nothing to do with nightmeres or past dreams this was a shyness that I could not explain it got in the way of me socializing an elememt that limited me from interacting with people something that was always there and I fought it to untold endless turmoil until through my dreaming I focused on that matter and was able to trace it when I was little kid, one of my sisters friends used to play with my shyness when I was vulnerable and would pin me down with it and laugh at me and would intensify it totally at my expense and when I would see them years later they would do the same thing again and get the same effect and I'm wondering what the *** is going on and from that point of being young it had a lasting effect on me at least for 30 years of unexplained inhabition and what really made me get to the root of the problem is that made me mad because it got in the way of me getting ****.
"I was born with an abnormal amount of sexual drive even to this day I drive my wife nuts with an hour at a time everyday if she lets me."
So eventually when I traced that and that was just a portion of my problem through my dreaming I replaced that shyness with something else and when I woke up my shyness and inhibitions were gone instantly and when you recognize what your doing you can pick off and recap things that effect you on a energy level as far as someone that is fucking with you to a certain extent and I'm sure each person is differant.
I'm good stalking bad energy thats after me and confront it and beat the **** out of it but I find that I have to disguise myself in order to have it happen as far as something that they initiated.
Aranno.
For example and I will give you many this one happened just resently and that was a 35 year old recurring dream that I have had since I was a little kid that a I forgot about until I remembered as a kid of having a dream that I was around 6 years old at being at a summer vacation cottage on a lake and this little girl about he same age in my dreams would come riding up to me on her tricycle and I would talk to her but when I did her mother which was mean and cruel would punish me and hit me like a mad women would and scared the **** out of me at such a tender age.
When I recognized this recurring dream while I was in my dreaming attention I felt I had to hid the fact that I was aware and stalk by acting out the dream
to lure the women and kid out and let the dream play out to the point not letting the offensive energy-{nightmere element}-know that this was a set up.
Everything turned out as planed and when I encountered the women that I was afraid of I slapped the the living **** out of that **** and told her that she had no right to treat me and scare me that way and when I woke up I know that I will never have that childhood nightmere again and that was just a couple of months ago but it shows how far back ago you can go.
Believe me I have taken care of alot of things in the meantime for example things that affect your self esteem and this had nothing to do with nightmeres or past dreams this was a shyness that I could not explain it got in the way of me socializing an elememt that limited me from interacting with people something that was always there and I fought it to untold endless turmoil until through my dreaming I focused on that matter and was able to trace it when I was little kid, one of my sisters friends used to play with my shyness when I was vulnerable and would pin me down with it and laugh at me and would intensify it totally at my expense and when I would see them years later they would do the same thing again and get the same effect and I'm wondering what the *** is going on and from that point of being young it had a lasting effect on me at least for 30 years of unexplained inhabition and what really made me get to the root of the problem is that made me mad because it got in the way of me getting ****.
"I was born with an abnormal amount of sexual drive even to this day I drive my wife nuts with an hour at a time everyday if she lets me."
So eventually when I traced that and that was just a portion of my problem through my dreaming I replaced that shyness with something else and when I woke up my shyness and inhibitions were gone instantly and when you recognize what your doing you can pick off and recap things that effect you on a energy level as far as someone that is fucking with you to a certain extent and I'm sure each person is differant.
I'm good stalking bad energy thats after me and confront it and beat the **** out of it but I find that I have to disguise myself in order to have it happen as far as something that they initiated.
Aranno.