11-26-2014, 12:00 AM
thanks watergaze.
yes im sure that self stalking is the way i can overcome these barriers. it is interesting to see how my anger manifests and look into the cause, it is just old self importance, silly things that no one in their right mind would give a damn about. it is funny as i notice how i can be so impeccable and have no self importance and the next minute its creeped back in.
i guess im not as tight as id like to believe.
i laughed because i also fail to get angry if the situation calls for it, then i do get angry later over something else meaningless, then i find that the reason is my failure to act impeccably.
i feel strange talking like this to the whole board, like probably its annoying and noone cares, i should write a diary or something.
yes im sure that self stalking is the way i can overcome these barriers. it is interesting to see how my anger manifests and look into the cause, it is just old self importance, silly things that no one in their right mind would give a damn about. it is funny as i notice how i can be so impeccable and have no self importance and the next minute its creeped back in.
i guess im not as tight as id like to believe.
i laughed because i also fail to get angry if the situation calls for it, then i do get angry later over something else meaningless, then i find that the reason is my failure to act impeccably.
i feel strange talking like this to the whole board, like probably its annoying and noone cares, i should write a diary or something.