09-19-2006, 12:00 AM
I have not had any dreams as of awhile that were of any significance. I think it is related to my mental state of dealing with one drama or stress after another that has manifested in my life(which is the reasoning for my lack of posting). I do however see the light at the end of the tunnel, however it is still a bit away. But I have encountered another situation I wanted to share with you ad get some feedback.
So when I go to the Castle I usually go through a ritual before I go there every single time. I "sheild" myself. This started back when I had a few females that had friendship failed and when my copycat was always up my ass. I could actually "feel" their intent or their negative emotions being thrown at me. And paranormal things would happen to me because I was getting knocked down from it.
This past Saturday night I went to Elmer's to meet up with some peoiple in a different scene I have been hanging in before I went to the Castle. I forgot to sheild. And I didn't realize that until last night. I could "feel" people's intent towards me. I could Feel every man that had ulterior motives of a sexual manner to the point that it made me dizzy and overwhelmed me physically. I sat down several times through the night because of this.
So I was talking with a friend last night about it and he asked me why I would want to block myself from Seeing other people's intentions? Why would I not want to know right away what their deal was? Why do I want to be blind to the humans around me? If I knew right away because I can Feel their ulterior motives would that not help me weed out the bullshit people quicker?
He is right. It is about time that I start accepting that these things come to me. It is time that I Saw people more clearly. I am going to break this ritual I do before I go to the club. And I am going to teach myself how to get through these feelings and sensations that hit my body so that it does not make my head spin and my stomach knot up.
Now my question is how do you deal with empathy? What process do you go through that helps you See the situation to deal with it acordingly without shielding yourself from it?
So when I go to the Castle I usually go through a ritual before I go there every single time. I "sheild" myself. This started back when I had a few females that had friendship failed and when my copycat was always up my ass. I could actually "feel" their intent or their negative emotions being thrown at me. And paranormal things would happen to me because I was getting knocked down from it.
This past Saturday night I went to Elmer's to meet up with some peoiple in a different scene I have been hanging in before I went to the Castle. I forgot to sheild. And I didn't realize that until last night. I could "feel" people's intent towards me. I could Feel every man that had ulterior motives of a sexual manner to the point that it made me dizzy and overwhelmed me physically. I sat down several times through the night because of this.
So I was talking with a friend last night about it and he asked me why I would want to block myself from Seeing other people's intentions? Why would I not want to know right away what their deal was? Why do I want to be blind to the humans around me? If I knew right away because I can Feel their ulterior motives would that not help me weed out the bullshit people quicker?
He is right. It is about time that I start accepting that these things come to me. It is time that I Saw people more clearly. I am going to break this ritual I do before I go to the club. And I am going to teach myself how to get through these feelings and sensations that hit my body so that it does not make my head spin and my stomach knot up.
Now my question is how do you deal with empathy? What process do you go through that helps you See the situation to deal with it acordingly without shielding yourself from it?