billy's basic detachment practice

[Billy]

In chatroom with serloco yesterday, I made the observation that most here merely parrot thoughts.  In reflection, I realized  1) that was me for most of my life (and now at times)  2)  I am very ordinary, but can do the extraordinary as all of you can with some realization.  
   Too, I apologize for my insulting posture.

   I resorted to some braggery pertaining to tonal acts when a third person joined the conversation, which reminded me to reconcile 'tonal occupation' with detachment for clarification.

   Even the enlightened will dabble in worldly affairs and become entangled in love, war, and sticky strings.  I am emphasizing here that I am of human nature, and goes with what I parrot, "I am always prone to being the **** I was (am)."

   This does not preclude the work to have awareness for integrity.  I mean being an **** is part of the deal, but not the whole enchilada.  And yet, a goodly section of learning is getting from off the ground from after disappointment, and maintaining a 'noble self-image.'

   It takes a lot of paying attention to balance identity with image(s) in controlled folly and for the real foundational divestiture of/for freedom that can be achieved (that I have achieved). 

   I am reluctant to continue with dialogue in this regard, but do remember I am recipient of having been given the words myself.  I am truly grateful there.

   It is a mistake to believe you can obtain to say 'spiritual maturity' disregarding 'tonal occupation.'   Lots of effort to get the tonal in order has to happen first.  There is getting a stable 'fix' concerning relations, a sustained income of foods, a balance of holding the tension of one's existential autonomy > (let someone smack you silly if you don't get what I mean). 

Then what sensible perspective is there concerning natural drives, and tendencies of fight or flight  when the world impinges?

   I get the impression that many don't understand that 'tonal occupation' is the initial basis for nagual activity and forever inseparable from spiritual essence.  I am a fucking human being.

   That said, it does not disqualify me from enlightenment and authentic PLAY, nor is it an excuse.  My maturity is to continually become aware to the point that I participate without being consumed, and can project out there without ever leaving billy behind.   Ironically, the whole point of practicing detachment is integrity.

   Who could think this crazy nonsense?  I become detached so I can be whole???   *** this ****!
Laughter!