05-20-2007, 12:00 AM
Something that I have been doing more and more and written in the past months in dreams and in waking normal life is acting without thinking or acting while shutting your inner dialog off.
Its hard to act without thinking at times but I see the reason why Don Juan stated it several times but did not make any sense at the time that I read it but now that I have been doing it everyday now its getting easier to do and the thing that I noticed when doing this are the forces that try and divert your intent and "bingo" the struggle of unbending intent becomes the factor then.
I have made posts about "Mental Masturbation Syndrome" or MMS for short and this I neglected to elaborate on that subject and I labeled it MMS for laughs but what I wanted to emphasise is when I would know what I needed to do on something simple I would think repeatedly or rehearse in my mind over and over again on doing a simple act and the more I did it the end result when I finally acted would be totally different than what should have been and I would be pissed off at my self since I rehearsed or what I felt was preparing myself for the act.
What I found and I knew is that the more you think about it rather then just doing it, I made myself vulnerable to the F.I. influence by me thinking about it over and over it would be muddled with the flier influence.
Even after its been years since I try not to do this the conflict is always there and little by little its getting better but it does not go away and since I have been doing this by acting without thinking while trying to have unbending intent the thing that keeps me focused with the intensity that I need is knowing that this could be my last battle or act on earth and this realization makes me act this way all the more.
Me personally will have some successful times and then I would wake up the next day and feel like I did twenty years ago and have to keep remind myself to act accordingly and never loose focus and after knowing this I still act foolishly by falling in the old pattern and build myself and actions up and the next day I'm back to square one.
I can see slow progress on this being a permanent fixture of my actions but it does not come easy to undo your thinking that we are accustomed to.
What I find strange is that it is easier to shut of my internal dialog while I'm dreaming than in normal life because shutting it off is more complete in dreaming and when I do this is when I can see energy as it really is.
Its hard to act without thinking at times but I see the reason why Don Juan stated it several times but did not make any sense at the time that I read it but now that I have been doing it everyday now its getting easier to do and the thing that I noticed when doing this are the forces that try and divert your intent and "bingo" the struggle of unbending intent becomes the factor then.
I have made posts about "Mental Masturbation Syndrome" or MMS for short and this I neglected to elaborate on that subject and I labeled it MMS for laughs but what I wanted to emphasise is when I would know what I needed to do on something simple I would think repeatedly or rehearse in my mind over and over again on doing a simple act and the more I did it the end result when I finally acted would be totally different than what should have been and I would be pissed off at my self since I rehearsed or what I felt was preparing myself for the act.
What I found and I knew is that the more you think about it rather then just doing it, I made myself vulnerable to the F.I. influence by me thinking about it over and over it would be muddled with the flier influence.
Even after its been years since I try not to do this the conflict is always there and little by little its getting better but it does not go away and since I have been doing this by acting without thinking while trying to have unbending intent the thing that keeps me focused with the intensity that I need is knowing that this could be my last battle or act on earth and this realization makes me act this way all the more.
Me personally will have some successful times and then I would wake up the next day and feel like I did twenty years ago and have to keep remind myself to act accordingly and never loose focus and after knowing this I still act foolishly by falling in the old pattern and build myself and actions up and the next day I'm back to square one.
I can see slow progress on this being a permanent fixture of my actions but it does not come easy to undo your thinking that we are accustomed to.
What I find strange is that it is easier to shut of my internal dialog while I'm dreaming than in normal life because shutting it off is more complete in dreaming and when I do this is when I can see energy as it really is.