01-26-2019, 02:57 AM
glance left wrote:
JJ, we'll be comparing bruises! Who got roughed up the most : D
I
It's funny. It feels like I'm getting roughed up, then I look down and don't see any bruises. What's getting bruised? Just my ego, and it's my own idiotic self-talk that's setting it up. I caught myself the other day using phrases like "I'm tired of" and "I'm sick of".... and I had to stop myself and ask what did I really mean? I was not physically sick because of what was going on. And I wasn't made physically tired either. So what would be an accurate way to say what I mean? Eventually, I realized what would be the actual accurate statement when I use those expressions is "I keep reacting with annoyance to...".
That accurate statement is quite useful. It focuses on what I do and allows me to change that rather than looking at things happening to me. So, I've been feeling "roughed up" by the schedule for deliveries I keep getting dispatched to me, as one of my more common complaints these days. But that's only because it doesn't match well with what I came up with as the schedule I'd like to work. So, I got annoyed and blamed others/fate for me not getting what I wanted, especially as this has been happening repeatedly. This strategy hasn't worked very well for me. Now, instead I'm attempting to just adjust to finding enjoyment in whatever schedule I end up having to work. Letting go of the tiller and just adjusting my position in the boat, so to speak.
JJ, we'll be comparing bruises! Who got roughed up the most : D
I
It's funny. It feels like I'm getting roughed up, then I look down and don't see any bruises. What's getting bruised? Just my ego, and it's my own idiotic self-talk that's setting it up. I caught myself the other day using phrases like "I'm tired of" and "I'm sick of".... and I had to stop myself and ask what did I really mean? I was not physically sick because of what was going on. And I wasn't made physically tired either. So what would be an accurate way to say what I mean? Eventually, I realized what would be the actual accurate statement when I use those expressions is "I keep reacting with annoyance to...".
That accurate statement is quite useful. It focuses on what I do and allows me to change that rather than looking at things happening to me. So, I've been feeling "roughed up" by the schedule for deliveries I keep getting dispatched to me, as one of my more common complaints these days. But that's only because it doesn't match well with what I came up with as the schedule I'd like to work. So, I got annoyed and blamed others/fate for me not getting what I wanted, especially as this has been happening repeatedly. This strategy hasn't worked very well for me. Now, instead I'm attempting to just adjust to finding enjoyment in whatever schedule I end up having to work. Letting go of the tiller and just adjusting my position in the boat, so to speak.